I'm devastated

MountainMomma · #1 August 7th, 2008, 08:07 PM

I'm just going to copy and past the post from my DDC.

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Thank you for thinking of me ladies. Sadly, I am sure I lost my little bean today. On the way home from the airport after picking up my kids I had horrible cramping (worse than any of my other m/c) and I started bleeding heavier and passed several really big clots and possibly (as the doctors put it) the "product of conception". I'm bleeding heavier and it's bright red and lots of clots, but it's still not heavy like a normal flow even. I think I might need a D&C this time. Even though I had a bit of warning I'm devastated. I'm still going to keep my appointment next Friday with the OB/GYN and if by some miracle I am still pregnant I will be back. At this point though, I'm sure this is goodbye. And depending on what kind of tests he wants to do and the results we get.....IDK......we might be done TTC. I just can't keep doing this to myself physically or mentally.

To make a horrible day just a bit worse, my ex husband's attorney chose today to call me to tell me he wants me to agree to mediation to work on an agreement to amend our custody agreement. Basically, I made him mad, so now he is trying to take my kids. This has been one of the worst days of my life. Second only to watching my father take his last breath while I held his hand in January of 2007. And from the looks of things, it's just going to get worse before it gets any better.

I appreciate all the prayers more than you will ever know. I really hope that no one else has to leave the DDC. I'll be stalking you all. I can't wait to see the pictures of your precious little beans in April. Enjoy your pregnancies ladies. And when you little ones arrive, give them some extra cuddles from me.[/b]

HippyMomOf4 · #2 August 7th, 2008, 08:11 PM

Oh no hun! I"m so sorry! Its just not fair, this should never happen to anyone!

Melanie0507 · #3 August 7th, 2008, 08:13 PM

Please talk to your doctor and see if they can do some testing...this just is not fair

Sending lots and lots of T&Ps your way

Pound · #4 August 7th, 2008, 08:26 PM

i'm so sorry for everything happening.what a suck as$ day.

Jessica! · #5 August 7th, 2008, 08:29 PM

I am so sorry.

Bakin8th · #6 August 7th, 2008, 08:31 PM

I am so so sorry Steph. I have tears streaming down my face I dont even know what to say ..I am just soo deeply sorry. ((hugs))

..Jessica.. · #7 August 7th, 2008, 08:54 PM

I'm sorry Steph, for everything you're going through.

You don't need your ex being like this, he should be grateful you are the mother of his children.

NeeshBoogie · #8 August 7th, 2008, 09:25 PM

Talk about when it rains it pours, and it sucks that you're the one getting all wet. A million soothing words probably won't be enough, but my heart truly does go out to you. I agree with Melanie, and I hope you ask the doctors for some tests to find out what's going on. I wish there was something I could say or do to make you feel a little better, hopefully keeping you in my t&p will work well. If you need to talk my PM box is always open and I've got a very kind ear.
Again, bif

and I'm very sorry you're going through this.

kellyanne · #9 August 7th, 2008, 09:49 PM

Steph,

I'm so sorry! I think I was hoping for yours to stick as much as I was hoping for my own! I am going to take a bit of emotional recovery time, but after that I should be starting the testing process to try and figure out something....perhaps if you are having testing too we can share info, etc.

MountainMomma · #10 August 7th, 2008, 10:23 PM

I'm definitely going to go ahead and have some testing done. I have the appointment that I originally scheduled more than a month ago still, and I am going to keep it. I really don't know at this point when I will be TTC again, or even IF I will be, but if I can get an answer, I have to know why this keeps happening to me. I also know that at this point, I can't keep doing this. After 28 months, and 5 losses, it's time for a break. I don't know if we will prevent or if we are just going to be NT/NP but I do know that we won't be trying for a bit. I need time to heal emotionally. I need time to get myself back into better shape, and I need time to deal with my ex and get this over with.

Del4 · #11 August 8th, 2008, 12:56 AM

I am so so sorry!! I think Neesh put it best. I wish I had words that could make things better, but I know there are none. Best I can do is offer T&P's and hope that helps a little.

.x~KAT~x. · #12 August 8th, 2008, 01:28 AM

Oh hun im so sorry

I wish this wasnt happening

#13 August 8th, 2008, 02:05 AM

Responded in PAL, but wanted to send you hugs

tracalyn · #14 August 8th, 2008, 02:57 AM

I'm so sorry hon

katiegirl · #15 August 8th, 2008, 03:30 AM

Steph I am devistated to hear your news. Like the other ladies I wish there were words to say.
I know that you need time to recover physically and emotionally and to deal with your ex and all his rediculousness but please remember that we are always here for you

Mommy2Makenna · #16 August 8th, 2008, 04:33 AM

Steph!! I'm so sorry!

I hope you can get some answers. I will keep praying for you.

madmum_sarah · #17 August 8th, 2008, 05:01 AM

im so sorry hun. i just dont know what to say

xxx

mom 2 haley & tyler · #18 August 8th, 2008, 05:05 AM

I am so sorry Steph! My heart just breaks everytime I hear someone going through this. You are in my t&p. Please KUP on the testing and the kids.

jenn27 · #19 August 8th, 2008, 06:34 AM

I'm soooo sorry Steph. This is heartbreaking.

I hope that you get the testing done and they can get your some answers. I will continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that the Lord blesses you with a little miracle soon. KUP sweetie.