The waiting game is almost over

kristajoyce · #1 October 23rd, 2008, 11:15 AM

I am pretty sure that my miscarriage will happen today. I'm devestated. I just don't know what to do, but I have really been blessed by the support of everyone here as I have waiting to see if our baby would make it.

I am sad for many reasons of course, but one thing that I am thinking about today is that I wonder if today will be that last day that I am pregnant ever. It is such a depressing thought. I had just gotten out all of my maternity clothes last week when my doctor told me that she thought everything was going to be fine. I feel like they are just mocking me. I am going to put them all away after I put the kids to bed tonight.

I feel so cheated and depressed. I know that most of you know can relate, so I hope you don't mind me hanging out here even if we are not actively TTC for a while.

..Jessica.. · #2 October 23rd, 2008, 12:22 PM

Oh hun...I'm so sorry!!! It's not over though!!! Don't give up hope!!! I'm saying a prayer for you right now that this baby stays where he is suppose to!!!!!

Mellza · #3 October 23rd, 2008, 12:33 PM

(((hugs)))

kristajoyce · #4 October 23rd, 2008, 12:46 PM

Thank you Jessica for your encouragement, but I know that I will miscarry soon. I was still hopeful until my appointment yesterday. My u/s yesterday showed that the sac had collapsed and is just above my cervix. I was already starting to dialate when my doctor checked me.

I have started some mild cramping now and I am just hoping that my body can do this natually. I didn't expect to be this tired, but I am checking my temperature often to make sure that I don't have a fever.

I am honestly kind of numb right now. I am so tired of crying and I have to take care of my kids. I have been doing Halloween crafts with them to take my mind off of things. We also made spiders out of OREOS and preztel sticks. They were a big hit. My mom just got here. She came over to help out, so maybe I can get a little rest before the big cramps come.

Wee3monkeys · #5 October 23rd, 2008, 12:53 PM

I'm so sorry!!!

Eleysia · #6 October 23rd, 2008, 01:03 PM

Sweetheart Im so sorry

I hope it goes quickly for you. Ill be keeping you in my T&P that you recover quickly physically and mentally.

Mommy0305 · #7 October 23rd, 2008, 01:40 PM

I'm sorry

kingdink · #8 October 23rd, 2008, 03:01 PM

I can't even put into words how sorry I am. I am so, so sorry.

amy2008 · #9 October 23rd, 2008, 04:41 PM

I am so, so sorry. There are no words - just know that you are not alone. We are here whenever you need us.

Danielley08 · #10 October 23rd, 2008, 04:46 PM

..Jessica.. · #11 October 23rd, 2008, 05:00 PM

I'm so sorry!!!!! I wish this didn't happen to anyone!!!! I hope it doesn't last long for you! I'm so sorry.

KDD · #12 October 23rd, 2008, 07:32 PM

I am so sorry.

mom2njia · #13 October 23rd, 2008, 07:33 PM

Krista I am soo sorry. I was just where you are now last month, though I was only 6 weeks along. The waiting is awful. I felt very tired and feverish too. I hope and pray its over fast and not too painful.
Again I am sorry for you loss.

kristajoyce · #14 October 23rd, 2008, 09:27 PM

It really helps to know people care. I know that we don't physically know the women on here, but we are all esentially the same and need other people that know how we feel. I ache with all of you going through hard times and it makes a big difference on my emotional health just to know someone is thinking of me and caring about what is going on in my life.

I am really enjoying getting to know all of you. You ladies are AMAZING! Thank you for all your support.

I am still waiting. I keep thinking that it will happen soon, but I guess I have to let it happen in its own time.