I am truly happy for all the pg ladies out there in the world but man alive when your friends IRL seem to be sprouting baby bellies all over it gets really hard to bear.

Several of my high school friends have announced on facebook that they're pg. I'm not super close to these ppl anymore but it's still hard to see their profile pics with all the ultrasound photos.

Then an ooooold friend from middle school who lives out in Cali friended me on facebook and I found out she is married and has a baby. I love her she was always one of my fav ppl on earth and I'm so happy she has a baby, but I was like, ok seriously?

And then on Saturday we have a friends bbq and she just emailed me and said they found out the gender of their baby and they're announcing it on Saturday.

I honestly dont' know if I can go on Sat. That is when AF is due so watch the witch show when I'm there.

And of course in our friend "group" they all joke about how they all got pg on the first try, seriously that's what I hear all the time. "Bought the baby making books and didn't need em, first try!"

And my cousin is pg with her second and is due in December. I'm surrounded.

After this month if I'm not pg, I think I'm taking a break. I am just beyond upset today. Can we say moody....

[Kary♥RN]

OH Erica HUGS!!!!!!! I am sorry we all have those months that we feel that way.. Last month was my month for that.. I don't know I guess this month I was disapointed.. but not crushed like I was last month.. I guess All the preggers were all alround when I got AF and this month I was kinda of alone.. No one really annouced BFP's, or at least they wern't in my face, kinda of thing.

All I can say is your still not out.. Tomorrow you might wake up a get that BFP and you will have that positive feeling to go to the picnic.. And be secretly doing backflips while she is annoucing the gender!!

[.:Shortcake:.]

Big huge hugs hun. I pray that you get your BFP this month. For me it seems like the months keep dragging on and then AF arrives again. All I want is for a baby. And then people who don't care for them keep getting pregnant! UGH!

[amandakay29]

Oh Erika. I'm soooo sorry. If you need anything at all I'm just a P.M. away.

[..Penelope..]

I'm sorry, Erika

[tobynscarlett]

That is difficult to deal with I still have a hard time when I see pregnant women and women with brand new babies (and I am pg now). I feel like I wasn't good enough to have my last one, so why are THEY holding their babies and I am not. I hope these hard feelings pass for you soon. You will get your BFP- don't give up!!

[starrsgirl]

Man, this sucks...I feel the same way...all the time. Right now, I'm down in Alabama while my husband is in training. Well my husband is in the "accompanied" flight which means everyone in his training class brought their wives and kids for the 5 week course. And EVERYONE has kids or is pregnant. All the kids are young (babies and toddlers) and like 50% of the wives are pregnant. I was really excited to come down and make some girlfriends but when I got here, I just felt like I was so out of it. They just talk about kids and being pregnant all the time and it's tough for me to participate in the conversations. Hang in there...your BFP will be so much more meaningful to you then the people that just "get it the first time" and go onto have a healthy pregnancy. You are working hard to get your BFP and your hard work will pay off...I just know it will.

[Trish36]

HUGS Erika - You will be one of those pregnant ladies and show off your beautiful belly in no time, just wait and see!!! Maybe the moodyness is part of your EPS and we'll get to see that BFP tomorrow!

[megal40]

Erika, I know but I don't. I know what you mean about being surrounded. I was in line at a store and the girl in front of me turned around and was huge- she had to be 9 months. It was one o those "whoa" moments. But I can't imagine what you are going through month after month. I am one of "those" people that you hate for being able to get pg right away. Unfortunately, I can't stay that way. I am terrified that I won't get pg this cycle because i don't know what that is like. My heart goes out to you. I hope that this is your month- good or bad, we are here. Try to keep your spirit up.

Megan

[~Angela~]

[missy123]

Hugs Erika, I understand how you feel. I hope you get your BFP soon, you seem like such a great person and I would like to see good things happen for you.