My due date is here

babyblue · #1 June 16th, 2008, 07:05 AM

Today is my due date- which was so neat to me when I was pregnant b/c it's also my parents 35th wedding anniversary.

I can't believe I have made it to this point and still am not pregnant. This is not at all how I saw my life happening. It just goes to show how we aren't in control of our lives, as much as we may try to be. We can only keep the faith and accept the cards we are dealt. Easier said than done!

It doesn't help that I bought baby onesies for SIX of my family/friends over the weekend. Then I got home and realized I had forgotten 3 others. That is 9 people in my life that are due in Aug/Sep. I currently have 3 baby shower invitations on my refrigerator and am hosting another shower next month. It's just crazy. I have never seen a time where so many people I know personally are pregnant. I know my time will come, but dang it, I wish it would hurry up!

Wee3monkeys · #2 June 16th, 2008, 08:26 AM

I'm sorry!!

I wish I could think of things to say to make today (and all the showers and pg friends) easier.

Just big

!!!!! And I hope you get your sticky bean soon!!!!

princesskate · #3 June 16th, 2008, 08:58 AM

i hope you get your sticky bean very soon xxx

HavensMomma · #4 June 16th, 2008, 09:52 AM

I'm sorry! You'll get your turn again soon hun. Sending you lots of dust for your BFP

.x~KAT~x. · #5 June 16th, 2008, 09:59 AM

im so sorry hun...i hope you get that bfp soon, im sure you will xxx

My edd of my first loss is on june 30th and dh and i are planning to plant a tree in his/her name...have you thought about doing anything like that to remember your baby with?

Again i am so sorry your feeling down ATM but it will all be worth it when you get your BFP!

*Melissa* · #6 June 16th, 2008, 10:01 AM

Hey hun. WOW you are so much braver than me. I am in the same boat as you. ALLLLLL of my friends are pg. I was so excited at first because we were all going to be pg and due at the same time together. But now that I'm not, i have had to sit back and watch them. They have all been having there showers and a couple have already had there babies, and I just haven't been able to bring myself to go to any of the showers... i just can't. It's hard because they are already having their 2nd child, and I'm still waiting to have my first!!! I know I'm still young (only 22) but when you are ready to be a mommy and you've already waited like 2 years, you want it NOW!!
I just can't believe how fast this has all happened. I'm so glad you O'd though! I really hope you catch that eggie!! I have been Oing EVERY MONTH, perfectly regular 32 day cycles, which is a HUGE blessing- but i still haven't caught that egg

I hope we end up in a ddc together soon

Take care !!

babyblue · #7 June 16th, 2008, 10:57 AM

THanks everyone. I guess I am glad it is finally here, because I've been anticipating it for so long and I'm just ready to get past today. I had thought about planting a tree, but we are trying to sell our house and are building a new one, and I don't want to do something where I"d have to leave it behind. I did think about getting an angel for my garden though, so I could take it with me when we move.

Melissa, I don't feel that brave really. I don't know how you do it. I feel so fortunate to at least have Mason. I can't imagine how tough it would be without having him. I have a friend who is due in about 3 weeks, and I skipped out on her shower a couple of weeks ago. I felt bad but I just wasn't ready yet. I am planning (tentatively) to attend my first baby shower since my m/c this coming Sunday. I just feel like it's time to move on and get some closure. I keep hoping that God will see how much effort I am putting into this and reward me with another child.

And yes, I was happy that I o'd on my own this month without clomid - right on track on CD14 too. And I had great EWCM- better than I've had in a long time. I started taking prenatals again and am doing my best to stay positive and hopeful that this will be my month!!

Good luck to you all! We ALL deserve to have beautiful babies in our arms!

Melanie0507 · #8 June 16th, 2008, 07:12 PM

Amber

I know exactly how you feel as far as the frustration goes. You totally deserve a sticky bean and I hope it comes this month!

I'm thinking about you today!!

..Jessica.. · #9 June 16th, 2008, 09:33 PM

Amber,

I'm so sorry hun!!!!! I know the feeling of wanting to be pregnant by the time the EDD comes, and when you're not, it sucks.

I hope you and Kenny caught the eggie this cycle, who knows, this could be your lucky one!!!

I hope you are doing well girl!!! Haven't seen you on here in a while!

jademyst13 · #10 June 16th, 2008, 09:47 PM

I really hope you get your chance real soon

kellyanne · #11 June 17th, 2008, 12:43 AM

for keeping that chin up! I haven't been to a baby shower since my losses, but I have been getting belly-envy big time lately. Everytime I go to the mall I swear it is pregnant woman day! You are a terrific friend to throw a shower. I think you will be rewarded for your efforts and I hope that it will be SOON!!

mom 2 haley & tyler · #12 June 17th, 2008, 05:54 AM

Amber, I hope and pray that you caught the eggie this cycle. I will keep everything crossed for you girl.

Tiny.Terror · #13 June 17th, 2008, 07:54 AM

*hugs* all around!

steph&dam · #14 June 17th, 2008, 11:03 AM

Amber, I totally know how both you and melissa feel. My edd was thursday. Dan and I were packing our house, and all of a sudden, I was like "today is the day our baby would have been born". It was sad. I guess I have moving to distract me, and we have had company off an on over the last 3wks. Dan's nephews wife was due this month as well. She was induced on June 13th, and things are a little problematic. She developed a fever and still has it, and the baby went apneic after birth. He is in the NICU. I have totally stopped charting, checking fluid, etc. I just realized today that I must be near ovulation because my drive increased.

Maybe soon for all of us. I have been crossing my toes, and opening my heart.

mom2kaisnkam · #15 June 17th, 2008, 11:40 AM

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I had a miscarriage exactly 14 days ago and my due date was to be 10 days after my birthday in January. I really hope to be pregnant by then. I know like you it will be hard.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Mommy2Makenna · #16 June 17th, 2008, 03:10 PM

Due dates are always hard. It WILL happen again for you! Hang in there, girl.

babyblue · #17 June 17th, 2008, 05:12 PM

THanks everyone. today was a better day and I feel really hopeful for this month!

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Amber, I totally know how both you and melissa feel. My edd was thursday. Dan and I were packing our house, and all of a sudden, I was like "today is the day our baby would have been born". It was sad. I guess I have moving to distract me, and we have had company off an on over the last 3wks. Dan's nephews wife was due this month as well. She was induced on June 13th, and things are a little problematic. She developed a fever and still has it, and the baby went apneic after birth. He is in the NICU. I have totally stopped charting, checking fluid, etc. I just realized today that I must be near ovulation because my drive increased.

Maybe soon for all of us. I have been crossing my toes, and opening my heart.[/b]

Steph, so glad to hear from you. I've been missing you. I'm excited you all are moving. And go ovulation!!! It will happen when you least expect it, I really believe that!! Distractions are good too, I've been learning that myself lately. Hugs to all of us here- we all deserve to hold our perfect little babies in our arms!

ShannonMVT · #18 June 17th, 2008, 05:31 PM

((hugs)) Amber. Due dates are hard. It's horrible to think you should have a baby in your arms and instead, you're still not pregnant again. Ugh.

And dealing with pregnant friends and relatives is no fun either.

I hope it happens for you very soon girl.