[Enchanted Mumma]

Hi,

Well I'm feeling a tad apprehensive today. I am 3 DPO so I've still got a bit of waiting to do...argh I HATE waiting!

I have been pregnant 3 times now and only given birth once..to my gorgeous girl, so that's 2 out of 3 that we have lost. We have tried 3 times & I have fallen pregnant the first time, EVERYTIME. Which obviously is really good on one level but we have only one survivor! (Lost on to an ectopic pregnancy & another by m/c).

The last m/c was just last month and at this same time last month I was already feeling fatigued, nauseous and slight pains around my left ovary. I am experiencing exactly the same this time too... nausea has been quite obvious this morning, no vomiting just the urge to! But then I wonder if it's all in my head because I so want this...

This is going to sound crummy because people try for so long sometimes, but what if I don't fall pregnant this month (the first time I don't fall straight away)...I'll feel like an even bigger failure...or what if I miscarry again?...or what if it's another ectopic?? (I only have one tube left!). I also suffer from pregnancy cysts on my ovary & the pain is similar to the first inklings of an ectopic so the stress & worry levels are really high!

Why can't we all just fall pregnant when we want to and be able to enjoy the pregnancies instead of worrying that something will go wrong.

Thank you for letting me vent

[..Jessica..]

If you don't fall preggo this cycle, you're not a failure! Your good egg just didn't want to do the tango with DH's spermie, that's all!!

And, if you ARE pregnant already, I say you need to send that one tube some flowers, because that's an amazing thing to get pregnant with one tube! That baby will definitely be a survivor!

Oh, by the way....we're here for you to vent! Doesn't it feel good?

[.x~KAT~x.]

im in the same place as you hun...I have 1 son, 2 ectopics and one miscarriage, and with all 4 pregnancies we have caught the first cycles egg! But i know if i dont catch this months egg then i will porobably catch the next cycles! Dont feel down, i have a feeling we will be seeing your BFP very soon!