It's been a while.... but I am scared.

mom2kaisnkam · #1 January 26th, 2009, 02:27 PM

hello Ladies, I have not been around for a while. So I am not sure how many of you will remember me. Hopefully all the ladies who were here with me have moved on to DD clubs. So in hopes that they have, my name is Nette. I just turned 37 on Wednesday. My DH and I have been TTC our 3rd child since Jan 07. I had a miscarriage in June 08. And as you all know it was devastating. Well Wednesday (on my birthday) I got so sick. I mean the worst case of indigestion ever. I kept it until Sunday and still don't feel too great. I have had 3 people say are you sure you are not pregnant? Well today I was at my church doing some paperwork and I just kept feeling alot of pressure in my lower abdomen. So curiousity got to me and I got a Dollar store test. There is a very faint light pink line. I am 12DPO and 5 days before the Due Date of our angel. I am terrified. I have prayed and prayed over my belly hoping to God that this time won't be like last time.

Has anyone else had the pressure? This is what is scarring me most. I am walking on eggshells thinking okay don't do this or that. Help... I may drive myself insane.

vancouvermommy · #2 January 26th, 2009, 02:41 PM

I understand, and I am in the same boat as you. I conceived 9 days after I miscarried last month, and I live in fear of every single little twinge, ache or pain. I run to the bathroom several times a day checking for spotting. I am worried becasue I don't have any ms, and I did with my other two.

Remember that there is nothing you can really do to cause a miscarriage. I know it is hard, but try to relax and enjoy your pregnancy right now. The future is unknown, but have faith.
Congratulations on getting pregnant again!!

mom2kaisnkam · #3 January 26th, 2009, 03:01 PM

Thank you Anna. I know I am not alone, that is why I came here immediately after POAS. My DH just came home and he had this big smile and twinkle in his eye that was undescribable. He is actually 4 yrs younger than I am and my DD is from my first marriage. But he has claimed her as his own since she was 7 months old. But he has always wanted more children.

BTW, I am off to buy another test.... just in case.

I thought of not telling anyone, but that would truly show my lack of faith in God. And while I don't really care what others think, I really need God to know I have faith in Him to take care of this pregnancy. It is actually totally different from the pregnancy that I miscarried already.

Whew... I think I am starting to feel better...

Jennifer8080 · #4 January 26th, 2009, 03:07 PM

Congrats! I'm sending you lots of sticky

tobynscarlett · #5 January 26th, 2009, 03:10 PM

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I thought of not telling anyone, but that would truly show my lack of faith in God. And while I don't really care what others think, I really need God to know I have faith in Him to take care of this pregnancy. It is actually totally different from the pregnancy that I miscarried already.[/b]

It's funny that you mentioned this- I have been thinking a lot lately and I was trying to decide how I would like to handle telling people when I get pregnant again. Making all of those phone calls to tell everyone what happened was one of the hardest things for me to deal with and it was very painful. You are right, putting your faith in God is the best way to go. Now that you have phrased it this way it makes me realize that it was all of the people that I had to call when Zachary died that truly helped me through his loss (and are still helping me). So, even though the phone calls were hard it added more to my life. I will be praying for you and your family, sometimes God just does things his way

*Bobbie* · #6 January 26th, 2009, 03:43 PM

Nette... LOADS of sticky

coming your way! I soooo hope this is it for you.... PICS I wanna see pics! <everything crossed>

madmum_sarah · #7 January 26th, 2009, 04:12 PM

oh nette i remember you hun!
i know how scared you must be but wanted to say a huge congrats hun and sending you lots of sticky dust
xxx

KDD · #8 January 26th, 2009, 04:43 PM

Hi Nette! I'm so glad that you're back with a

That's great news! I know it's normal to worry but your bean is in a safe place. If you need to vent, cry, obsess, etc, we're here to listen.

heathernoell6 · #9 January 26th, 2009, 05:10 PM

HI

! My name is Heather. I have been here since Oct. Congratulations. I am sure every one of us will be the same when we finally get our bfps. Good luck hun and welcome back. We are here ttc or not

..Jessica.. · #10 January 26th, 2009, 05:40 PM

Congrats Nette!!!

