[babyd28734]

Ok since Im new here I will tell you a little about our story.
After getting off of bc in feb 2005 we decided that we wanted to try again.
well we tried off and on for about 2 1/2 years then finally gave up and quit trying.
Then in April of this year we were suprised when i started feeling really sick and decided to test and got us a BFP! At 14 almost 15 weeks along we miscarried(still dont know why,but hope to start trying to figure out why in 2 weeks).
Well lately I have been reading on TTC and TTC after loss and i find myself thinking oh well I cant wait to have AF so I can test. Then I say to myself you were pregnant but you loss the baby.
It feels like I dreamed up everything and that it never happened and we are stilling battling with TTC.
But it did happen and thats what is so hard I am so scared that it will take us another 3 years to get pregnant again. I know that its just the wait for AF that is driving me crazy and hubby being away and tomorrow being 6 weeks since the loss and not having him here with me.
Does that sound like I am going crazy to you?

[HippyMomOf4]

I don't think you sound crazy at all, we all feel that way at some point or another. I'm sorry for you loss, it is a hard time. We are all here for you!

[jenn27]

I'm sooo sorry that you are feeling this way but I think it is completely normal. You are anything but crazy. I know how the waiting goes. After my m/c, it took 54 days for AF to come back. It was so frustrating. I know there really isn't anything that I can say to make things better but I hope that you find some comfort here talking to women that have gone what you have gone through. Everyone here understands and I hope that you get some answers and can get back to TTC soon and get your little miracle. Don't give up hope and keep your head up. The good thing is that you can get pregnant and you know that now. We didn't try as long as ya'll had, we had been trying for 9 months but knowing now that I can get pregnant is what got me through it. We are all here for you and I hope that you find peace and can get back to TTC soon. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck to you and KUP.

[Brittanie]

I know what you mean, completely. I got pregnant with Cora in August and lost her at he beginning of May (@38w). I got pregnant with Erin at the end of september and had her at the beginning of June. I was just a month off from the previous pregnancy. It felt like the whole year from conception of Cora to conception of Erin disappeared somewhere. I was still pregnant and sick for Thanksgiving/Christmas...and we didn't have a baby yet. Sometimes I have to stare at Cora's little handprint in the clay to prove to myself it was really real.


But you WERE pregnant and you HAVE a baby watching over you!


I hope it doesn't take long for you to get another bfp!

[KDD]

You weren't dreaming, but I know exactly how you feel. You get your BFP and then you picture what the next 9 months will be like, how far along you'll be for family events and holidays. Then the rug gets pulled out from under you, but you still have those images in your head.

We're all here for you if you need us.