The Game of Life

stargatemommy · #1 March 27th, 2009, 09:04 PM

This is actually kind of sad! Just goes to show just how deep my sadness over TTC and RPL has gone.

Tonight DH and I had a 'triple' date (with 2 other couple) and we played "The Game of Life" I was so upset that at the end, neither me or my husband ended up with kids! I truly wanted to cry! I don't know, maybe I felt it was an omen or something. I can't even have kids in a stupid game!

How sad is that?!? It is just a game but I am trying to hold back tears, because my little car never landed on a "Get a kid" square! I am pathetic!

Soape · #2 March 27th, 2009, 09:07 PM

your not pathetic. It's really hard sometimes and little things, that to others can seem silly, just set us off and remind us of what we don't have.

twoboys · #3 March 27th, 2009, 10:06 PM

Ahhhh, dont be sad, like you said its just a game.. I know how hard it is... and I really know how you feel... it seems all I do lately I refer back to my loss, even if its cooking and I do it wrong, I am like " god, I cant even cook, yet alone carry a baby!!) So your not alone, and things will get better and YOU WILL have a baby!!! sometimes it takes time, but its worth the wait, (((((((( hugs ))))))))

Kary♥RN · #4 March 27th, 2009, 10:12 PM

OH, it is not sad... again it is just one of the silly things that set us off! I tell my DH to let me be.. when he thinks something is silly.. that I am upset about.. It is more than the just the "thing" It is a meaning behind it or a feeling it sets off....

MountainMomma · #5 March 27th, 2009, 10:22 PM

Last time we played was with BIL and SIL (the ones expecting twins right now). I had a full on anxiety attack because I didn't get any kids, and they each had a car full. It was pretty sad, but I wanted you to know you aren't alone.

stargatemommy · #6 March 27th, 2009, 10:27 PM

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Originally Posted by ~*MountainMomma*~

Last time we played was with BIL and SIL (the ones expecting twins right now). I had a full on anxiety attack because I didn't get any kids, and they each had a car full. It was pretty sad, but I wanted you to know you aren't alone.

Good to know I am not the only one!

~my2beauties~ · #7 March 28th, 2009, 12:07 AM

oh you are not pathetic at all. I haven't played that game in years, but I know I would be crying and freaking out if that happened to me too. I would look at it as a sign that I'm not supposed to have living kids or something

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Originally Posted by jackandmom

and I really know how you feel... it seems all I do lately I refer back to my loss, even if its cooking and I do it wrong, I am like " god, I cant even cook, yet alone carry a baby!!)

I totally do that too! Every time I do something stupid at work or something, I always resort to the whole "I'm such a failure, I can't even do this simple thing, let alone have a healthy baby." Phew, I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who thinks like that.

farasha · #8 March 28th, 2009, 03:48 AM

Ditto!!! I've had the SAME THOUGHTS! Everytime an experiment wouldn't work in the lab, I'd be so upset with myself thinking I can't do ANYTHING.... not even have a baby which seems like the most natural thing someone should be able to do. You should have seen me when I went bowling one more (I can't bowl) and just burst in tears and refused to continue the game because I got two gutters in a row and felt like such a life failure. Someone suggested playing the game of life after my mc and I refused b/c of that same reason!

Wow. It's amazing how common all these feelings are. You are not pathetic at all. See how normal it is!? Lots of hugs sweetie.

Kristin

stargatemommy · #9 March 28th, 2009, 07:19 AM

Thanks girls. I definitely feel less stupid now!

..Penelope.. · #10 March 28th, 2009, 09:23 AM

I agree with Kary that it's a meaning or feeling behind the perceived failure that causes the pain. When you look at it that way, it makes sense.

You are definately not alone, honey. *HUGS*

tobynscarlett · #11 March 28th, 2009, 09:25 AM

I think we all feel that way at times, it's hard not to think that way. Sometimes, I feel like I don't even deserve my other two kids because I wasn't good enough to carry Zachary. It is nerve wracking to say the least.

I think we should all make a pact- No more playing The Game of Life!!! Let's stick to Monopoly- at least then the worst that can happen is that we end up broke, homeless and in jail!!! LOL

..Jessica.. · #12 March 28th, 2009, 10:04 AM

Wow, all of us are all in the same book, let alone the same page!

I have the game 'Life' in my bedroom, up until my loss I played it constantly to see how many kids I'd get... I haven't pulled it down from the closet since my loss.

I'm GLAD I'm not the only one in this!!! I felt like an idiot!