[madmum_sarah]

hey ladies.
ive missed you all so much!!
well the 10th will be 1 year since i lost my "jamie". i cant beleive it has come round so suddenly.
i really thought now im pregnant it wouldnt bother me quite so much but oh my it is
i tried to talk to my friend about it the other day and to say i got the cold shoulder is an understatement. she said i must care more about my losses than the fact im pregnant blah blah blah. all she did was make me cry more and make me feel guilty.
i am so happy this pregnancy is continuing (im sure you all know that) but i cant help miss the baby i should have been holding by now! i love all my babies the same, my older ones, my losses and my glow worm so why shouldnt i feel hurt that my loss date is coming?
im not sure i will ever really recover from that to be honest, after all, it was my first child with mark too and we wanted it so much!
sorry for being on a downer and posting here after being distant for a while but i know you girls will understand how im feeling more than anyone i know in real life.
i know i dont post as much but i do still lurk and pray you get your bfps all the time. you so deserve it and it has been wonderful to see some new bfps lately
xx

[KDD]

Oh Sarah. I'm sure that the 10th will always be an important day for you. Our angels will always be our babies. I'm so sorry that your friend doesn't understand. We are always here for you.

[..Jessica..]

I'm sorry that this date has arrived, Sarah!!! It's extremely normal to feel this way!!!

[L-SBB]

Sarah...I know the 10th will be tough for you, but we'll all be here to lean on. I'll be thinking of you...

[PixieQueen]

Hugs for you Sarah! Comments like that are ignorant. It's like we didn't lose an actual child. If you had carried to term and then had your baby pass, everyone would be so understanding, but because your baby never actually made it out of the womb, it somehow isn't a "real" baby. Well, our angels are real, so we totally understand! I know that my EDD will be hard for me, even if I am pg again by that point. You love your angels just as much as your babies that are here, and it's never easy. Know that we are thinking of you! Cry, take some down time, do what you need to do.

[madmum_sarah]

thank you girls.
i have decided that as long as schools are not closed on tuesday then im going to visit where i scattered my friend jamies ashes (who my baby was named after) and talk to them as i know deep in my heart that jamie will be taking care of my angel. maybe by doing this i can let some of this out even if it is just crying.
thank you for understanding. i really dont know where i would be without my jm girlies!
xx

[Christine-MA]

I'm sorry that your friend said that to you I'll be thinking of you.

My EDD is coming up, so while I haven't gone through it yet, I know it isn't going to be easy.

[.kristen.]

I will be hinking about you Sarah!!! Hugs!

[klt]

Sarah...You will always love your little angel. And, people, especially friends, need to understand that. You're not supposed to get over it (I don't think any of us ever will!) You're supposed to learn how to make the event a part of your life that you find "easier" to live with (granted...easy is a bad word. It's never easy. You just kind of get used to it) I'll be thinking of you! Take care and we're glad you're still around! (((hugs)))

[..Red..]

I hope yesterday brought you some peace. I know I have been struggling with the same thing. It's coming up next month and I'm anxious about it. Even having bad dreams about Little Pinto. I'm hoping it is just the anxiety of the day coming up. I hope your little glow worm brought you some comfort.