hi hun! Sorry to see you here

but I might be able to help.
I had a second trimester termination in August. We found out at my 20 week scan that my son did not have any limbs - not even stubs. Not even enough to use prosthetics. (Tetra Amelia). We talked to doctors, radiologists, specialists, geneticists, and no one recommended continuing the pregnancy as the birth defects were too severe for him to have any quality of life what so ever if he survived. I was induced on the 12th at 21 weeks. It was and continues to be the hardest thing I have ever been through in my entire life. The Perinatologist recommended we wait 3 cycles to start trying again and we thought we would wait a year...but here we are, my third cycle should start on Sunday-ish and then we are going to start TTC again. I know how hard it is to get passed the grief of losing a child - and then there is guilt on top of it. And what-if's. But! You can't let yourself focus on that, you have to just push past it and know that you did the right thing. I don't know how similar our situations are, but I can imagine we're feeling about the same way.

!! If you ever need someone to talk to, hun, I'm here