[cam & sami's mom]

I appreciate all of your thoughts & prayers - I certainly have had more than my fair share in past 2 years. It has been a very difficult week. My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer on 9/27/07. She fought hard for 1 year and 12 days. She died her way, at home with no tubes, no strangers, just family & very peacefully. My dad has been so strong. They were married over 43 years. He & I have been leaning heavily oone another as my DH is with Cameron who continues to fight his own cancer battle. To quote my mom, I am bone weary, but I can't sleep. I miss Cameron so much. I can't go see him because my dad needs me right now. & he is stable. If he weren't, I would definately be there with him. We had 6 hours of visitation today - we were supposed to have a break from 4-6 pm, but people kept coming. My mom was loved. She will be missed. I've copied her obituary onto Cameron's caringbridge site - the link is in my siggy.

About 10 minutes after she died, her cell phone rang. The caller id read "Carolyn." That is my aunt who died in July. When I answered, no one was there. I think that was their way of telling me that they were together & that they are ok. That has given me tremendous peace over the past few days.

I don't know that there ever comes a time when you don't need your mom. I am 35 years old and have been grieving the loss of her physical and emotional support for the past year. Cameron has been so sick and when I would normally lean on her, I was too afriad to cause her any more worry.

As for TTC, I guess I'd have to bd once in a while & that is just not happening. I haven't slept in the same building with DH for 2 months and hardly at all in the last 2 years due to Cameron's hospitalizations. Despite that, I still feel like this is my home on this board. I hope to get to know of the new members.

Thanks again.

Lori

[..Jessica..]

Oh Lori, I'm so sorry hun!

I receive the update notices in my email, and there were so many from the past few days, I just checked the most recent and saw that she had passed away. I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am. I can't even begin to comprehend what you're going through.

That is quite the phone call. I'm sure your mom and aunt are with you, keeping their arms wrapped around you during this time.

You are always in my thoughts, and prayers. Your home will always be on this board.

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

Lori, I'm sorry again for your loss. I can't imagine what it must be like. Your home is always with us here on this board, no matter what. I am praying for you, your dad and the rest of your family and Cameron. Please take care of yourself.

[kellyanne]

Lori,

I've never met you in person, but you are such an inspiration to me. I know that there is no way I could handle all the burdens you have faced with the same strength, grace, and faith. Every single time I think that I have "alot on my plate" I think of you. Thanks for checking-in with us, and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

[Pitridge]

Lori, I'm so sorry.....I can't start to imaging what you are going through, just know that we are here for you. I’m sorry, I’m not very good at this stuff. Just wanted to tell you that if there is anything that you need I think I can speak for all of us that we are her for you.

[kristajoyce]

My heart is breaking for you. I'm so sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers along with your family. The phone story is truley amazing and I am so glad you have at least that little bit of peace. Thank you for checking in and please let us know if we can help in any way.