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madmum_sarah · #1 July 19th, 2008, 02:53 AM

help me girls. im NOT ttc right now and i know for sure if i lost another one i would give up and have a hysterectomy because there is no way my family can take anymore and the idea of that scares me even though i think it would be for the best.
im gonna need you girls to keep me sane as AF isnt even due til next saturday. i hate my long lp!
i know i seem to be doing this every cycle right now, i just wish they would stick so i didnt have to for a long time!

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#2 July 19th, 2008, 05:30 AM

As hard as it is, just take it one day at a time. Your LP sounds great 16 days and usually is the most consistent number in our cycles. Maybe the month you had a short LP, you maybe o'd earlier than ususal.

I understand what ttc and losing a baby can affect you and your whole family. So again, just take it one step at a time. You're doing so strong with trying to get your body and mind ready for trying again.....and who knows what can happen before then.

Hang in there hun, we're there with you

madmum_sarah · #3 July 19th, 2008, 05:34 AM

thank you pamela. i keep thinking out Oing earlier but it was only a 22 day cycle. it was depo only a 9day lp.

im tryingt o take it one day at a time and to be honest in a way im hoping this month is a bfn. i dont "feel" pregnant this cycle so im hoping thats a good thing lol
xx

*Bobbie* · #4 July 19th, 2008, 06:03 AM

Um... yeah... about that chart..... you know what I am going to say. Looks like a classic BFP chart

That said.....I hope this doesn't sound un-feeling...or kinda rude but..... I say do not test until AF is due. Chemical pregnancies are way too common and if a loss again would crush you then do not test early. By waiting to test you help avoid knowing about chemical pregnancies. I test early and picked up a couple. I am the type that would rather know than not know though.

That chart does look like a picture perfect one

cause things happen for a reason!

madmum_sarah · #5 July 19th, 2008, 06:44 AM

yeah thanks bobbie.
i wont be testing till a week on monday anyway, that way i will be a day late. i know myself i couldnt take it if i knew i had another one (although looking at my charts since november i would be surprised if i am not preg this cycle.)
like i said though, i really dont feel it this cycle and thats a couple of days i have had to check how far am i because im not keeping track lol. i simply enter temps and close the thing

mark and i have also decided that after november we will just stop protection but not be charting or anything. i know my body well enough to know when i O now but i dont want to obsess over it
thank you for the support girls

xx

akafrogs · #6 July 19th, 2008, 06:58 AM

OH Sarah, I know your scared, and your chart is following your pregnancy pattern. I do agree to not testing early. I know it can be hard, but sometimes it's just better not knowing.

My chart is looking good too, and I'm having a few little symtoms, but I'm not feeling it either, which I'm taking as a good sign, because I was totally feeling it w/ my chemical pregnancy.

akafrogs · #7 July 19th, 2008, 10:28 AM

The other thing I was just thinking about... Your still taking the pill right??? They are designed to mimic pregnancy, you may have ovulated, but your temps could be from the pill.

Eleysia · #8 July 19th, 2008, 11:59 AM

Sarah, I dont have much time hunny but I just wanted to say have some faith girl and keep your chin up. Regardless of how much it sucks, everything happens for a reason, if youre pg then God (or whomever you believe is watching out for us) wanted it to be so. I love you girl, and if you need anything PM me. i wont be posting till monday but ill be on checking my messages

Just stay strong hunny, everything will work itself out!!

jenn27 · #9 July 19th, 2008, 12:43 PM

I just wanted to tell you that you will be in my thoughts and prayers. Your chart really is looking good and even though you are not TTC right now, I am with the other ladies. Everything happens for a reason and if you are pg, then maybe its just your time. I hope that whatever happens works out for the best and I hope you don't drive yourself crazy in the next week. I wouldn't test until you are late thought like Eleysia said. Please et us know if you need anything.

Pound · #10 July 19th, 2008, 01:43 PM

i know nothing about charts, but i agree w/ bobbie- if you can't take knowing about a chemical, don't test early. i had one last yr and it felt the SAME as when i had a m/c at 7 wks, and i would rather just not have known. if it turns out you are pg, then good luck!! i hope it's a sticky one.

madmum_sarah · #11 July 19th, 2008, 02:54 PM

thank you so much girls.
im definately not testing until a week on monday and if i am even tempted then i give you all permission to slap me!

i know i sound like i do this every cycle and i hope no one thinks im making all this up for attention.

sorry, just had a row with a friend who commented "you do this every month and ok so you have lost a few "bfps" but they werent babies and if you are right then at least you know you can get pregnant"

im really paranoid now and pretty hurt by her remarks too. they were babies, they were MY babies!

i wish i could just go sleep and wake up when af shows now
xx

KDD · #12 July 19th, 2008, 04:43 PM

I hate to see you get so upset and stressed out when you have so much going on. Definitely DO NOT TEST until AF is late (if she is late). You said that you aren't having any symptoms, so don't stress out about it. And about your friend - you are right. They are your babies no matter how long you carried them!

jennntj13 · #13 July 19th, 2008, 08:40 PM

Oh sweetie... I really hope that this is cuz of the pill and that the next few days fly by and AF comes your way soon. I will be sure to keep you in my t & p...

You get to start trying next month though, right?

madmum_sarah · #14 July 20th, 2008, 03:10 AM

no jenn im not trying until november

its going to be hard but i know its best for me, my body, mind and family.
im making an appointment for the doctor when af arrives to ask for the injections. i put on weight, get bad headaches and mood swings with it but its the only thing that has never caused long term damage (losing ovary was down to implant and coil caused me P.I.D) but not allowed me to get pregnant and now im wieghing up the pros and cons i think that is the best idea to save me going through this every cycle. i have another 4 months before i ttc so this would just drive me insane!
thanks again girls and thanks kimberley for agreeing about my babies. sometimes i feel people dont understand how it makes me feel. its always good to remember you girls know the feeling

xx

jennntj13 · #15 July 20th, 2008, 08:13 AM

Well, you and I may be in the same DDC then!

I am starting my new job on Wednesday, so our TTC plans will have to be postponed until about December or so...

I would definitely get yourself the shot so that you don't have any more oopsies between now and then. I have been thinking of calling the OB to get a script for BCP...

I hate condoms and so does dh... and I think he is getting sick of me telling him to use the ###### things!!

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We can hang in here together...

mom2kaisnkam · #16 July 20th, 2008, 11:47 AM

First of all here is a BIG

I can only imagine how you feel. I am afraid of getting a BFP too, but want it so bad. Usually when you stop trying is when it happens. I am praying for you and wish you all the best.