My issue...

tobynscarlett · #1 February 26th, 2009, 05:15 PM

Okay, first I want to say that I am so sorry if I have not responded to posts like I should. I feel so guilty that I finally got to be co-host, then got so distracted that I haven't responded like I wanted to. I have really struggled with whether I should post this or not because I don't want to scare anyone, but then I decided that I really need some emotional support right now so I am going to tell you girls all about it.

Here it goes- Since my D&C I have confirmed O 2x's (or at least had a LH surge) I have had two periods right on schedule- but my AF has only been 2days long. Regular amount of bleeding, but very short which is NOT normal for me. After doing some research I found a website called ASHERMANS.ORG and it described some of the problems I have been having- cramping with no bleeding, short periods, regular hormonal changes, etc. Well, Asherman's Syndrome is actually scarring of the uterus that causes the walls of the uterus to stick together- this can lead to increased risk of miscarriage and even infertility. Asherman's is caused by trauma to the uterus, most often after a D&C. When the uterus is scraped it can cause the uterus to adhere together and scar tissue holds the sides together or blocks tubes so that sperm and egg cannot meet. It can also cause endemetriosis becuase it can prevent some of the menstrual tissue from leaving the body and can force the body to have to reabsorb it. So, now I am TERRIFIED that this is happening. I spent the whole day bawling my eyes out- the ONE thing I was scared of may have actually happened. I was so scared that I would wake up from my D&C and not be able to have anymore children- that thought has haunted me from day one.

Well, on Monday I made an appointment to see a new OB to have this checked out (I have always used midwives), the first appointment he had was in 4 weeks (he came highly recommended). I took the appointment but have been continuosly worrying. Yesterday I decided to call the Infertility clinic and make an appointment with a specialist (incase I do need surgery to correct anything). Usually it takes MONTHS to get in with the infertility Dr's because they are the only one in this area and are very good (I personally know 6 children that have come from this clinic). I figured I would at least be able to get in 4 weeks sooner if I made the appointment now, and I could always cancel if it turned out that I didn't need them. When I called yesterday afternoon they said they just had a cancellation and I can get in TOMMORROW (Friday)!!!!!! That is UNHEARD OF!!! Even the women I know that have been established patients for years have to wait longer than that for an appointment. So now, instead of waiting 4 weeks to see an Ob and have him refer me to a specialist- I get to skip all of the steps and go straight to the top. WOW. I am hoping that he will agree to do a scope, where they use a camera to inspect the inside of your uterus, that way we can know immediately if there is a problem. I am so scared that I will never be able to have more children because of a sloppy D&C. It is a relief to know that I will be much closer to identifying the problem. I am hoping that it is a hormonal issue that will resolve itself over time, but with my cycles being right on schedule it looks less and less likely that hormones are the problem.

So, please pray for me and hope that I get great news tommorrow. I am really worried about it, I just want everything to be okay. Once again, I hope I didn't hurt anyone's feeling by not responding to your posts. I have been thinking about you all, but it seems like everytime I get on here I start thinking too much and end up googling something else about this condition. That distracts me and takes me away from the board- I really don't mean to. So sorry, I will try may best to make sure that it doesn't happen again!!!

Love Ya'll
Heather

jmhick · #2 February 26th, 2009, 05:27 PM

OH, Heather. I'm so sorry you have been going through this. I can't imagine what you must feel like. Don't give up hope and until you know what's going on, try not to read too much more -- that will only make it worse. Of course, I don't have any advice, just that I will be praying for you and I hope it's just hormonal and you will be A-OK...pleaseeeee KUP tomorrow after the appt. I will pray, pray, pray!!!

ya!

Ryleeroo · #3 February 26th, 2009, 05:31 PM

Oh Heather I am so sorry. The internet can be the

sometimes and causes unnecesary worrying, i pray that its not Asherman's Syndrome. I will be thinking of you and praying for good results. Please keep us posted!

And dont worry about you hosting duties, your well being is more important and your doing a great job anyways!

..Jessica.. · #4 February 26th, 2009, 05:44 PM

Oh Heather!!!!

I'm so sorry you're going through this!!!! I hope your docs are able to help you and that they find NOTHING wrong in your uterus!!!!!

I'm praying with my everything for you!!!!

