[jenn27]

Well, I'm back from the Doctor finally. It's been a horrible day and I thought I was going to have a breakdown at the dr office. First off, my dr is an hour away. I am about 2 miles from his office and i have a flat tire. I called DH and he said that he thought we had roadside assistance so i went ahead and drove to the office and then called. They came out and changed the tire and I went in to my appt. Well I already knew that I endometriosis. I wasn't fully expecting to get the news that I got today. First off, he said that I had a pollyp (sp) in my uterus. He scaped it away and cleaned out my uterus and took care of that. Then, he said that my tubes were perfect. They flushed them and there is absolutely nothing wrong with them. However, he said that my left ovary is not Healthy at all. He said it might benefit me to remove it since it is in such bad shape. I asked him what he would do if it was his wife or daughter and he said that he would give it 6 months and If I'm not pregnant, then we will go back and remove it. I am going to have the Clomiphen Citrate Challenge test to see just how I'm ovulating once I start my cycle again. He thinks that will give us more information than just doing the progesterone level checks. I dont' know anything about being on Clomid but I told him I was willing to do whatever he thought was necessary for us to get pregnant. I broke down in his office and couldn't hold back the tears. It's seems the one thing that I want with all my heart, is getting harder and harder to get. Just when I think things are going to be ok, I'm hit with something else. I feel like it's never going to happen for us and I'm scared that I will never have another child. Anyway. I already have my appt set up for 6 months from now which will be in March and if I'm not pregnant by then, we are going for the surgery to remove the left ovary. He gave me a copy of the pics and my left ovary really does look horrible compared to my right. That's about it I guess. I'm hoping that we get pregnant in the next 6 months so I don't have to worry about any of this. He said we could start trying immediately and right now, I am more fertile than I have been in the last year because they flushed the tubes and all. Well sorry this turned out soooo long. I am just soooooo scared of the possibility of never being able to have another child to hold in my arms. Thanks for reading. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

Oh honey, I hope you get a sticky BFP before March. I'm praying for you. I know this news was devastating to you. I hope the Clomid does the trick. When do you start it? I'll keep everything crossed for you.

[Pitridge]

Oh hun, I'm sorry about the news, but don't you go on thinking, not even for a minute, that you won't get pg in the next 6 months, don't lose that hope. I hope clomid helps, I'll keep my fingers cross.

[jenn27]

Oh honey, I hope you get a sticky BFP before March. I'm praying for you. I know this news was devastating to you. I hope the Clomid does the trick. When do you start it? I'll keep everything crossed for you.[/b]

Stephanie, the nurse that does all the scheduling told me to call her the first day of my cycle. She will schedule me for blood work on Day 3. I will take the clomid day 5-9 100 mg. Draw blood again on day 10 and then they will do the u/s on day 10. I'm trying to stay positive but it's soooo hard when it seems everytime, I go to the dr, the news just gets worse. Thanks for the prayers. I could use all that I can get.

Oh hun, I'm sorry about the news, but don't you go on thinking, not even for a minute, that you won't get pg in the next 6 months, don't lose that hope. I hope clomid helps, I'll keep my fingers cross.
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Thanks Patty. I am trying to keep hope but sometimes it's soooo hard. I was sooo ready to start trying again until I got to my appt today and he told me the results of the biopsy and explained the pics to me. I'm so thankful to have him as a dr and I know he will do everything he can to help us have a baby. I am just terrified of the possibility of not being able to ever have another baby because I have to accept the fact that it's a possibility. IF it comes down to IUI and IVF, I don't know if insurance will cover that and we don't have the money to pay out of pocket. I'm just going to take it one day at a time and hope that we get our BFP by March. Thanks for checking in on me Patty.

[Mommy0305]

I'm sorry you got disappointing news at the doctor, but you will be pregnant before March. Hopefully very, very soon!

