[twoboys]

Hey ladies... I am just venting here.. As you know from previous posts, I recently M/C I was 15 weeks and it was a huge shock, as most of you know and understand... I am a full time mom to a wonderful 5 yr old, I run my own daycare business and I am back in school. This is my first semester (almost wrote trimester!!! lol) and of all times for things to go wrong.... well, I am just having a hard time.. I am taking an English 111 course online and its all I can do to stay focused on my school as well as be a mommi, and run my business.. I think I am just needing a little encouragemen, I wont give up, I am not a quitter but this course is kicking my *** after losing the baby, I am consumed by the loss, and with the added want to conceive agian, I just feel like I have a lot going on.. Lets not mention the insomnia I am dealing with... Anyhow, had no one else to talk to and just figured I would vent on here.. Thank you to all of you who have offered advice and support, this is a great group of people and I know we all have our own problems.. anyone else feel like venting.. just vent away!!!! you are all awesome, thank you again!!!

[farasha]

Aw hun! I know, it's very tough! And I'm sure being so busy doesn't make it easier. But look at how much you've accomplished!!! You should be very proud. You'll get through this and we'll help!

I felt the same way when I had my loss. A lot of bad things were all happening at once. It was horrible. But I can honestly say, even though I would give anything to have my baby back, I actually had my first good month this March and things are getting back on track. It takes time. And this board helped me a lot!!

Lots of hugs!!! Glad you're here.

Kristin

[tobynscarlett]

It's going to continue to be hard for a while, all you can do is face every morning and say ' I am going to focus on breathing today, if I accomplish anything other than that I will consider today a success' and just start taking one breath at a time. It does get easier to get through the days, but you may need to cut yourself some slack for a little while. Just get by on the minimum you can in your class and pick it up after you have gotten some rest.

I have had the insomnia issue and it just make things that much harder. Talk to your Dr and let them know. A little bit of Ambien (sleep aid) can go a LOOONG way at this point. Trust me on this- I have been there.

P.S. I know you are kind of new here and you may not know, but I lost Zachary at 17 weeks in December, with no warning. So I was very close to your situation.

[..Penelope..]

Originally Posted by farasha

Aw hun! I know, it's very tough! And I'm sure being so busy doesn't make it easier. But look at how much you've accomplished!!! You should be very proud. You'll get through this and we'll help!

*HUGS* honey.

[..Jessica..]

You do have a lot on your plate, but you know what... you're a strong mother and business-woman!!! You'll do it, you'll handle it, and you'll accomplish it all!!!

We're here for you girl!!!

[Trish36]

It takes a strong person to get up each day and deal with all that you have on your plate. You are doing great! Things will get better, you just have to take it one day at a time. HUGS!!!! Sometimes life just isn't fair....it gives you something and then takes it away, and you have to keep on going. HUGS!!!!
When I m/c'd it was like the rug was pulled from under my feet. For a few days I didn't know what to do with myself. I so wanted this baby, the timing was perfect. I wanted the baby to be close in age to Isabelle (She'll be 2 on Sept. 20 my dd was Sept. 14), I would be off of work just as the kids start school, so I wouldn't have to worry about daycare. My SIL is going back to work in Aug. and I was going to watch her twins and make some extra money while I was off and she wouldn't have to worry about daycare. I was going to quit my job after my mat leave and stay home. Plus DH is turning 40 this year and it was going to be the best bday present ever. it just sucks on so many different levels. But life goes on and I always say that there is a reason for everything. Sorry I just took over your vent. It feels good to get it out.

[twoboys]

Thank you for all your support... its good to hear others vent too!!! You are all a great group and I thank you all for all your advice!! (((((((( hugs)))))))

Originally Posted by tobynscarlett

It's going to continue to be hard for a while, all you can do is face every morning and say ' I am going to focus on breathing today, if I accomplish anything other than that I will consider today a success' and just start taking one breath at a time. It does get easier to get through the days, but you may need to cut yourself some slack for a little while. Just get by on the minimum you can in your class and pick it up after you have gotten some rest.

I have had the insomnia issue and it just make things that much harder. Talk to your Dr and let them know. A little bit of Ambien (sleep aid) can go a LOOONG way at this point. Trust me on this- I have been there.

P.S. I know you are kind of new here and you may not know, but I lost Zachary at 17 weeks in December, with no warning. So I was very close to your situation.

Yes, we are very close in our situations.. I do have the ambien, it does help a little, although I suffer from terrible nightmares too, it runs in my family.. my prayers are with you as I know exactly what you, and others are going through from day to day..