[madmum_sarah]

im so sorry i went MIA longer than planned.
i had tonsilitus and flu and found it hard even lifting my head for days.
by the time i finally got over it af had decided to show not the nicest thing to get when i should have been giving birth to my baby!
i woke yesterday with severe pain. it actually felt like i was in labour but when i woke fully i realised my cyst had burst. to say it hurt is an understatement (emotionally as well as physically)
today my heart is still breaking. i feel so empty and right now i should be holding my new born in my arms but instead im still dealing with the pain and af and not even pregnant again!
im trying hard to get off this rollercoaster ove been on recently but i just feel so empty. im now on cycle 15 without my sticky bean

welcome and to the new ladies here and for all who are actively ttc
i will try and catch up but like i said, im still not feeling great and now sadie has caught the same blinking bug (as well as it being school holidays here so its madness anyway!) lol
xx

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I'm so glad you're back. I hope Sadie feels better soon. I'm sorry af showed up on your edd. Know that I'm here if you need me!!!!!!!!!!!

[Danielley08]

Poor Sarah It sounds like you've been having quite a rough time...

Just remember you always have us to lean on!!!!

[Wee3monkeys]

I've been wondering about you, Lady!! I'm sorry you've been sick, and now Sadie's caught it! That stinks!! And I'm sorry about af, hun! I hope you get to feeling better soon!!!!

[Eleysia]

Sarah, i was getting worried!! Im glad you poked in for a min. I hope you guys feel better soon and big im sorry life is the pits right now hunny. Keep your chin up it will get better.

[Eleysia]

Sarah, i was getting worried!! Im glad you poked in for a min. I hope you guys feel better soon and big im sorry life is the pits right now hunny. Keep your chin up it will get better.

[Eleysia]

Sarah, i was getting worried!! Im glad you poked in for a min. I hope you guys feel better soon and big im sorry life is the pits right now hunny. Keep your chin up it will get better.

[HippyMomOf4]

I'm sorry your having a rough time. I hope Sadie feels better and you too!

[madmum_sarah]

thanks girls.
i have been putting a lot of time into "me" over the last day or so (crystal healing, meditation etc) and i have to say although i still feel drained, i do feel better in myself.
i even text mark last night to tell him i love him and that im sorry i dont show it as often as i should and that i just want to get things back to normal.
surprisingly on sunday morning (i woke up crying cos i dreamed i was pregnant ) mark actually hugged me and heres the big one..... he spoke to me about how i was feeling because of the losses yeah, he actually did it! it may have helped if he felt the same as i did but it was nice knowing he still cared enough to knw it was effecting me.
he is still of the opinion we should just leave it to nature and although i am trying, i just cant help temping when i get up, peeing on those darned opks etc i even have a rose quartz and a moonstone in my bra this time to try and get some help on a more spiritual level
i missed you girls though, i just couldnt stay away any longer
xxx

[kingdink]

I'm glad to see you back, though I wish you felt better. I'm sorry you've been so sick and feeling so down. I hope Sadie is feeling better soon, too. It sounds like you really just need a break!

[..Jessica..]

I'm glad you're back, Sarah!!! I hope Sadie feels better soon.

[KDD]

I'm sorry that you've been sick and dealing with AF right now. We are always here for you when you need us!

Let me know if the moonstone and rose quartz in your bra works, carrying them in my pocket hasn't yet!

[madmum_sarah]

i try meditating at least twice a week and have carried them in a little bag until recently but nothing. im hoping having them in my bra will keep them closer and have more of an effect as well as the not smoking. we can only hope and pray and leave the rest to god.
now i just need to get mark fit so i can get some action to help things cos i dont think its going to happen without his little swimmers as well
xx

[going4it]

Sorry the showed up yesterday. And tonsilitis? UGH! I had to have my tonsils taken out (at the ripe age of 40 no less) because of strep, so I feel your pain! I hope you feel better soon!