[babyblue]

Just wanted to say hello to everyone and hi to all the newbies!

I leave tomorrow morning for Mexico with DH, and as with my last 3 vacations, AF is coming along. SHe showed today- yuck- but I knew she was coming. Oh well- I will be hitting the mojitos as soon as we get to the resort. I plan to enjoy my week of alone time with hubby. When we get back, I'll have to face not being pregnant and my upcoming due date, which is 2 weeks from tomorrow- and my sis-in-law having her "surprise" baby (2 babies within 1 year) sometime in there... . This is just a hard time for me, and every month gets harder. 3 months of clomid- six months of trying since my m/c and no luck. I haven't been around b/c it is just too hard to stay positive and I don't want to fake happiness.

I just feel lost right now and DH and I are super frustrated and don't understand what is going on since I conceived immediately both my other pregnancies. Nothing has worked right with my body since my m/c. I haven't decided if I'm ready for more medical intervention or not. Part of me just wants to try to "let go" and be happy with the wonderful child we have, which has been the biggest blessing in our lives. So I think I'm going to hold out for a while longer and see what happens. Maybe I'll get impatient, but right now that is my plan.

Good luck to all you ladies and congrats on those of you who are fortunate enough to be pregnant again. I wish you all the best!

[jennntj13]

Awww... I am sorry that you are so frustrated right now and I understand where you are coming from. I wanted to have my 2nd child close in age to Jackie (She is one week older than your son) and the larger the amount of time, the more I wonder...

I really hope that you can have your trip as a great time to relax and then come back and start fresh... and then get the you have been dreaming of! Big hugs and please pm me if you ever need to talk!

[madmum_sarah]

im sorry you are feeling down but look for the positives...
af showing means you can have a lovely break and enjoy a drink or 3 with your dh
you should be Oing right around the time your baby would have been due so maybe you will have some extra luck then and catch that eggy

i know how hard it is when you are used to getting pregnant right away but sometimes there is a reason we are made wait. ok, its not nice but you will have that sticky bean soon and then you will wonder why you were worrying so much because it will all be worth it.
have a great trip hun and come back safe
xx

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

Amber, I know how you feel. It's so frustrating to keep trying for so long. It's been 9 months for me now. Please know I'm here if you need to talk. I hope you have a wonderful trip.

[Pitridge]

I'm sorry you are feeling down, I know it can get hard at times. Please think positive, I know that pos it's just around the corner.Actually was thinking about that myself today. I think the hardest part of TTC is the 2ww, just testing and hoping for a pos can take a lot out of a person, the actually trying part it’s kind of fun . Lots of for you



Have fun in Mexico, I'm sorry the witch had to hitch a ride with you

[..Jessica..]

Oh Amber, that totally sucks that AF is going with you!!!!

I'm sorry you're going through so much of a wait! Is there anything your doc can do? Any tests or meds or something? I know this is very stressful on you and Kenny, but, another baby is what you both want, right?

Good luck this cycle girlie!!! Have a wonderful vacation!!!

[ShannonMVT]

I'm sorry things are rough for you right now. I know how you feel. It's so frustrating when all of a sudden your body stops working the way it is supposed to. Please PM me if you ever want to talk...

I hope you have a great trip to Mexico.

[Melanie0507]

Hi Amber! I am sure you are already gone, but just wanted to tell you:

1) I hope you have a wonderful trip!! Sorry about AF, but get your drink on, girl

2) I totally understand your TTC frustration. We are in the exact same boat and it does get harder and harder every month

Hope you have a great trip and we will talk to you when you get back!!