[..Jessica..]

How are you doing, right now? Be 100% HONEST and OPEN!

I feel like crap! I'm sick, and it seems to be getting worse with each passing hour. I've taken Buckley's and just now I took Benalyn and used my Vicks inhaler for the (probably) 5th time today.

I've been waiting for AF to show up since September 27th. I mean, I know she's not going to come as soon as I stop taking the pill, but usually she's here around the Tuesday or Wednesday following my last pill, but now, it's been 10 days since my last pill with NO AF in sight! I'm just over it! I want her here so I can start trying, then again, her not showing almost makes me think that I'm not meant to try to have a baby.

[Brittanie]

I'm completely exhausted. I babysat my friend's daughter today, and let me tell you, I'm glad I don't have twins. Of course, if I had had twins, I would have always had twins and by now I'd be used to it. But suddenly getting a "twin" at 16 months is a bit hard. Especially when the other twin is angry because you aren't her mother. lol.

So I'm tired, and I'm stiff, because I took a long walk with them in my double stroller.


But I'm glad to have given Myla back. lol

I'm tired, I'm sad, and I'm mad that my Grandpa isn't here. But I'm so thankful for the rest of my family. I miss Zack and I want my brother home from the Navy. Just a hard time right now. But thank God I have you girls.

[kingdink]

I hope AF comes soon for you, Jessica.

I'm feeling anxious, impatient and worn out about everything. I am just ready to move on and I want my body to catch up with my heart so we can TTC. I'm nervous for my DH's interview on Friday and I hope he does well. I just want him to find a better job soon, he's been looking for so long and I want him to get his break. I have had a headache for about the last week and I think I need to destress.

[MountainMomma]

Did you not see my other post? I'm falling apart! I have to laugh or else I would go insane!

[KDD]

I'm utterly exhausted! I can't seem to get enough sleep these days. I don't know if I'm getting sick or if I'm staying up too late reading. I just can't seem to keep my eyes open!

[Alison81]

Honestly? Life sucks right now. I can't say there is much that I am 100% happy about. The special educator for my classroom (I am a teacher's aide) is HORRIBLE, I mean, she's stupid, she doesn't know what she's doing, and it makes us all miserable. I work with autistic kids, and you have to be consistent, and that she is not. WE, the other staff are, but we ALL have to be, and it's a constant headache. I have court next week, my DD's deadbeat dad, after 5 years want to jump into her life, because his wife wants child support reduced. My relationship with my ex sucks lately, it is on and off (mostly on his side, it's like, I want to be with you forever, one day, and I want to sleep with everyone, the next), and I am about ready to start looking for someone better. And then I am extremely anxious because it's the make or break point in my cycle. I have short LP's, so I will know if I'm pregnant or not by friday, and I would place money on the answer being NOT. And then I have a chronic coreal abrasion, and have my second surgery for it next week, and I know I will be in pain after (they are peeling more layers off, and poking holes in the stomal layer....did it last week, and I was in bed from thursday until sunday the pain was so bad). It's all to much, and I could use a vacation!!!! The only thing right now in my life that is good is my DD, thank god for her, and my dog, who keeps me company after DD goes to sleep (that sounds soo sad). Did I add that the day I lost my Marina is on the 12th, and is coming up wayyy too fast.

[cherryblossom88]

i feel so depressed. i feel like me and my husband will never have a baby together. So many times have we been tricked with chemical pregnancy,.. false positives!! and then the blighted ovum. i just feel at my end. and sad .
every time i get my period i cry, i feel like a failure each time she comes. its been 5 years where is our baby

[Bakin8th]

I am feeling rather gross!

I woke up to a spike temp and nausea,dizzness and hot flashes so I have stayed in bed all day trying to recover. I think its a bug or something. I feel better now but still hot feeling (no fever) and headachy/dizzy/nausea but not as bad.

I am very tired and cant wait to get to bed!

[madmum_sarah]

lonely, depressed and confused.
as some may have seen i posted in D&S as im not sure my relationship is going to last another day at the moment.
we managed to have a little talk last night which ended in yet another argument. he did give me a hug before he went home but he leaves for aberdeen tonight to see his son again.
on sat my 13yr old is coming to stay for 2 weeks (mark is bringing him back) but my 2 youngest boys are leaving for a week with their dad on the same day
my due date is fast approaching and af should be due right before it (i have no idea where i am in my cycle thanks to going away) ff is putting me at approx 9DPO today which means we dtd a week before and the day after so chances of being preg before "jamies" due date are very very slim
hense im not on much. im just having a real hard time wanting to wake up in the mornings right now.
xx

[Christine-MA]

to all you ladies!

I'm anxious about this cycle. My temp has gone up the last two days, although I think it will go back down because I couldn't have O'd this early. I'm using OPKs and haven't gotten a positive yet (although I didn't start testing until CD11 because I got a 20 pack and want to test 2x a day and usually O on CD17 or 18), so hopefully I still have a few more days since we haven't BD in like FORever! I know I'm just going to cry and cry if we don't get pregnant this cycle.

[Mommy0305]

I'm happy, I've been having a nice fall season with my husband and daughters. We've had lot of birthday parties to go to, we've gone apple picking and this Saturday we'll be going pumpkin picking. I've also been busy planning a combo birthday party for both my girls, it's on the 25th. They are having a Halloween birthday party this year so that should be fun! We've just been having a lot of fun together I guess. I like it!

