[Mellza]

Well, I've been apart of JM since I started my first TTC well over two years ago. Hard to believe I've been at these boards for that long, but its been awesome being apart of this online coffee house, if you will. I'm a member of the JULY 07 playroom, and loss of a child. I lost my son, Logan in Feb. of this year. His story is very long, and one of these days I am going to write a condensed version, that isn't in medical jargon. I guess the bottom line is I feel crazy for even thinking about TTC, but I cannot deny my baby fever. I can't tell anyone I know personally because, quite honestly, people have strong opinions about we should or should not regarding future children. (our first was never diagnosed and no could tell us the odds of it happening again.) but after a long discussion with DH last night, we both agreed that if we're going to ttc again it needs to be soon. (for career reasons, among other things) so I guess I'm starting my "health plan" to get back into baby making shape and sometime, hopefully next spring, we're going to jump back into the "hopeful parenting race." Really, I just want some people to be excited and happy for me, because lord know I just need support and not someone saying, "how could you bring another child into the world?" its real easy for someone to say that we shouldn't when they've already had three kids and a failed marriage. KWIM? I've never met anyone that has faced a journey like mine, though I'd like to know that person. Encouragement is welcomed, I'm gonna need it.

[Pitridge]

Sorry for your lost
I wanted to say YAY for ttc again!!!!!! I'm happy that you guys have decided to give it another try. Some people just say things without thinking. You have come to the right board the girls here are amazing and so helpful. I cna't wait to get to know you better.

[Wee3monkeys]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Melly!!

I agree with Patty, the TTCAL ladies are wonderful here, jump right in! WELCOME!!!!

[Eleysia]

Welcome to TTCAL!!! Im so sorry about your little man Logan.

Im going through something sorta similar (bnot with the loss but about wanting another baby in not so perfect timing). I am not married, i have had 2 losses, and have 1 healthy beautiful son right now, but I do want another baby. I definatly think youre in the right spot for support. I dont think anyone else should be able to tell you what you should and should not do if you, in your heart feel it is right. Best of luck and please feel free t stick around with us

[madmum_sarah]

im so sorry for your loss
for ttc again though. its a huge step and will take a lot of courage and support but we will be here to support you the best we can

xx

[kingdink]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Melly. You need to do what feels right to you. I know I'm here for some of the same reasons as you, though not the same circumstances, I need people who will be excited when I get that BFP and who will support me on my journey getting there. It's very isolating when you want something so badly and the people who you love can't give you the support you need.

We'll be here for you, this is a great group of ladies. Good luck and I wish you all the best.

[Mellza]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Melly. You need to do what feels right to you. I know I'm here for some of the same reasons as you, though not the same circumstances, I need people who will be excited when I get that BFP and who will support me on my journey getting there. It's very isolating when you want something so badly and the people who you love can't give you the support you need.

We'll be here for you, this is a great group of ladies. Good luck and I wish you all the best. [/b]

You captured it completely. Someone understands!!!!

[..Jessica..]

Welcome aboard, Melly!!!!

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss!!! But what people (IRL) need to realize is that you're not replacing your son, you're giving him a sibling.

Nothing will ever replace Logan! EVER! It sucks that you don't have the support you WILL get on here in your real life. Feel free to jump into everything! Especially our chat on Mondays!

I look forward to seeing your real soon!!!

[MountainMomma]

Welcome to the group hun. I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious little boy. You'll definitely find the support you are looking for here. Good luck!

[KDD]

Welcome Melly. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that one day you will tell us about Logan.

As for trying again I wish you all of the best. No one here has made that decision lightly and in some way understand how you feel right now. I look forward to getting to know you!

[mom2njia]

Welcome Melly! I am so very sorry for the loss of your little boy. I agree with all the others by TTC are not replacing him in anyway, you are ADDING to your family. Good luck TTC.

[mary30]

I went to Logan's site and I just cried ..I am so sorry that you and your family had to go through this. I love the pictures that you posted.

We all will be waiting for that BFP for you. You need to do what is right for yourself not anyone else. Everyone is going to have a say in things. But they are not the ones in your shoes. You are not replacing your son by no means. I really hope you never feel that way. Even though I have not been in the same place as you I would be happy for you no matter what you chose in life.

We all will be cheering you on and I can not wait too see your BFP..

[Pound]

i'm so sorry about logan, i read your site, and he was such a beautiful baby. i hope you find out what happened w/ him, and good luck ttc again. too bad your friends and family don't support you more, but they prob only have your interests at heart. still it's hard hearing all that negativity.

[Enchanted Mumma]

Hun...I am sorry for your loss and would like to read your story when you have time to write it.

Welcome aboard TTCAL. This forum is full of the most amazingly supportive women. We'll be here for you during your journey.

YAY for TTC!!!