Ran into an old friend of mine yesturday

ThankingGOD4my2girls · #1 April 20th, 2009, 06:57 PM

I went to the grocery store yesturday to pick up a few things for my mother in law and myself and I ran into an old friend of mine. About a year ago she lost her 16 year old son in a tragic car accident. Not long after she lost her son she found out she was pregnant which I thought was just a Godsend for her because she only had the one son and she was grieving herslef so bad over his death I dont think she could have gotten through it if it hadnt been for her finding out she was pregnant. Well a couple of months into her pregnancy she found out she was having twins. Well 6 months ago she gave birth to a beautiful set of Twin Boys. I am just so happy for her I could cry. Well the first thing she did was show me a picture of her babies. I was just so happy to see a picture of the babies and I was so happy to see the smile on her face but at the same time it made me so sad because I should have been 5 months pregnant this month. I hate feeling this way. I dont want to feel this way. I am so very happy for her but why did I get so sad when I saw the pic of her boys. THey are adoreable to. They are just so cute. After seeing the picture I said my goodbyes to her and I just wanted to get out of there before I cried. Well when I got to the checkout line she ended up being in the checkout line beside of me and she was showing the cashier the picture of her babies and of course I saw the picture again. I am so bothered by the way I felt. Dont get me wrong I am very happy for her but I get so sad when I see pictures of babies or if I see babies or if I see pregnant women and I dont want to be that way. I held one of my friends babies saturday and while I was holding her I was so happy but after I gave her back to her grandmother and left I was so sad. Does this feeling ever go away? Am I the only one that feels this way? What can I do to make it better? Thanks for listening to me ladies.

KDD · #2 April 20th, 2009, 07:06 PM

yowzer · #3 April 20th, 2009, 07:18 PM

Crappy feeling isn't it...
When we were TTCing our first it took a very long time. I was quite disturbed at how sad I became when my Best friend got pregnant and then gave birth. I should have been over the moon happy but a part of me was bitter.

All I can offer is hugs.

MrsB1227 · #4 April 20th, 2009, 07:45 PM

Oh I wish I had advice on how to stop feeling this way, but all I can offer is a similar story. This weekend while seeing several college friends, one of them announced she is pregnant and due Nov 7th, four days after I should have been due. While I was over the moon excited for her, esp because she'd had a loss before this, I couldn't help but feel sad for myself and angry that I should have also been sharing the good news with them as well. All I can say is that I know it will be our turn someday and we just have to be hopeful and have faith that it will happen soon.

amandakay29 · #5 April 21st, 2009, 05:33 AM

I'm so sorry.

onthebrink · #6 April 21st, 2009, 05:49 AM

It is difficult, isn't it. After my daughter was stillborn it took me nearly a year before I could look at a baby without crying, especially one that was around the same age as my daughter would have been. After that year I would smile and wonder if my little one would have been the same size, doing the same things, etc. The pain was still there, I just experienced it differently and not so intense.

What you are feeling is completely normal, though I know that doesn't make it any easier right now.

Trish36 · #7 April 21st, 2009, 06:32 AM

HUGS!!!! Congrats to your friend on her twins! I know it is soooooo hard to deal with when you see someone else's baby. As happy as you are for other person, it's just not fair!