As my EDD approaches

HippyMomOf4 · #1 July 17th, 2008, 10:13 PM

I sit here thinking that i should be holding a baby in 2 weeks! I should be big and pregnant and getting all the last minute things ready for the baby. I should be filling out a birthing plan and getting all the paperwork ready. I know this day was going to come but i didn't think it would be so hard. I want to just cry and scream! I think what really brought it on it my really good friend is due right around the same time i would have been due, and she just called me and said she thought she was in labor, she was asking me all the questions about how she does she know shes in labor. I answered them all for her and i'm really happy for her, but i'm jealous at the same time. I'm still sitting here thinking why did this happen to me, i have two healthy babies why now! Why when it was the one thing i wanted the most was it taken away from me. I understand life isn't fair but why me why 2 in a row! Not only do i have this EDD i'm depressed about i have my next one coming up in september! I'm sure i'll get through this next couple months but its sure not going to be easy. Life just isn't fair sometimes!

princesskate · #2 July 18th, 2008, 01:21 AM

oh im sorry hun, im sorry I have no advice for you, or anything that can make you feel better, i know how hard it is myself, as do all the ladies here. I just wanted to send you

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jenn27 · #3 July 18th, 2008, 07:38 AM

I'm sooo sorry. I wish there was something that I could say to make it easier. THose are the same questions that I have asked myself over and over and wonder why did this happen to me? I still wonder sometimes why and I'm sure it will be the same way when I reach my EDD in February of next year. I have a good friend that is going to be induced on what was my due date. I hope that you find peace and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Life isn't fair but hopefully soon you will be holding your little miracle and can look by and know that all things happen for a reason even thought I have to convince myself of that quite often.

mom 2 haley & tyler · #4 July 18th, 2008, 07:51 AM

I'm sorry you're feeling like this Denise. It's def not fair. My edd was in April and it was so hard to get through. Just know that we're all here for you.

Eleysia · #5 July 18th, 2008, 09:16 AM

Oh Denise sweety, big

life just flat out sucks sometimes

I hope that the next couple months arent too hard on you girl. If you need to talk or anything im here, i know that doesnt help much but its an offer thats always there

HavensMomma · #6 July 18th, 2008, 10:28 AM

HippyMomOf4 · #7 July 18th, 2008, 10:44 AM

thanks girls! Today i seem to be feeling better so i hope that it last!

KDD · #8 July 18th, 2008, 05:08 PM

I'm sorry Denise. I find it hard right now attending events. I'm going to a family wedding next weekend and I had imagined it in my mind when I was going to be 26 weeks pg. I know that I will have a rough time when my EDD rolls around. More

dojodiva · #9 July 18th, 2008, 06:29 PM

((HUGS)) Life is so unfair sometimes. I'm sorry.

tracalyn · #10 July 19th, 2008, 01:26 PM

acolledge2 · #11 July 20th, 2008, 03:59 AM

Denise, if I could I would hug you.

Everything that you are feeling and saying are what I am feeling and saying as my EDD due date for the twins is in 3 weeks. I am so sorry that you are going through this and I hope that as the days go by you remember how much support you have here. We will survive this, together and we will forever be changed by it as well.