[katiegirl]

Ok, so yesterday as you know was Thanksgiving. Since I won't ovulate for probably a week and just had my 1st Angelversary on Wednesday I wanted to drink.
So I was making a Wine punch and asked my sister if she wanted a glass. She was like, "I really shouldn't".
She thinks she may be pregnant. It just hit me like a ton of bricks.

I'm suppose to be the one pregnant
I'm the one that has a supportive husband
I'm the one that can AFFORD to have a 3rd kid
I'm the one who has been through a miscarriage
I'm the one who had friggin TTC for almost 2 years.

I know that all sounds horrible and selfish but that is exactly how I felt when she said that to me. They have 2 kids now and can't make ends meet. There is no way she will be able to work with 3 kids. The cost of daycare outweights her salary at that point and there is no way her lazy husband will pick up a 2nd job.
I just walked out of the room without saying a think, went to the garage and just cried.

I just hate the bitterness that I have within. For the love of pete just give me a BFP!!!!!

[..Jessica..]

KATIE!!!!

You aren't bitter, you're a woman.

I completely understand how you feel! Everytime I find out someone my age, that I went to school with is preggo, I get upset.

Like you said, you can support the 3rd baby. Keep that in your mind, because you WILL be supporting that 3rd baby soon. I just wish it would happen sooner than later!

and tons more

Love ya girl!!!!

[starrsgirl]

That just plain sucks! It's really not fair most times. I wish life was perfect and all the deserving people got exactly what they should have. I'm sorry you had deal with that. Just when you think you're OK, the littlelest thing sets you off.

We are thinking of you and believe me, we understand!! Hang tough.

[KDD]

I'm sorry Katie.

[madmum_sarah]

you are not bitter hun. you are a loving person who desires a baby so much that it hurts.
the fact you can see beyond normal things and look into the fact that you can afford it, have the support etc shows you are doing this head first not heart!
i pray you get your bfp soon hun

xx

[katiegirl]

Thanks ladies, I knew you would understand.

[Mellza]

i'm sorry... i i hope you get a bfp soon...