[~DaemonMykailasMum~]

AHHHH I jus wrote out this HUGE post, and when I went to post it it messed u p!!! So I will do my best to rewrite it..

****M/c Mentioned & Memorial pics included****

Okay.. So... I read ealier that AF usually doesnt show up till 4+ weeks after your levels reach 0.. (Hada d&c on May 8th) well.. I took a test on May 21st and there was still a Suuuuper faint line.. and a bfn on the 22nd.. I also read that if af or what seems to be af, shows up before 20 days from your last "bleed" day you shouldnt count it as af.. Only if you havent seen blood for 20 + .. I jus want af to show so that I can decide when to ttc.. My Doc gave me the go ahead to ttc after one full real cycle.. in other words.. I get my first real af, and then I can start the next cycle.. Im not sure if I will, but thats when the doc said I could start..
So.. Im doing surpisingly well with the greiving of my Angel, and I think a BIG reason of that, is that Ive been recognizing him ALOT, rather than bottling him up inside.. I made him a Framed Memorial Letter type thing that I wrote 3 days after I lost him, its absolutely beautiful (Pics below) I also bought 2 Necklaces.. One I wear (A diamond Angel) and one I put in his little memory box (A gold cross with a little boy praying).. I also bought a "Precious Moments" angel boy.. that says a prayer.. And a little angel hanging Pillow that A put a May birth stone on... Oh! And a little Teddy Blankie that I put his BFP in.. and also I developed the pics of the rest of his bfps (Like 6 or 7) and the only belly pic I got to take at 9 weeks.. OH! And the BIGGEST thing that has been helping me is writing.. I write to my Angel almost every night... in a little notebook with a mother and baby on the front.. Anywhoo, I have a strong feeling thats why Im doing better now.. I am recognizing him as my Second baby.. And my next will be my third.. Heres some pics of all my little memorials... Thanks so much for looking ladies..
xoxoxox

PS Pray that my body gets back to normal and stops thinking its pregnant (Sickness, sore swollen boobs ) and that I get af soon..

Heres the memorial in the frame, by his little Precious Moments angel..


And here it is still on the computer so you can read it... (You will have to enlarge it)


Heres my only Belly pic..


Heres The little pillow I found with the May birth stone on it..


Heres the little Teddy Blankie with one of his bfps..


Heres the 2 necklaces I bought.. The diamond Angel is the one I wear, the boy praying goes in his Box.. (I havent painted and decorated his box yet, but I will be sure to post pics when I get it done.. )


And here are the rest of his BFPs..
The first one I got.. SO faint, But there! (10 dpo)

12 dpo

13 and 15 dpo

and 3 of my fave tests put together..

Oh and another!

Oh! And another dollar store test I took jus for fun, at 18 dpo..

[ShannonMVT]

I love your pics. You have some beautiful memorials to your angel. I especially love the necklaces. I think that your memorial items will bring you peace along with writing. I still write letters to my angel and place them in his memory box.



I hope your pregnancy symptoms will fade away soon so that they do not bring you any more emotional pain.

I think it took me a bit over 3 weeks to get my AF after my miscarriage. And since you are wanting AF....

I, ShannonMVT, being of sound mind and body, willfully and voluntarily make known my desire that my AF for the month of May be donated to Syleena.

[~DaemonMykailasMum~]

Thanks Shannon... I too hope these symptoms fade soon, They are starting to.. But I wish they'd be gone already.. Jus reminds me of what could have been Im sure it will get easier with time.. And the writing and all the things I have are also helping..

[Nicole1022]

Your pics are beautiful Syleena

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

The pics are beautiful. I'm glad that you are starting to feel better. Know that we are all here for you. I hope af shows soon for you and your body gets back to normal to start ttc again. I wish you all the best.

[jennntj13]

Love them too... again, I am so sorry that you have gone through this. I can't wait for things to go back to normal and for you to get your

[~DaemonMykailasMum~]

Thanks ladies... I honestly think Id be doing alot worse if I didnt have all those things to remember him by.. AND all you ladies, and the ladies over on the Preg Loss baord also.. Very supportive! and I thank you all!!!