Laurie?

AliciaF · #1 December 13th, 2008, 08:46 AM

Just wondering how you're doing if you're here reading.

..Jessica.. · #2 December 13th, 2008, 09:58 AM

Me too girl!

klt · #3 December 13th, 2008, 01:32 PM

And me...
Kelty

~Laurie~ · #4 December 14th, 2008, 07:49 AM

Hi everyone. Thanks for thinking of me. Today is the first day that I haven't been in an extreme amount of pain. I wish I had refused to see this particular OBGYN. I would have had to wait an extra day to see my regular OBGYN, and my GP didn't want to wait. This other OBGYN told me that I would be OK to go back to work the day after I had the methotrexate injections. I tried to work Thursday and Friday, but I was in so much pain. I couldn't move without intense pain. My husband had to help me sit down, lay down, stand-up and walk. I didn't make it to the end of my work day on Friday. I had to come home because I felt like I was going to pass out, so I called the doctor. His nurse called me back and was in disbelief that he told me I could go back to work. She mentioned how surprised she was by that three times during the phone call, and she said she would fit me in if I wanted to see the doctor. I told her that I didn't think I needed to see him. I planned on going to the ER in my town if the pain was still bad rather than see that doctor. I've done some research on the internet, and he didn't give me much information at all. He asked me if I had any questions, and he answered the ones that I did have, but he didn't volunteer any information. Did he actually expect me to know what questions to ask? He did not tell me about the pain, he did not tell me that this treatment may not be effective, particularly with betas as high as mine were (over 10,000), he did not tell me that it may take more than three months for my levels to return to zero, he did not tell me to avoid alcohol and NSAIDs. Truthfully, I am bitter. I hope that the treatment is effective because I don't want to have to go back to him at all. When I talk about the pain, it should be noted that I am not a wimp. I've passed galstones, given birth, and had a c-section, but the pain on Thursday and Friday was worse than anything I've ever felt before. Sorry this has turned into a rant, but I am just so angry at how I've been treated. I am OK, but I don't know where I stand yet. I have to have my betas checked again on Monday, and then again on Wednesday. If they aren't going down, I think I will either have another round of methotrexate or surgery. If I chose surgery, I will not allow that doctor to do it. I will request my regular OBGYN. Thanks for being with me, girls. I feel bad that I haven't been that active on here lately but I have been mostly bedridden. I will try to get back on here soon. I hope everyone else is doing well.

AliciaF · #5 December 14th, 2008, 08:10 AM

You are definitely allowed to rant, scream, throw things, we are here to listen

Don't feel bad about not being on much either, it's totally expected. We just want you to get better!

mom2njia · #6 December 14th, 2008, 05:36 PM

I agree! Rant and scream all you want. I am so sorry you are going through this.

klt · #7 December 14th, 2008, 06:24 PM

OH, Laurie...You rant and scream as much as you want. You're going through a lot! And, we're here to listen. I'm so sorry that the pain has been so horrible. I wish someone could give you more info and answers! I really hope your levels start to decrease and that you don't have to see that doc EVER again! Take care of yourself. You're in my prayers. KUP We're all thinking of you!

Kelty