[heathernoell6]

So, I have been trying to surf the web and find out what is going on with this spotting...and NOTHING! I figure, we have all been through this, and you are the best ones to ask. I am so scared...of being pg, of not being pg, of having some problem that I may never be pg. I had two VERY easy pregnancies. My first, I was on bc pills. I was never sick, went to the hospital because my water broke, not because of any pain. Had an epidural before I was really uncomfortable, pushed 3 times and there she was. The only bad part was that I had a male ob and he gave me an episiotomy needing 27 stiches even though it only took 3 pushes...anyway. The second time, dh and I were faithfully using condoms and along came #2. No sickness, 14 lbs gained, then I had elevated blood pressure, which I seized the opportunity for an induction although it was not absolutely necesary. Well, I was put in the hospital for induction at 11pm day before Father's Day, 2002. They gave me cervidil to ripen my cervix 'but not induce labor' immediately. All night, I kept telling my RN that I was in pain...help me! She continued ( to ignore my printouts from my monitors on my belly) to tell me that she shouldn't give me any pain relief b/c I would build an immunity to it before I REALLY needed it with pitocin the next day...Well, at 6am I talked her into a half dose of NUBAIN. It knocked me out for 45min. When I woke up the nurses were changing shifts. My new RN looked at my printouts (7:02 am) and checked my cervix. I was 9 1/2 centimeters. My daughter was born 15 minutes later. I remember her saying 'we are going to have a baby in 10 min' and me saying ' no!!!! I haven't had an epidural and this is my worst nightmare come true!!!' Anyway, I gave birth naturally...or without an epidural...and I was SO much better than the 1st time. I went home 27 hours later. OK, sorry to get off the subject. I had two unexpected, loved, and VERY easy pregnancies, and I am devestated that now that I am FINALLY trying...WE CAN"T DO IT!!!! Thanks for listening.