[MrsPoe]

I am sorry about your day with the flat tire and all. I just wanted to let you know that a friend of mine just went through this herself. She didn't actually get the tubes checked out but her blood levels showed that she was in early menopause (shes in her 30's) and they started her on the clomid challenge of 100mg cd 3-7. Well actually it could have been cd 5-9 since she spotted for 2 days before. Anyways even on her cd10 blood work it showed an elevated numbers which didn't look good for her either. Then she went in on cd21 for more blood work to see if she O'd even though she was charting and knew that she hadn't O'd yet, they told her that she hadn't and wouldn't this cycle. But guess what she just got her bfp!! So really clomid might do just the trick and now your tubes are nice and cleared out and the polyp is taken care of too. All you need is one good egg from one good ovary!! So I hope this is your month!!

[~Lynda~]

girl, the power of prayer will be with you!!! i'm going to pray so hard for you that you get that bfp before the 6 month surgery appt.

[katiegirl]

Oh Jennifer I feel so bad about what a horrible day you had.
I will be sure to keep you in my prayers and you get the BFP you so truly deserve before you next appointment in 6 months

[KDD]

I'm sorry you had a really crappy day Jennifer. But, like you said, you are more fertile now than before. Maybe the clomid will be just the push your body needs to get a BFP.

[jenn27]

Thanks ladies for all the support. I'm doing better today. It just seemed like one thing after another yesterday. I am going to be optimistic and hope that the clomid works. i really don't want to go through that surgery again. Thanks for the prayers and thoughts ladies. I hope we all get our BFP's that we soooo bady want and deserve.

[kingdink]

I'm sorry about your craptastic day yesterday, but I'm glad you're feeling better today. Sometimes it just takes a little while for less than stellar news to sink in so that you can think past it. Keep your hopes up! 6 months is a long time and like you said, you're super fertile now, so go on and get to it.

I don't know your backstory since I'm new, but do they know what caused the damage to your left ovary?

[jenn27]

I'm sorry about your craptastic day yesterday, but I'm glad you're feeling better today. Sometimes it just takes a little while for less than stellar news to sink in so that you can think past it. Keep your hopes up! 6 months is a long time and like you said, you're super fertile now, so go on and get to it.

I don't know your backstory since I'm new, but do they know what caused the damage to your left ovary?[/b]

I don't really have a clue what caused it other than endometriosis. I had so much running through my head yesterday during that appt and I told him I would do whatever it took. We just wanted help having a baby. I can look at the pics and tell what a major difference there is in the ovaries. The left one just looks absolutely horrible. My right one is nice and white colored and you can even see the shape. The left one, I can't even tell what color or anything. I'm not even sure what i'm looking at in half the pics but I can tell in that particular one.

Aw hun what a rough day. A flat tire too, are you kidding me? The good news is, we only need one ovary to get pregnant! And you are definitely more fertile now, like he said. When I was at my ob/gyn last month he was telling me about the flushing of the tube process and said one month he had done that procedure with 8 women and all 8 were pg that month! Can you believe that? I have a feeling you will be pg before your appt. in March. I just wish it wasn't this hard or stressful, it's so not fair.

Aw hun what a rough day. A flat tire too, are you kidding me? The good news is, we only need one ovary to get pregnant! And you are definitely more fertile now, like he said. When I was at my ob/gyn last month he was telling me about the flushing of the tube process and said one month he had done that procedure with 8 women and all 8 were pg that month! Can you believe that? I have a feeling you will be pg before your appt. in March. I just wish it wasn't this hard or stressful, it's so not fair.

[Madison.N.Hailey'sMom]

I am so sorry for the bad news that you were given and the flat tire on top of that. Never give up hope even though it can be so hard some days to hold on to it. I had a HSG done and was on Clomid when I got pg. Bobbie told me that her doctor said that for the first 3 months after getting your tubes flushed raises the chances of getting pg. I had the test done in Dec and got pg in Feb. With the Clomid all you do is take a tiny pill for so many days (I was to take mine days 5-9 also). I got the hot flashes but that was the only side effect I got. I hope you dont get to many of them but just think what the outcome could be that you will be pg with a healthy baby. I hope it doesnt take 6 months to get pg hon and if you have any questions dont be afraid to ask. I can help in any way possible. Lots of coming to you.