Dammit. This is NOT FAIR! When I got pregnant with my Daughter my sister started TTC with her bf of 1 MONTH and ended up pregnant Cycle 3! This time I got pregnant and she got pregnant Six Weeks later! I feel like she's competing with me. Our whole lives have been like that, I do something, she has to do it bigger/better. I lost my baby at 21 weeks and Hers will be born full term tonight. I'm soo incredibly jealous that I'm actually hoping and praying that she has a girl, because I know if she has a boy too then I will crumble. Absolutely Crumble. I'm already crying at the thought. It's not fair. I want my son back
~~Update~~
Well...she had her little munchkin at 11pm last night and
it's a ......
BOY! boooooooooo life! But you know, at least I got a nephew to spoil! It was really hard this morning at the hospital, especially when her DF brought in their DD to introduce her to her little brother, I just kept thinking 'no this isn't right, this is supposed to be Me. and Mike. And Mattea." I was the one that was Trying to get pregnant, this should have happened for me
I broke down once we left, but I didn't cry while we were there. I just kept thinking if I fake it long enough, I will actually be Happy for her & not just insanely jealous.
I just know I'm always gonna look at him and think 'this is what D should be doing now'
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