[Christine-MA]

Hi ladies, I guess I will (reluctantly) be the newest member of TTCAL. My name is Christine (29) and I am TTC #1 with DH Randy.

I was a member of the March DDC, and just found out yesterday (at 10 weeks) that the baby didn't have a HB, and only measured about 7-8 weeks. Dr is supposed to call me today to schedule a D&C. I hope I can get it done tomorrow (if not tomorrow, it will be Friday) and get it over with. It was so devastating to look at an ultrasound and see the LO and see no HB. Dr also did a transvaginal just to be 100% sure. Honestly, I just had a "bad feeling" anyway, but of course I was hoping I was wrong!

to all of you because obviously you've experienced something similar and it's heart wrenching. There's no doubt I want to start TTC again asap though. (Dr said after my first period after my D&C).

I honestly think some of the hardest things for me are going to be:
1. When magazines I ordered in the mail start to come (Fit Pregnancy, Parents, Parenting)
2. When the due date comes (and to make matters worse, I was due on not only St Patrick's day-which is one of my favorite days of the year...but it's also my 30th birthday)

Also, I have an uncle I am very close to, and his wife is being induced today. But I honestly don't think that will be too hard. I'm obviously thrilled for them. But I have a feeling it might be a little harder than I think. We'll see.

I am so sorry. I love when new ppl come to the board but it makes me so sad because someone else experienced the god awful heartache we've all had to go through.

As for the upcoming dates that may be hard, I guess you could look at St. Patty's and your birthday as now having a little angel watching over you. No matter what, it will be hard, but just take it one day at a time. And who knows, by then you could be pg again!

I never ordered magazines but if I were you I would call and cancel. I know other women have posted about getting free formula and diapers in the mail. So when a magazine company has your address, I don't think theres anyway to stop the freebies.

I hope your D&C goes well. KUP.

BTW- I'm Erika, I had a D&C in Oct 07 ( I started miscarrying the day before I had my first ultrasound, so I don't know if the baby was measuring smaller, etc.) We have been TTC since Jan 08.

[madmum_sarah]

im so sorry you are joining us but im pleased you are here with these wonderful supportive (insane) ladies
what you are worried about is normal. is there no way you can cancel your magazines or even have them delivered somewhere else so you can read through them when you feel more able?
the other issues im afraid i have no advice on. they are things we just have to deal with as they happen unfortunatly.
i pray all goes well and you can get your D&C done today so you dont have to suffer extra for longer and can start to recover.
please do stick around and if you ever feel like you just want to cry then post here, we will always offer a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a hug should it be needed
xxx

[Eleysia]

Im glad you found this board but also sad that you had to lose a baby to be here. Like you said, to some extent we have all suffered similar losses. Everyone has their own story, but we all hurt.

It is normal to want to TTC asap, but please remember that it is also normal to grieve. I hope that once your doctor gives you the green light that you get pg right away and have a H&H 9 months. This group of women is very supportive, and closed knit. If you need anything we are all here for you. Please dont hesitate to ask.

Im Eleysia and i had 1 loss in Feb at about 7 weeks (natural m/c), and I had a loss in June at about 9 weeks (D&C). Im no longer TTC but I am here because I cant leave. These women grew on me hahah

[MusicalJulia]

Nice to see you here, too.. Christina (well.. not nice to see you here.. but you know what I mean).

[Wee3monkeys]

Hi Christine! I'm very sorry for your loss! The ladies here are wonderful, completely understanding and empathizing, jump right in and make yourself at home. Welcome to TTCAL!

[IAMommy]

Hi Christine. I am sorry about your loss.

I just wanted to welcome your to the board. Like everyone else says, the people on this board are fantastic. Feel free to ask or post anything.

My name is Sam, my DH is Travis, and I lost twins at 20wks this last April. I have been TTC again for the last 3 months.

Getting pregnancy mail each week is very hard to deal with. After we found out about our loss, we spoke to a grief counsler at our hospital, and that was also a concern of mine. The counsler gave me a form I could mail in to a company that notifys any pregnancy junk mail / magazine companies, and takes our name off the list. I got mail for about a month afterwords, but after that I have not gotten anything. Durring that first month, I had DH get the mail everyday, and he sorted and threw out the pregnancy mail so that I did not have to see it.

I don't have a copy of the letter, but try asking your hospital to see if they have anything similar.

[babyd28734]

Im so sorry fro your loss but glad that you found us
Hugs

[Christine-MA]

Thanks ladies. I was also since remembering the "Your pregnancy at 9 week" updates I get (and so looked forward to each week). I did unsubscribe to those, so hopefully they stop soon! I'll get through it. I actually am doing okay.

My D&C is scheduled for tomorrow at 11am. The hospital is supposed to call me later to tell me when to be there, what to expect, etc. I hope that will begin the healing process. I don't have any bleeding on my own, but I couldn't stand to just wait it out (which was an option my dr gave me)

[KDD]

Hi Christine, I "met" you yesterday in another forum.

I got a maternity clothes catalogue in the mail yesterday - my loss was 4 months ago and it didn't really bother me. I'm telling you to let you know that it will get easier.

Like Eleysia said, allow yourself time to grieve and heal. We are all here to support you.

Good luck with your D&C tomorrow.

[kellyanne]

Hi Christine,

I'm Kelly (26) ttc #2...have one dd (2) and 3 m/c. My last m/c on August 8 sounds very to your situation, 10 weeks, baby measuring behind & no hb, but in mine I knew for most of the pg that I may m/c. Since my first two m/c were natural, I was pretty worried about the d&c, but it actually went so much better than I had anticipated. The recovery has been very easy physically and emotionally I'm just taking it one day at a time. I hope that it goes well for you too.
& welcome

[HavensMomma]

Hey Christine, agan im so sorry for your loss. I know its so hard right now, but eventually it will get easier with time. Make yourself at home all the ladies here are very supportive! The D&C isn't so bad, i only had minor cramping after mine and they give you pain meds, it the emotional part thats the hardest.

[Enchanted Mumma]

Hi Christine,

I'm so sorry for your loss...very nice to meet you, just wish it wasn't under these circumstances.

Welcome to TTCAL...all these women are so supportive. I've only been on here for not even a week & I feel completely as ease with these ladies.

[~*Nessy*~]

Welcome to the group, and I am very sorry for your loss.

I havent opened any of my pregnancy magazines/parenting. I just put them in the extra room. I'll read them whenn the time comes back around. One of the hardest things that I have had to go thru was something that I have done to myself. Seeing babies is hard for me or pregnant women. I'm glad I dont have any close friends who are pregnant or family memebrs getting ready to have a baby.

[HippyMomOf4]

Im so sorry for your loss! Welcome to TTCAL, all the ladies are very supportive and caring here. I don't know what i would have done without them when i went through my losses.

I'm Denise(23) DH is Chris(25) i'm a SHAM to Isis(3) and Athena(2) and also have 3 angel babys!