Hello, I just wanted to introduce myself here. I have been posting on a couple boards the last few weeks since they started TTC and I was so relieved to find this board. I have to admit that on the other boards I don't feel the excitement they other ladies are feeling.

We miscarried last July after we got pregnant on our honeymoon. I was 6.5 weeks when I started having problems, I was put on bed rest right away. We waited a full week until the doctors told me that there was no hope and they would let it happen naturally. I wish I would have just had a DNC. the whole process was emotionally draining.

Now that we have started to try again I feel a sense of panic. Ever time I take a test to see if I'm pregnant my mind goes a mile a minute in every direction.

How do you cope with TTCAL? does the joy return?

Aimz

[tobynscarlett]

Welcome to the board!!! I am so sorry about your loss. I know it was very hard for you to miscarry naturally and I want to let you know that you have found a great place for support. Several of the ladies here have experienced a situation similar to yours.

TTCAL can be an emotional rollercoaster, but it really helps to have others support you. There are going to be many ups and downs during your journey and you will have some difficult times. I think the one thing that we will all agree on is that once you are holding your baby you will know it was all worth while.

Please feel free to jump right in- we can't wait to get to know you better!!!

Heather
Co-Host

[jen805]

Aimz-- I'm so very sorry for your loss I also m/c'd naturally... alone on my toilet.. and it's such a heartbreaking, lonely time! You've found an amazing site and some amazing women that will help you along on your TTC journey. The panic is normal... and unfortunately, once that innocence is gone, that little scar will remain... however, there are many positive outcomes after a m/c... I had my 8 y/o DS after 3 m/c's, to have another m/c after him... you just never know... all you can do is pray and have faith! You're in my thoughts and prayers, and I look forward to sharing your journey with you!

[ilovefh]

I can't give you any advice since I am still naturally miscarrying but I wanted to wish you luck! This board is filled with wonderful and supportive women! They understand how you are feeling and are so helpful! Welcome!

[mlyster]

Welcome Aimz. It is never fun to welcome a new member to these boards, I hate knowing that so many people have to go through this - but the ladies here are wonderful.

I know what you mean about the anxiety testing can cause... coming from a POAS addict I will tell you that it gets easier. I also had a natural m/c that took 2 weeks (from the time of my first major bleeding to the final ultrasound telling me everything had passed). It was an emotional roller coaster - and I was a way from work for a week and a half. I can not tell you what it feels like to be pg after a miscarriage (hopefully I can soon) but I can tell you that the down in the dumps feeling does start to go away. It has taken me 2 months to get to a point where I am happy and energetic most days (there are still bad days but the are lessening).

Time and talking about it helped me. Ask anything you need. Someone will be able to answer them and we will all be here to support you.

Glad you found us!

[missy123]

Hi Amiz,

Welcome! You will find everyone here so supportive and it is filled with girls that understand what you are going through. TTC again after a loss is not as fun, exciting, and hopefull as it was before. But we are here for each other.

I am glad you found us!

Missy

[.:Shortcake:.]

Welcome hun. I hope your TTC journey is short. And like the other ladies said we are here for you and thats one of the things that makes this all bearable for me.

Thanks everyone for the kind words. I look forward to getting support here. I have been going at it alone for a lone time now. It's nice to see people understand.

[Trish36]

just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss and welcome to TTCAL.

[Kary♥RN]

Sorry for your loss, Welcome to the board. I can tell you I have the same feelings when I go to test. I also think we want it so bad, that when we do test.. thats when I minds race. The ladies are the best on this board.. AND know we understand what you are feeling! HUGS

[farasha]

Hi hun. I'm so sorry to have you here, but you are very very welcome on this board as you ttc again. We have all been in your place, and we know how you feel. We help each other out here, and we're excited for each other - it helps to have the support of other women who know how you're feeling about getting pregnant again. I won't say it's ever easy, but it does get better and I'm not sure how I would do it without girls like this. Please jump in and join us!!! I look forward to getting to know you!

[..Jessica..]

Welcome to the board, Aimz!

I'm very sorry for your loss!!!

The joy does return, I promise!!!

[MrsB1227]

Welcome. I don't really know if the joy returns but I sure hope so! This process has taught me that we really have no control over what happens, all you can do is have faith and hopeful that everything will work out.

[Boble]

hi and welcome.. sorry you have had events that have brought you here. I always love meeting a new person but hate that it comes with such sadness for them.

someone once told me to take every pregnancy as its own and that has helped me. i had a m.c in July 08 and then another in Jan 09 and i had so so much hope that everything would work out last time and i really took it as its own pregnancy. and that is the best advice i can give anyone. the joy will come back and each time you see a neg hpt you will be so disappointed and wish that it was positive (although i hope you don't see many bfn) and when you get a bfp.. a lot of people feel panic and concern.. but at the end of the day you will just be sooo happy to get that positive!

i hope you get a bfp soon and i hope your next bean is a sticky one! Hugs

[AngelBabies]

Aimz...... welcome hun.... welcome

[~Lynda~]

hi there and welcome!!! i'm sorry you're here due to loss!!!! i have had two recent losses and i know the anxiety and fear you speak of!!! i'm sure the joy returns for some ladies, but for me, i will live in anxiety till i'm lucky enough to hold a healthy baby in my arms. i think everyone feels differently. I hope you are one of the ladies that will find the joy that should be associated with having a baby!!! best of luck to you!!

I feel blessed to have everyone welcome me. Thank you it was very much needed.