I'm sooo happy for you girl!!! I agree with Bobbie, post pics!!!

vancouvermommy · #11 January 26th, 2009, 06:20 PM

Nette, my dh is my second husband, and is the step-dad to my two kids, but he also loves them as his own; but he is soooo thrilled when I got pregnant again, and was so devastated when we lost a pregnancy last month. Now that I am pregnant again, he is so happy. I know what you mean about the twinkle. He is not worried and has faith, says God has a plan, and we have to trust it....I am the worried one.

I didn't tell ANYONE I was pregnant last time, and no one but my dh knows about the miscarriage, and you know what? I kind of regret it, because I feel/felt so alone going through it all. I never had to make the phone calls to say that I had lost the baby, but it was very hard to put on a smiling face during the holidays when I had just lost a baby days before. I realized I needed my family and friends to support me.

I am going to try my best to just enjoy this pregnancy, and pray that I have a healthy baby in 8 months. I wish you that too!

klt · #12 January 27th, 2009, 10:09 AM

CONGRATULATIONS! YOU'RE PG! THAT IS AWESOME!

Yep, you need to tell the people who are close to you. We were just talking about this in chat last night. My feeling is that you should tell the people you would cry to. That way, they get to share in your joy. And, if you're worried, they are the best listeners. I hope this is your sticky bean. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Oh, I guess I should introduce myself! I'm Kelty (41) My DH (43) and I are TTC#4. We have 3 DS (8, 10, 13) and had a m/c in Oct. This is our first cycle TTC since our loss.

Congrats again!

mom2kaisnkam · #13 January 27th, 2009, 05:37 PM

Thank you all so much! I did POAS last night and there was that faint second line (pink). Then this morning I POAS AGAIN and there it was again. Another faint pink line. My AF is not due until tomorrow and I am pretty sure after she does not show, it will finally sink in. But just in case I have 2 more tests to pee on....hehehe. I am actually starting to get excited. And yes I have already started letting close family know. This pregnancy already feels different than the one I miscarried. So I am hoping that God does have a plan for this little person here on earth.

Thanks so much again. Sarah and Kimberly it's so nice to hear from you both. I have missed you.

..Red.. · #14 January 27th, 2009, 07:57 PM

Here is lots of sticky dust for you.

I understand completely. I always check when I wipe, get up to check whenever I feel a bit of wetness, just in case. But I can tell you this is different too. I don't feel dread like last time, more like the worry I think every normal first time pregnant lady feels. And honestly, I had no reason to dread. I probably have more reason this time. Having to pay a lot of it out of pocket is stressful. But good doctors and people are looking out for me. I think that definitely helps. I am not telling the kids though. Not yet. Maybe when I get to my second trimester. This will be my little step daughter's birthday present. This one is due the day after her birthday. Happy Birthday Katie!

mom2kaisnkam · #15 January 28th, 2009, 07:11 AM

What a great Birthday present. My DS was actually born 3 days before my DD birthday. This one is due in October.

mom2kaisnkam · #16 January 28th, 2009, 07:29 AM

Well test 4 is still a faint pink line. Do the dollar store baby test ever get any darker? This is what I used when I got a BFP last year but I can not remember how dark the line was.

And I counted wrong... I actually got my bfp at 11DPO and I am 13 DPO today.

jenn27 · #17 January 28th, 2009, 12:19 PM

Congrats hun. I'm sooooo very excited for you. I hope that you have a very happy and healthy 9 months. I'm sure everything is going to be just fine.

.kristen. · #18 January 29th, 2009, 07:01 AM

Congrats! I am reluctant to tell anyone from my family. Literally the only people who know is my DH, my parents (because we live with them) and my sister (because she is the one booking our trip for Disney in October) my boys don't even know because of what happened with the miscarriage. My SIL has been questioning everyone, but everyone just shrugs their shoulders. We are not telling her until March 18th or if I can get to Easter, then she will know then (she has a lot of criticism) and my aunts and grandparents won't know until June 10th when I am viable. (If my mom can keep the secret that long)

But I am just like you I check every time I wipe for any sort of blood. I am so paranoid it isn't even funny! I am thinking about you and sending you lots of sticky dust!

HippyMomOf4 · #19 January 29th, 2009, 10:04 AM

Congrats on the BFP girl!

Momeejenjen · #20 January 29th, 2009, 10:19 AM

Congrats sweety! I am sending lots of sticky dust your way, I also completely understand your reason for telling people! I have pondered on the same thoughts but I can't imagine going through another miscarriage alone.. it was all those people that pulled me through!