So, DH and I have decided to try again. We think it's good timing as we can afford it and still be able to work on paying off our bills. Linz is almost 3 and I think she would love being a big sister. AND THEN.....

I am told that my daycare/preschool provider is closing her doors in 2 weeks! WTH? I just moved her there last summer and this really is shocking to me. Now I have to find another daycare. She gave us great rates, and was 2 houses down! There is a great preschool we'd like to put LIndsay in but it's $1000 a month! that would definitely put a damper on affording daycare for 2 kids. I'm looking into her old daycare which was in another neigjborhood but she has raised her rates also and may not have openings. So frustrating. It's almost like the universe is telling me that maybe we should wait longer? UGh, I just don't know what to do. Of course, I'm supposed to O this week!

Not to mention, Lindsay has been a nightmare at bedtime lately and that also makes me feel like "how can I handle an infant and deal with her". UGH! Ok thanks for letting me vent.

[.kristen.]

Wow, I didn't think they could do that. Daycare is very expensive. Oh, maybe everything is going on so you can get your BFP and be very excited. I don't know. Lindsay and KJ can be a hand full together, because ever since our loss and Christmas he is a little terror.

Wow, I didn't think they could do that. Daycare is very expensive. Oh, maybe everything is going on so you can get your BFP and be very excited. I don't know. Lindsay and KJ can be a hand full together, because ever since our loss and Christmas he is a little terror.[/b]

I like your outlook. I'm always the "glass is half empty" person so I'm not disappointed when bad things happen haha. I know not a good thing. I'm hoping the Linz being a terror phase ends soon! I hope yours does too. Thanks for the insight and thanks for reminding me that I am not alone.

[Jennifer8080]

I'm sorry to hear about your childcare situation.

DF was laid off a few weeks ago and we considered putting off TTC because of it but just decided that if we keep putting it off until the timing is perfect it may never happen. We know we'll be okay, even if he's out of work for awhile. He may get to be a stay at home dad, while I work which isn't ideal, but we will make it happen and you guys will too! Good luck with the daycare search.

[tobynscarlett]

That has to be frustrating!!! Madison is almost 3 and bed times are a nightmare for us too!!! She is the kind of child that will wake up in the middle of the night and play- she won't come get in the bed with me. One day I caught her trying to open the door with both shoes in her hand!! Thank goodness for childproof locks. I have had to keep her in her crib and put a crib tent on top just to keep her contained. I know she should be transitioning to a toddler bed, but it is just not safe for her to be roaming the house in the middle of the night. They will outgrow the bedtime troubles soon, just keep your eyes on the prize!!! LOL

So last night she went right to sleep! Must have been the half mile walk we went on before dinner LOL. We WILL be doing that again LMAO. She still woke at 11 when I was going to bed and came in with us, but it's progress.

We decided to still try this week! We are going to look at the expensive preschool this weekend at their open house. I'm praying for a deal of some sort! We will figure out daycare later. This is so not like me. I need a plan for everything. According to MMC I will O on Friday. I usually can tell when I'm close becuase I get those crampies and lots of CM. We're going to DTD tonight, tomorrow and Friday. Is that too much? LOL. Dh doesn't think so of course . More to come, I'll be doing the 2WW soon.