[craw16]

Stopped BCP July 2007 and got pregnant. Next month got a pap smear and during exam started bleeding and never stopped. It was a 8 week long miscarriage. I'm turning 31 and keep hearing about getting old. We got all the fertility meds from doctor after being diagnosed with PCOS. Got ready to take them and found out they wanted me to get MMR vaccine first. So had to wait three months. This month took the provera, clomid, and estrogen. Used the ovulation kit and hopefully we are successful. My husband told me this morning that he is worried. After miscarriage I gained 50 lbs and was so depressed. I have become obssessed. Charting everything, reading books, always on computer reading up on signs, symptoms, checking mucus all the time, pushing on my breasts, analyzing every feeling (cramp, craving,etc) just hoping for a sign.
Anyone else obssessed? Anyone else feeling the pressure???? I feel like we just have to, it is time, why isn't it happening????

[bcowley]

Hi craw16,

I just wanted to say that your story sounds much like mine. I too lost my baby about 2 weeks after my pap smear. Everything was fine till I went to see my doctor I left the office bleeding and it never stopped until I lost my baby. My hubby and I have always wondered if I had not had my pap would I still be preggo. My ttc road has been a looong one, so I know about being obsessed. I had my first daughter at 31 and 4 years later here I am again so don't worry about your age you've got plenty of time. Good Luck on your journey I hope you get your bfp soon.

[mom2njia]

After ttc three successful pregnancies and now three failed pregnancies in a row, I know how easy it is to become obsessed. This time around I am trying to relax about it. It put a huge strain on my marriage and my whole life. Putting my everything into ttc left nothing for everything else! And the CRUSHING pain that was left behind when I got a BFN was too much to take. I will admit I still feel a little sting when AF rolls around, but I am dealing. I really hope you get a BFP soon!

[Frangipani]

I became really obsessed with it for about 6 months. I finally just had to step away from all the things which were causing me to be so crazy about it. First thing-I put away my BBT. It was SO hard to do that. After waking up every morning like clockwork to put that thing in my mouth, it was hard to make myself not do it. Sounds silly, but it's true! I slowly weaned myself from JM too, took a break of a couple of months. It was just too hard to go and obsess over other people's HPTs and signs and symptoms without thinking about my own.

I don't know, it helped me a lot though. I'm back here for now and just started temping again after some time off from it. I do know though that if I start going nutso over this again, I'll do what I did before.

Good luck!!!

[KDD]

The first 2 cycles after my m/c I was obsessed with every symptom as I was positive I was going to get pg right away. Now, I'm trying to relax about it and not to obsess about every twinge and tingle. If we aren't successful after next cycle, I'm getting rid of my BBT too.

[madmum_sarah]

i was totally obsessed with it after my losses. now im trying to take a more relaxed approach but the obsession is still there, i just control it better than i did
i hope you get your sticky bean soon but rest assured, it is normal to become obsessed.
xx

[mamamudd]

*raises hand* I am addicted to all things TTC. I cant help it, I just want another baby so bad and I kinda think it helps me to have something to focus on other than my loss.

[.x~KAT~x.]

*raises hand* I am addicted to all things TTC. I cant help it, I just want another baby so bad and I kinda think it helps me to have something to focus on other than my loss.[/b]

[jenn27]

You are not alone I promise. I was also obsessed with charting and everything else and then after about 8 months finally got sick of it and said the heck with it. I quit doing all that and ended up with my BFP. It ended in m/c very early but the one time I didn't worry about it and just let things happened, it worked. I am back to charting my temps but that's about it. I only do that to make sure that I am o'ing and it helps me keep up with my cycle days and all that stuff. G/L to you and I hope that you get your BFP soon.

[..Jessica..]

I can most definitely say that you are NOT the only one addicted to TTC.

I'm addicted to it, and I'm not even trying.

You've come to the right place, trust me!

[craw16]

Hi craw16,

I just wanted to say that your story sounds much like mine. I too lost my baby about 2 weeks after my pap smear. Everything was fine till I went to see my doctor I left the office bleeding and it never stopped until I lost my baby. My hubby and I have always wondered if I had not had my pap would I still be preggo. My ttc road has been a looong one, so I know about being obsessed. I had my first daughter at 31 and 4 years later here I am again so don't worry about your age you've got plenty of time. Good Luck on your journey I hope you get your bfp soon. [/b]

You're right...hard not to wonder. When I saw the blood I knew something wasn't right. I won't make that mistake again. Thanks so much and I'm sending baby dust your way!

