Well, I couldn't hold out any longer

~Laurie~ · #1 October 14th, 2008, 02:24 PM

It was a BFN.

I was feeling so terrible yesterday and the smell of the bathroom cleanser made me gag, so I broke down and tested. I used a First Response test and they are supposed to detect pregnancy up to five days before your period, add that to the fact that I would have been 13 DPO (if I am correct about when I O'd) then it should have detected if I was pregnant. There wasn't even a faint line. AF is due Friday, and I now have no doubt that she is going to show. I am just so heartbroken. I really wanted to get pregnant this month. There are so many pregnant women around me and I feel like running away. I feel so empty. I really wish I hadn't tested. It was Eva's due date on Sunday, and if I hadn't tested, I would have still had hope. I actually made the pain worse, which I never would have thought possible.

I'm just so depressed.

ETA: Just in case anyone was wondering, I am officially out. AF started yesterday (in the middle of Connor's birthday party ), so I guess I'm moving on to next cycle.

AliciaF · #2 October 14th, 2008, 03:00 PM

I'm so sorry

I started spotting today so I think I'm out this month too. I only have one more shot at being pregnant before my due date and now I probably won't have a baby by Clark's 1st angelversary, unless I do get pregnant next month and the baby is early

kellyanne · #3 October 14th, 2008, 03:11 PM

I'm so sorry Laurie.

kristajoyce · #4 October 14th, 2008, 04:21 PM

I'm so sorry, hun!

kingdink · #5 October 14th, 2008, 04:34 PM

That just sucks, I'm sorry.

KDD · #6 October 14th, 2008, 04:37 PM

I'm sorry

Mommy0305 · #7 October 14th, 2008, 04:39 PM

Oh no, I'm sorry

..Jessica.. · #8 October 14th, 2008, 04:54 PM

I'm so sorry Laurie!!!!

BellaBellski · #9 October 14th, 2008, 05:21 PM

oh hun, I'm sorry! It is still early though, isn't it? I tested with FRER at 12dpo with my son and got a BFN and then a BFP at 15 dpo. Give it a couple more days *HUGS*

LifeToTheMax · #10 October 14th, 2008, 05:38 PM

I'm hoping it's still just too early for you! I've never gotten a BFP until after AF is due. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!!

Jessica! · #11 October 14th, 2008, 06:17 PM

Sometimes 13DPO is "too early" to pick up a positive... even on a First Response. Some results show early for some women, not all. Just test again in a few days if AF hasn't shown up. This is why people shouldn't test so early. If you see a negative test when you think you should being seeing a positive already really gets you heartbroken. Just test on Saturday morning if AF hasn't shown up.

Good luck.

Bakin8th · #12 October 14th, 2008, 06:46 PM

(((hugs))) I am so sorry .Maby it just to early and you had a late implant.

~Laurie~ · #13 October 15th, 2008, 05:21 PM

Thanks so much, everyone. Honestly, I am pretty sure I am not pg.

I just need to learn to deal with it, it's just so depressing sometimes. AF is due Friday, but if she hasn't shown by Sunday, I will test again. I'm pretty sure I will see her Friday, though. Thanks again for all your support, guys.