[.x~KAT~x.]

Wednesday 1st october ~ 5 weeks 1 day pregnant

I went for an U/S and they saw nothing...i came home and waited for my call about my Beta number. The midwife was stunned when they came in at 4422! The consultant said i must come in for observation until friday when they could repeat betas and U/S. The consultant thought i was either having twins, which were to small to see or it was ectopic.

Thursday 2nd October ~ 5 weeks 2 days

I was lucky enough to be in the private hospital suites (im staff so i stayed for free, it generally costs about $1200 a week!) In the morning i began getting some pain when i went to the bathroom. The nurses and doctors continuned to moniter me all day. At 7pm i began getting serious pain, i suddenly began full flow bleeding and was bed bound. Doctors were rushing around me, testing me, taking blood. I was being sick, passing out and the pain was worse than contractions. The doctors gave me IV morphine, Oxygen and slowly my condition stablised. I felt like i wasnt going to make the night, all i could think of was Tommy at home, wou8ld i ever see his little face again?

Friday 3rd October ~ 5 weeks 3 days

I was still in pain, only spotting and the morphine had made me feel drained, i had not eaten or drank anything all night and i was still very dizzy. At 10am i had an internal U/S which revealed a corpus luteum on my left ovary, and a mass in my left tube, fluid in my uterus and surrounding my kidneys...the consultant confirmed it was a tubal pregnancy, and ordered nurses to prep for surgery straight away.
I was in surgery for 3 hours, The consultant said i had ruptured and i had serious internal bleeding. My left tube and a complete pregnancy was removed.

Saturday 4th October

I was very tired all day yesterday and i felt like i had been kicked in the belly, repeatedly! My hormones plummeted and i felt very emotional.

Sunday 5th October

I am now back home, and so relieved to be here! I have 3 wounds, one in me belly button and 2 on my knicker line. Doctors say i can try again straight away, but im not planning on getting pregnant any time soon. I could have died on thursday, is it really worth risking my life for a baby, when i have my beautiful Tommy already? I think not!


Thanks for reading, i hope i feel better to join in with you all again very soon

Sweetheart, I'm so sorry about everything. I was so hoping you and baby would be perfect. I'm just at a loss of words.

I am happy that you are still with us, we would be devastated if we lost you too. I'm so happy that you had such great care in the hospital and that you are home.

I hope your wounds on your tummy heal quickly.

Katt, keeping you in my heart hun.

[Mommy0305]

I'm so sorry to for you loss, I can't imagine how scared you must have been.

[katiegirl]

Oh Katt I am truly sorry. There are really no words I can say to ease any of your pain.
I hope that you continue to join us.

[IAMommy]

Katt - I am so sorry for your loss- that is a horrible thing to go through. I glad you are OK and that you had good medical care. My heart is breaking for you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[MountainMomma]

I'm so sorry Katt. You'll be in my prayers hun.

[cam & sami's mom]

I'm so sorry. I had a similar experience in Feb 01. I seriously thought that I was going to die. I did not ttc for a year because I was scared and so drained physically.

[tracalyn]

Katt, I replyed in June DDC but I just wanted to tell you again that I've been thinking of you honey.

[~Lynda~]

oh my gosh hun!!! you have been through hel*. i'm soo sooo sorry for your losses!!! there isn't much one can say at a time like this. here are the biggest hugs i have i'm sooooo sorry hun!!!

[~Laurie~]

I'm so sorry. Like a pp said, you've been through so much already, I was really hoping for you. I'm glad you're OK physically, but I am so sorry you are going through this at all.

[Brittanie]

Oh, Kat, I wanted to cry reading that! I'm so sorry you had to go through such a terrible experience.

[KDD]

Katt I am so sorry I'm glad that you are safe and that you had good medical care. I understand that you may not be ready to TTC again. We are always here for you.

[kellyanne]

Oh my gosh Katt! I can't imagaine how terrifying that must have been! I'm so thankful that your docs were monitoring you closely. We are all here for you regardless of whether you are planning to TTC any time soon. For now, just rest, grieve, and snuggle with little Tommy.

I'm so sorry for your loss, but I'm glad you are ok.

[Alison81]

(((((HUGS))))) I am so very sorry, what a traumatic experience, I am glad you are okay. I am sending lots of positive thoughts your way.

[HippyMomOf4]

OMG girls i'm so glad you are okay! I'm sorry for the loss as well!

[mom2njia]

I am sooo sorry Katt. I was going to post today to ask where you were. I cant believe what you went through, I would have been so scared. I understand not trying again for awhile. I wish I knew why some of us have such a hard time TTC. I am happy you are home with your little boy, take care of yourself. Again I am truly sorry for all you went through and your loss.

[Frangipani]

omg that is horrible! Why didn't they do the U/S on Thursday of your tubes??? Ugh, I am so glad you are ok. I hope you are doing better now. Big fat hugs

[NeeshBoogie]

I just wanted to say how sorry I am you've gone through this. That had to be the scariest and most emotional thing to ever experience. I cried reading your story, and I just really wish there was something I could do. I'm glad you're home and feeling better.

[kristajoyce]

I'm so sorry, honey. That sounds horrible and we are all thinking about you during this rough time. I'm sending prayers your way for you and your family. Keep us posted on how you are doing.

[Enchanted Mumma]

Hi Katt

I know that nothing I can say can help ease your hurt but I know what you went through sweet and it is horrific. Your story sounds very very similar to mine and I wish no one had to go through such a horrendous experience. I am thinking of you. Look after yourself and rest.

to you.