[.x~KAT~x.]

I honestly dont feel ready to catch this cycles egg...or any other egg for that matter I want a baby so bad, but ive had 3 BFPs this year and they make me so ill As soon as i get a BFP im scared to breath, scared to tell anyone, scared of everything...If i ttc this month then we are like 90% sure of catching it, we always catch the first cycle, but im just so scared that I wont be able to go through it all again. Maybe we should just call it a day

since beginning TTC last year i have gained 18lbs in weight! People are scared to mention babies around me and i have constant acne breakouts going on, DTD has became purely BDing....i just want to go back to normal

oh and im fed up of temping and opking

LOL sorry to go on!

[1carrie]

It does start to get frustrating, but i really am enjoying reading about everyone.

[pumpkinpie]

I'm sorry...I can relate to many of your feelings. I say throw the charts to the side for a while and just "be"...if it happens it happens and it was God's plan. I'm sure all the charting and stress doesn't help your acne (i've dealt with that too). Hang in there!

[going4it]

Ditto! Ditch the charts!!! Just "do it" when you want and you'll catch that eggie! It's more fun to "not try" and get a BFP!!!
I'm so sorry about your miscarriages. They suck, I know.

[..Jessica..]

I agree, ditch everything pertaining to TTC and just love your husband that way you used to.

[~Lynda~]

i'm completely with ya on everything you said, but don't give up. the end is worth the struggle!!!!

[mom2njia]

I honestly dont feel ready to catch this cycles egg...or any other egg for that matter I want a baby so bad, but ive had 3 BFPs this year and they make me so ill As soon as i get a BFP im scared to breath, scared to tell anyone, scared of everything...If i ttc this month then we are like 90% sure of catching it, we always catch the first cycle, but im just so scared that I wont be able to go through it all again. Maybe we should just call it a day

since beginning TTC last year i have gained 18lbs in weight! People are scared to mention babies around me and i have constant acne breakouts going on, DTD has became purely BDing....i just want to go back to normal

oh and im fed up of temping and opking

LOL sorry to go on![/b]

I would say take a break, dont use OPKs! dont stress! Its a constant battle not to stress about this for me, but I am trying to not let it happen. I have also have three losses in a row (one well into the second trimester) I am scared to get pregnant again, I am going to be afraid to be happy or celebrate. I am not going to do anything to prevent a pregnancy because we really want a baby. I dont opk becuase dh is against them. He refuses to let our times together to only be about making a baby missions. You are clearly fertile, so catching without all the stress wont take too long! I am new so I dont know if there is a "reason" medically speaking for your miscarriages but if the doctors dont think there is a problem you will have a baby soon! I will be praying for a BFP that sticks for you!
TTC has dang near ruined my marriage at times, focus on dh and making your time together about how much you love each other and not about sperm and eggs.

[KDD]

I know what you mean about BDing. It seems like these past few cycles have been all about "timing" and less about fun. I've ditched the BBT this cycle in an attempt to regain my sanity. I still need to live a fulfilling life, even while TTCing. There's no harm in taking a month or two for yourself. We are here anytime you need to vent.

[.x~KAT~x.]

Thansk everyone...dh and i did dtd the last night but it wasnt about baby making it was just about us

I think that im just going to make this the last month of TTC after that i will just return to not preventing, not trying method

[Enchanted Mumma]

I so understand...we've only been "officially" trying for 2 months and I'm already over it!! I am so sick of sex at the moment...I'm completely sexed out! LOL