[jenn27]

Hey ladies. I just wanted to let you know that I am probably not going to be on here for a couple days. I have had a really really rough 2 days. I haven't slept good the last 2 nights. I have been having dreams about nothing but being preganant and having a new baby. The first night I had the dreams I was pregnant and It seemed sooo very real. I remember even in my dream touching my belly and feeling the baby move all around. Then last night I had a dream about the baby being already born and at home. I am an emotional wreck and I have so much going on in my head. My son is having a hard time going back and forth to his dads, (he's only 5) and even though he has been doing this for 2 years now, I think he is just now realizing things. He gets mad at me because I don't let him do something and he yells "I don't love you anymore" and it absolutely breaks my heart. All I can do is tell him well I love you very much but you have to do what you are told. I know he doesn't mean it but it hurts. I am 10 DPO today and I really really hoped this month was it but I don't think it is. Yesterday my bbs started to get really sore and then last night my back started hurting a little bit and now i'm feeling some cramps so I really think AF is on it's way. I'm absolutely exhausted right now and can't quite crying. I left work early today because I just needed a break. I just feel like nothing I do is good enough anymore. I'm sorry for the long post. I'm just so sad and feel so alone right now. I don't think I will ever have another baby and I really don't know how much longer I can keep trying. I am going on Cycle 15. I just wanted to let ya'll know where I was. I will be back in a couple days. Just need some time to get my head straight and figure things out. Thank you ladies for all being so wonderful. I'll see ya'll in a couple days. Hope everyone has a wonderful rest of the week.

[Wee3monkeys]

Oh, Jennifer!!!

I'm so sorry you are having a rough time right now, hun!! Those dreams sound like killers! Maybe they have a meaning, sweetie. You're still early, don't give up yet, the cycle isn't over! And even if af does come this cycle; you got everything looked at and cleaned out which has to mean that now that everything is in working order your bfp can't be long around the corner. Your next cycle is on Clomid, right? That seems to work wonders for so many people! Don't give up hope yet, Jennifer; you are not down for the count!

As for your son, he's at a hard age; where he doesn't really understand what's going on, but probably hurting as he's just realizing how things are. Give him some time, as he starts to understand the more complex issues, he'll come around, hun. He doesn't understand, let alone mean the things he's saying to you right now. My best advice would be to sit down and cuddle and talk to him. Explain the situation to him, let him know how much you love him, and that the things he's saying are hurting you; and listen to what's hurting him if he's able to communicate it.

Take as much time as you need, we'll be here when you're ready to come back. If you need anything at all, feel free to PM me, K.

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I'm so sorry you're having a rough time Jennifer. I hope the few days will help you to clear your head. I agree with Jen about it being early. I hope you get a wonderful surprise in a few days. If not, I also agree that many women have had wonderful success on Clomid of just the first cycle. I will continue to pray for you. I also hope your son does better. It sounds like he's having a hard time as you. I wish you both the best. We'll be here when you're ready. Love ya!

[kingdink]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, but do what you need to do to start feeling better. We'll be here if you need us and we'll all be thinking of and praying for you. Lots and lots of hugs!!!

[Eleysia]

Sounds to me like youre pg. I think you have the TTCAL host jinx. I am gonna wait and see how things pan out in the next few days


also im sorry things seem overwhelming, and with your son.. thats awful. im sure the first time Gavin says it my heart will break. I really think its hormones that are making you feel so overrun tho hunny.

[..Jessica..]

I'm so sorry Jennifer!!!!

Take as much time as you need girl!!! We're here no matter what!!!

[~Lynda~]

HUGS, you need some cyber HUGS!!! probably some real ones too!!! i'm soo sooo sorry you're sad. don't give up yet on this cycle. remember pregnancy signs are the same as AF signs. don't give up!!!! i understand having to get away. it will help you!! we are here for you when you return and hopefully you'll return with some great news!!! fingers crossed!!

HUGS

[MusicalJulia]

((((((HUGS))))))
I am so sorry you're having struggles right now. Life is just unfair sometimes. I think a break will do you good- we all need it sometimes. Hopefully when you come back, things are looking a little brighter. You'll be in my thoughts.

[Bakin8th]

I am sorry your haveing such a bad day

Im sorry your feeling down.. it sucks to have dream like the ones your having, i had one the other day and it messed up my hole day.. i hope your ok.

I am so sorry hun. What a rough patch, it's bound to turn up soon.

[Enchanted Mumma]

Hi Hunny...I really hope things improve for you and you start to feel better. I really hope you do get your BFP this month...you do sound REALLY hormonal....

[jenn27]

Thank you soooo very much ladies for all your support. I am feeling better. Not 100% back to normal but i am feeling better. Ya'll are the greatest.

[KDD]

I'm glad you're feeling better. Your chart looks good so don't give up hope!