my intuitions were telling me that we missed it again this month by not O'ing properly. i was wrong.
but i was right that this wasn't our month again anyway. i got 3 light bfps in the two days before as well as on christmas day. i also started spotting on christmas, so here i am, actively bleeding, and losing a 2nd pregnancy in 3 months, during christmastime, no less. and to top it off, we were at a party last night and had to answer if we had kids yet and if not, why not, while i stand there spotting and trying to smile. i'll have another houseful of people over again today, cooking and cleaning and entertaining; and visiting my grandmother tomorrow who i guess will not know great-grandkids from us before she leaves this world. i thought this was supposed to be the season of joy, hope and love.