[craw16]

After ttc three successful pregnancies and now three failed pregnancies in a row, I know how easy it is to become obsessed. This time around I am trying to relax about it. It put a huge strain on my marriage and my whole life. Putting my everything into ttc left nothing for everything else! And the CRUSHING pain that was left behind when I got a BFN was too much to take. I will admit I still feel a little sting when AF rolls around, but I am dealing. I really hope you get a BFP soon![/b]

Thanks so much!! I just can't imagine. Here I'm this obsessed and heartbroken after two attempts. Just seems so surreal. Then I was crushed when both my sisters got pregnant and they didn't even want kids. Good thing that didn't last long. My heart melted with my niece and nephew.
wishing you the best of luck and you are right it can strain a marriage.

I became really obsessed with it for about 6 months. I finally just had to step away from all the things which were causing me to be so crazy about it. First thing-I put away my BBT. It was SO hard to do that. After waking up every morning like clockwork to put that thing in my mouth, it was hard to make myself not do it. Sounds silly, but it's true! I slowly weaned myself from JM too, took a break of a couple of months. It was just too hard to go and obsess over other people's HPTs and signs and symptoms without thinking about my own.

I don't know, it helped me a lot though. I'm back here for now and just started temping again after some time off from it. I do know though that if I start going nutso over this again, I'll do what I did before.

Good luck!!![/b]

Glad you're back on and I wish you tons of luck! I became paranoid over the ovulation tests. Was doing two types at same time just in case one was wrong. Funny the games this plays with your mind. I keep trying to look for any symptom or sign. Driving me nuts!! and I just started.

The first 2 cycles after my m/c I was obsessed with every symptom as I was positive I was going to get pg right away. Now, I'm trying to relax about it and not to obsess about every twinge and tingle. If we aren't successful after next cycle, I'm getting rid of my BBT too.[/b]

I don't know if I'm replying to this correctly or not but thanks for sharing. The miscarriage was so hard and for everyone to just tell me that the baby wasn't that developed and no heartbeat yet so it wasn't technically a baby sure didn't help. Now I'm so paranoid that maybe it will happen again and again. My heart hurt so bad with that and I don't know if I could do it over and over. I mean I'm so obssessed with making it all perfect that I'm stressing out over everything. Driving hubby nuts.

i was totally obsessed with it after my losses. now im trying to take a more relaxed approach but the obsession is still there, i just control it better than i did
i hope you get your sticky bean soon but rest assured, it is normal to become obsessed.
xx[/b]

Christmas in 17 weeks....Geez where has the time gone. I have it all planned. Get pregnant now and then by the time we fly home for Thanksgiving it will be safe to share with everyone and we will surprise everyone. I'll be so disappointed if it doesn't happen. I just feel we want it so bad and hell we'd make good parents so why not. I'm working on the control thing... Godo luck with getting your sticky bean!

*raises hand* I am addicted to all things TTC. I cant help it, I just want another baby so bad and I kinda think it helps me to have something to focus on other than my loss.[/b]

I agree. All I want to do is read, learn, and make sure I do everything I can to make sure I finally get a success.

You are not alone I promise. I was also obsessed with charting and everything else and then after about 8 months finally got sick of it and said the heck with it. I quit doing all that and ended up with my BFP. It ended in m/c very early but the one time I didn't worry about it and just let things happened, it worked. I am back to charting my temps but that's about it. I only do that to make sure that I am o'ing and it helps me keep up with my cycle days and all that stuff. G/L to you and I hope that you get your BFP soon.[/b]

Thank you...best wishes to you as well!! Glad to hear I'm not the only one obsessing. Heck it's been one cycle and I'm sick of it. I can't imagine 8. You have a lot of strength.

I can most definitely say that you are NOT the only one addicted to TTC.

I'm addicted to it, and I'm not even trying.

You've come to the right place, trust me!

[/b]

I love your miscarriage quote. That is soooooooooooooooooo true and only those who went through one understand what it does. Of course only those struggling to
TTC know the effects! Best wishes to you.