As for the ttc front - I'm just waiting to O - I've been using opk and it hasn't happened yet (I'm on cd 12) but DH and I have been doing the BD every other day since AF left just to play it safe. Hopefully it happens this month, I'll be disappointed if it doesn't. But then of course if it doesn't, there is always next month too.....

[~Lynda~]

good luck christine!!

I am feeling great. I have finally O'd and my temp has gone up considerably the last two days. I am so happy to not have to pee on anything right now. no more opks!!!!! this cycle was longer for me so i had to test alot more with the opks than usual. happy to be done with that. happy to be in the 2ww. looking forward to testing and seeing those two lines!!!!

DH and I have seemed to connect so much more since the m/c. that makes me very very happy. so right now i would say i'm happy.

I hope life improves for all of you who need it!!!! HUGS

[jenn27]

ladies. I wish there was somthing that I could say or do that would make things better for each and every one of you.

As far myself, I'm very anxious and nervous but very frustrated at the same time. I think I o'd 2 days ago. My temp went up a litte more today so that's a good sign. I really want this cycle to be it. I'm afraid we will not get pregnant by March and that I will have to go into surgery again and have one of my ovaries removed. I think if it weren't for all you ladies I would be insane by now.

[Madison.N.Hailey'sMom]

I'm doing ok. I am 100% tired of worrying so much about this pg that I end up in tears everyday thinking that something is going to go wrong. I know the worrying isnt helping me any but I cant help it. When she doesnt move I freak, when I have no rib pain I freak, when theres no cramps anymore and I'm feeling great I freak. I just want halloween to get here so I can hold her in my arms and know that everything is ok.

I am excited about halloween though. Its one of my favorite seasons. I love decorating and going and getting pumpkins. Although this year I wont be able to dress Fergie up for her first halloween like I did storm last year but I'm trying to come up with something so we can at least take pictures of her for her photo book. There also will be no halloween parties for me and I love dressing up but what can you do.

I am nervous because DH is set to get layed off this friday and we dont know for how long. This time sounds like it could be awhile. While its nice to have him home everyday its nicer to have the money to pay the bills so we are starting to freak a little about that and the timing couldnt be worst with Madison on the way. There has already been talk about me going back to work once I heal from the c-section and that scares me because it will be so soon after we bring her home and I just cant think of leaving her everyday to go to work after her just getting here. I know she will be with DH but I carryed her for 9 months and now I have to leave her. It makes me cry everytime I think about it.

[cam & sami's mom]

I am so sad and miserable. And completely exhausted.

As for ttc, DH never sleep in the same building anymore. I think we may have dtd one time this month (or maybe it was last month, who knows anymore?). AF should be here Monday/Tuesday.

[~Laurie~]

I'm sad with moments of anger and worry.
This Sunday was Eva's due date and my son's birthday is on Saturday. I knew I wouldn't be able to do the party thing, so I set that up for the 18th, but I am also just skipping Thanksgiving. I love my family and I have a lot to be thankful for, but I also have a lot that I'm pretty angry about. I'm not up to big groups of people chatting about normal things when I will be remembering the worst day of my life and what I lost.
Also, there is an epidemic of pregnant people in my life. I just found out a woman I absolutely detest (because she really is just a horrible person) is pregnant. Me? Bitter? Just a bit.
The school is worried about my son's social development, so we have to see a speech pathologist and maybe a pediatrician or child psychologist, so I am very worried and stressed about that. Also, I've been on a different shift from DH, so I'm pretty sure this month will be a bust TTC wise. I am starting to think we need a second car, which we weren't going to do until after I went back to work from my mat leave because we will have a hard time making payments while I am off work, so I am stressed about that. Life just kinda sucks right now.

[Eleysia]

Wow, first of all I wanna give everyone big even if youre happy, you still should take one

Im with Sarah on not wanting to wake up in the mornings too. Not to the point of it being serious but yeah life sucks. The last year of my life has by far been the hardest, and full of $hit. Im a bit angry at the world right now, and trying my best not to take it out on other people, aka why ive been not posting as much latley. I feel like maybe Ive had the lions share of good luck in my past so god decided to crap on my life for a full year. Im just wondering when it will stop. I have hate written on my face, i rarley smile, and if i do i feel guilty, i feel miserable and dont want to leave my bedroom all the time. Oh, i know im depressed. Im very aware, and right now ill take it. If laying in a gutter full of depression means no more life changing events im game.

I just feel like all of my hopes and dreams were taken from me and i got a side of mental rape to go with my newly developed void. ugh here goes my rambling again sorry :closed eyes:

[LifeToTheMax]

to everyone! You are all so wonderful, I wish that all of us could be happy!

I'm doing alright. I've been SUPER busy with school and work and starting a new business, which is good becuase it keeps my mind of everything. I know that I'm pretty new to TTC, but I'm already starting to get paranoid. The two back to back m/c really threw me. And one of my close high school friends just had a baby. He is adorable and I am happy for her, but I'm jealous. I feel like I'm at the best possible age to have a baby, but I can't do it and I have no idea why not. Otherwise, though, things are going pretty well!

[Pitridge]

I just give all of you tons I'm sorry that some of you are having such a hard time right now with not onlt TTC but also everything else. All of you are wonderful ladies. I just wanted to say that.