[madmum_sarah]

this is you know who. i would have posted in private but i know some there dont have the password (oh he hates having his pic taken! )

trying to dress up (hes a jeans n tshirt guy! )

bein a plonker at a wedding (this is totally normal behaviour! from him anyway )




he also changed the song on his website to
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=BgcnPaJDuzI
and sent me this
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=XU0v2_PcPbk


message from shane for you all

ladys there is only one girl for me an as she wont admit to it she the must gorgeous thing i seen an i have not an will not ever given up on her she my lady in red an i love her with every bit of my bein an always will[/b]

soppy bugger

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I wasn't in chat, but I know who you're talking about. He's very cute honey! I love that song Amazed. That is so sweet of him.

[madmum_sarah]

yeah you know
he is amazingly sweet (although i wasnt saying that 10 mins ago when i got home to 3 texts from mark and none from him. he was sleeping though cos finished work at 7am! )
i think its the fun factor i love about him more than anything
xx

[Pitridge]

Ok I'm completly lost

[..Jessica..]

How do you not have the password, when it was PMed to you?

Awweeeeeeeee....SHANEEEE!!!!!!!

[madmum_sarah]

lol jess i have it! some of the ones in chat didnt though and i wanted them to see too
i think i may be slightly obsessed by this man! arghhh how did he do that to me!!!
still, im not gonna complain, im gonna make most of it
xx
patty, you are on my facebook, you should be able to tell a fair bit
xxx

[LifeToTheMax]

Ok I'm completly lost [/b]

[Pitridge]

I'm normally very cluless but this is killing me....who is he?

[..Jessica..]

Shane is her ex-fiance who still loves her! He still wears the rings she bought him too!!!! He stayed up with her last night on the computer to keep her awake for us for chat!!!!

[madmum_sarah]

he is my ex fiance. we finished 2and a half years ago but he has always been around and about. he texts me at random times which normally coincide with me being down which is exactly what he did on friday when i had all that stuff with mark.
anyway, he spent 4 hours on phone to me to make sure i was resting and if he heard me move i gt trouble and last night, he stayed online chatting to me to keep me up so i didnt miss chat because he knows how much i wanted to be there
he has said some VERY sweet things (a lot of which has made me cry) and he still wears his engagemnet ring because and i quote "i made a promise to always love you and be there for you. i still love you, im in love with you and i will never break my promise"

[BellaBellski]

he is my ex fiance. we finished 2and a half years ago but he has always been around and about. he texts me at random times which normally coincide with me being down which is exactly what he did on friday when i had all that stuff with mark.
anyway, he spent 4 hours on phone to me to make sure i was resting and if he heard me move i gt trouble and last night, he stayed online chatting to me to keep me up so i didnt miss chat because he knows how much i wanted to be there
he has said some VERY sweet things (a lot of which has made me cry) and he still wears his engagemnet ring because and i quote "i made a promise to always love you and be there for you. i still love you, im in love with you and i will never break my promise" [/b]

And once again.... AWWWWWWWWE!!

Jeez he is Cute!! and really cheesy...But who doesn't love Cheesy Romantic stuff??? I sure do

He seems like a keeper, Sarah!!

[Pitridge]

Awwwwwwwww, why is he your ex fiance?? He sounds so sweet, and if you don't mind me saying seems like he wants you back, not afraid of committment (plus points), does he know your are pg? Now what he wrote on your wall on facebook makes sense.

[L-SBB]

I said it last night, and I'll say it again - we're taking the "Ex" outta ex-fiance!!!

And many thanks Sarah for posting it here - I'm probably the only one still not qualified for the private room...and I did want to see him!

[madmum_sarah]

thanks girls
he is a cutie he will never grow up but openly admits that and he loves the fact he is a big kid!
we split because he lived too far away and we were both insecure because when we go out, we are both a hit with the opposite sex
we still have theose problems but he wants to work through them by moving up here im not rushing into anything but its nice to know our feelings are mutual
he does know about the twins and it doesnt bother him at all. he always thought mark was a waste of space and the way he is being today has confirmed it
im actually on phone with him right now while he is at work
xx

[Pitridge]

WOW he is thinking of moving up there........I would say that's more than just wanting to try, I give him plus, plus points. I guess he does have a point about Mark. I hope he takes better care of you and the twins than Mark did.

[madmum_sarah]

thanks patty. i have told him i dont want him rushing into moving here. i have made it clear he is welcome to visit and i plan on going down to see him too (twins allowing it!)
his mum adores me. she always called me the daughter she never had and always wanted even after we split (she has a daughter but she isnt supportive in his mums relationship choices (she is with another woman who is amazing and that is coming from someone who has 4 kids to 3 diff dads and spends no time with them and sends them to her mum all the time ) yeah, i dont like his sis!
im trying to take this very slow because although i know my love for him never went away, i need to be sure this is for real and not the twins taking over every part of my body
i dont think i have ever been as happy, content and strong as i am right now which is really odd considering i should be having a mental breakdown right around now!

mark.... has text me so many times today! i argeed to give him £25 for his comp (means i paid hundred for it but also means i dont have to make effort to go get a new one for kids)
he got £15 today and i said would give him the rest tomorrow as long as i can go out because i have been waiting for doc. i have been spotting again and serious cramps last couple of days (actually collapsed at meeting today ) and tonight i got a text sayin "hi, its just me, just wanted to see if you are ok and what the doctor said." when he was here earlier he offered to look after kids so i could have a break and said if i need anything then just call him i gave a simple reply of "when i get house insured if i decide i want it burned down il give you a call. until then, you live that direction" i havent even bothered replying to his texts. i have a funny feeling he is starting to realise how alone he is here. i dont care. he bought this on himself so getting no pitty from me!
yep, im a happy, content, strong evil
xxx

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

Woohoo, I can't wait til he moves closer to you. He sounds amazing!!! Don't be scared Sarah!!! Sometimes things happen when we least expect it. I'm so happy for you! Tell Mark to F off.

[Pitridge]

It seems like you too were meant to me together. I'm so happy to hear that you are having, you sound so upbeat, I'm so happy for that. I know what you mean about not rushing things, I think you are doing it the right way, take your time because I hope this time is it for the two of you.
Good that you told Mark to F off, that was great! Good for you!
How are you doing? You said you had some spotting, did you hear from the doc? Please take it easy, you need to rest more, take care of yourself and the twins.

[madmum_sarah]

im actually layin on my bed now trying to relax
he has told me to take things easy and avoid stress as much as poss (which is why i have now turned off my phone!) i have the health visitor coming tomorrow to check me over and if im still having problems then they want me back in. that will be hard but its my own fault because to take my mind off him being a jerk, i moved sadies and my bedrooms round tonight. still stuff to do but it can wait now. i have to do whats best for these babies right now.
i cant believe im 7 weeks today. where on earth did the last 3 and a half weeks go?

[Pitridge]

7 weeks? Time does fly, it seems like it was yesterday that you announce your bfp. I'm glad you are relaxing, and you are right you need to do what's best for the babies right now. WOW you a re half way through your first trimester!