Already frustrated w/ TTC and it's only cycle 1

kingdink · #1 November 8th, 2008, 06:17 AM

I guess I was hoping it would be slightly easier than this to just try, not even get pg right away, but at least feel like I had a chance.

First of all, my chart has been kind of all over the place, even more so than the month after my m/c. My temps keeps going up and down, but for the most part they have just been really high, higher than my normal coverline. I was worried I would have an anovulatory cycle because of the weird temps, but I had hope when I got my 2 +OPKs on CD 14. It made sense since I typically my temps go up on day 16 post O, my CP was where it was supposed to be and I had some fertile CM. I was first hoping my temp would go up on CD 16, especailly since I had some cramping on CD 15, but it didn't and now this morning, CD 17, it still hasn't. My CP is still pretty high, but no fertile CM, so I don't know WTH is going on, if I'm going to O late again or if I'm not going to at all. I'm so bummed and frustrated.

Stupid OPKs totally got my hopes up, even though I know you can get +OPKs and not O, I really thought I would because the timing was perfect. And poor DH, I've already managed to make DTD a chore in the last 3 days because I just kept thinking my temp would go up the next day and I didn't want to miss it.

I am so disappointed, I just wanted a chance.

madmum_sarah · #2 November 8th, 2008, 07:26 AM

hun. you will get your sticky bean.
it takes time for some and its never easy when you really want it but it will be worth it in the end.
il send you some of my dust too

xx

~Laurie~ · #3 November 8th, 2008, 08:04 AM

I'm so sorry, Jo. The uncertainty sucks soooo much. You just wish you could install a light up sign that says "fertile" and "not fertile" like a vacancy sign on a hotel. I hope you get your bfp. Maybe your temps are wrong?

KDD · #4 November 8th, 2008, 01:30 PM

My cycles were screwy for a few months after my m/c. Good luck!

starrsgirl · #5 November 8th, 2008, 03:54 PM

I'm so sorry you are frustrated! I know I will be joining you in frustration in a few days (that's when I'm allowed to start BDing again). I'm trying to stay away from temps and charting myself for the next few months because I suspect I will be a little screwy too after a miscarriage.

I'm pulling for you and hope you get a BFP despite crazy temps!