Jennifer8080 · #5 February 26th, 2009, 05:53 PM

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I am glad that you were able to get into the specialist tomorrow though. That's amazing news. I'll be keeping you in my prayers and I hope that you get good news tomorrow.

~~~Sara~~~ · #6 February 26th, 2009, 06:06 PM

Ohh Heather, I want everything to be okay for you too! Hugs for you and wishing you the best for tomorrow!

tobynscarlett · #7 February 26th, 2009, 06:47 PM

Thank you so much girls!! I need all the prayer I can get. Losing the ability to have more kids would be devastating. I know I already have two healthy beautiful children, and I am unbelievably thankful for them, but the thought of having the option to have more taken away just hurts to my core. I have not chosen to be finished with my family, I have wanted more long before I lost Zachary. To think that my last child was a child that died just kills me. I am really hoping that I am just overreacting and being silly, but the thought is so scary for me- I just can't go on day to day not knowing!!! I can't be hopeful and test every month if there is no chance that I could get pregnant on my own again. All I want the Dr to do is look in there and tell me what he sees- if everything is clear then I will thank God and go on TTC. I just need some kind of answers. Please keep praying, I will update you on my appointment ASAP!!!

PixieQueen · #8 February 26th, 2009, 07:02 PM

If it makes you feel any better I have always had short periods, only around 3 days, with the last being almost only spotting, so hopefully you're body just is being weird (for you!) since Zachary. I am so glad that you got in quickly instead of having to worry yourself sick for a month! Let us know how it goes!

L-SBB · #9 February 26th, 2009, 07:25 PM

I'm glad you were able to get in with a specialist so quickly - hopefully that will get you some answers and put your fears to rest. Good luck with the appt - KUP!

tobynscarlett · #10 February 26th, 2009, 08:04 PM

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If it makes you feel any better I have always had short periods, only around 3 days, with the last being almost only spotting, so hopefully you're body just is being weird (for you!) since Zachary. I am so glad that you got in quickly instead of having to worry yourself sick for a month! Let us know how it goes![/b]

I am SO hoping that my body is just being a little crazy right now (that way it would match my mind

) The thing that really bothers me is that my periods have NEVER been this short and the #1 indicator of a physical problem (as opposed to hormonal) is a sudden change in periods immediately following a procedure (and continuation of those issues). I dismissed it my first period, but the second one shouldn't have been so short. And I am still having period like cramps but no bleeding, the cramping is worrying me because they can commonly be caused by adhesions (scarring). I doubt my uterus is still shrinking after almost 11 weeks. I am driving myself crazy with all of the analyzing, just hoping that the doctor does the scope and gives me really great news!!!

#11 February 27th, 2009, 04:13 AM

I am sorry that you have to go through all this worry, and that's great that you can see a specialist so soon. If it makes you feel any better. When I was TTC my first, my periods were crazy sometimes really short and sometimes didn't even come. My doctor let me try clomid and I had a successful pregnancy on the first round of it.

~Laurie~ · #12 February 27th, 2009, 04:55 AM

I'm so sorry you are going through this.

I hope your appointment goes well and that your body is just temporarily confused. KUP.

..Penelope.. · #13 February 27th, 2009, 05:06 AM

Oh Heather, I'm sending TONS of T&P your way! I'm sorry you're going through this. *HUGS*

klt · #14 February 27th, 2009, 05:20 AM

Heather - How scary for you. I'm so sorry you have to go though this whole thing. Hopefully your body is just getting back to normal after the procedure. The internet can be a scary thing, although informative at times. I have had to stay away from things like WebMD because by the time I log off, I have myself dead due to some rare condition. A little knowledge, for me, can be a very bad thing.

It's great that you get to see a specialist so soon. That way the doc can make a diagnosis rather than you worrying about it for another month. Stay positive. We're all praying for you. And, let us know how everything goes. I hope you get the news that everything is OK!!! Take care. Sending hugs your way!

*SamF* · #15 February 27th, 2009, 06:28 AM

Just wanted to jump in and say you are in my T&P's, I really hope everything turns out to be nothing! We are so good about scaring ourselves.
Good luck today and KUP!!

AliciaF · #16 February 27th, 2009, 06:42 AM

I'm sorry you're so worried and going through all of this. I do want to assure you that it can all be very normal though. You just had a baby 11 weeks ago and that takes a toll on your body! I'm sure you know from having your other 2 kids that your cycles don't spring back to normal right away!

It took 6 months for everything to kind of regulate for me to where I was ovulating at the right time and not really late or really early and to where my LP was finally long enough and not only 10 days. I've also had very short, light periods since my 20 week loss.

It's good to be proactive but I bet it's not that! I also totally understand your concerns as I share them. I have 2 boys and the thought of never having more is terrifying

I also had a very traumatic delivery, my placenta wouldn't detach and I was hemorrhaging and the doc had to do a manual extraction of my placenta which consisted of her sticking her arm in my uterus, up to her elbow and using her hand to scrape bits of the placenta out. I worry about scarring too

I'm set up to have a sonohystogram next cycle if I don't become pregnant. Maybe they could do that for you too.

dragonfly2006 · #17 February 27th, 2009, 10:01 AM

T&p for you!!

klt · #18 February 27th, 2009, 11:48 AM

What time is/was the appointment? Any news? Thinking of you and praying everything is OK!

KDD · #19 February 27th, 2009, 11:54 AM

Have you had your appointment yet? Have they found anything? Please update us as soon as possible. We're all thinking about you.

..Red.. · #20 February 27th, 2009, 12:26 PM

So it's 12:30 here. Have you gone in yet? I'm anxious to hear what they can do for you. I hope it's just you got lucky with only 2 day periods. Heck I'll go for that when I'm all done.

Edited to remove the double post... never had that happen before.