[Momeejenjen]

A girl I know, who found out she was pregnant just 2 weeks after me just had her baby yesterday.... I am happy for her, at the same time, I am miserable.

She's an okay person, she's not the best mother, she does okay... they live on government assistance. She lives in a habitat home and she has had CPS called on her multiple times because her house is always so messy and nasty... she's been told by the state to "clean it up" or they will take further action. She told me once she refused to take vitamins during her pregnancy bc they she doesnt like the way they taste.

Dh and I have a beautiful home that is well kept in a wonderful neighborhood.. I've NEVER had the state called on me..I don't drink, I don't smoke, I eat pretty much all healthy, I take my vitamins every day! We make well over the average family's income, our cars are paid off, we just have our mortage payment. My kids are thriving beautifully and I pride myself as a wonderful mother, my daughters teacher told me this past school year that she wishes half the parents were as knowledgable and caring as myself, DH and his family are AMAZING, we have everything in place for a beautiful baby to join our family, we have everything to offer and then some... DH is the most amazing father in the world to my children and they aren't even biologically his... he is probably one of the best fathers I've ever come across and after teaching preschool for 8 years, I've seen a lot of dads.

Yesterday I called DH and said "S**** had her baby" he just said "I don't understand how people like that can have a healthy baby but we can't even seem to get pregnant and when we do it gets taken away"...

I feel so jipped, my heart aches for the baby I didn't have and the baby I am trying to concieve, I want to make my husband a father... my neighbor is about 5 months pregnant and she did NOT want that pregnancy... she drinks and smokes still and has two children already... her son runs WILD.. I caught him in the neighborhood pool the other day with out ANYone around, he's 6!! I had to pull him out and take him home... she proceeds to tell me 'I just can't keep up with him"... TRY HARDER HE'S YOUR CHILD!

The other day at my daughters baseball game one of the woman was complaining b/c she has been taking care of her "friends" baby for the past month b/c the mom moved into some trailer park with some guy and now she can't get ahold of the babies mother... the baby is 10 months old... how can some one abandon their baby like that?!?!?!?! I so wanted to take that precious baby home with me... the guy that was with the woman complaining made the comment "Yeah might as well just throw this baby in the trash, that's what it's Mama did to it!"

My husband and I were disgusted at that comment! They have 6 kids between the two of them, only one that actually lives with them b/c all the others are either in state custody or living with family and here they have this beautiful little 10 month old who's mom abandoned it... they don't have jobs and live completely off the government and sorry if this offends anyone, but it makes me so mad that my hard earned tax dollars go to pay for them to be able to sit on their butts and not work while popping out kids left and right... they are 28 and 32...they are fully able to work... just choose not to. Instead I get my hard earned money taken away from me and am suffering from infertility...

Sorry I need to stop venting... I try so hard to be positive.. but the more months that pass by, the more medical issues that arrise, I just want to scream "THIS ISN'T FAIR!"

[.:Shortcake:.]

Huge hugs hun. No it is not fair that people who do not deserve to be pg are. I pray you get a BFP soon.

[..Penelope..]

Stories like that make me want to scream. I actually had to stop reading the newspaper on my break at work a few days ago because there were two stories on one page about baby neglect, and I almost started crying in front of my coworkers.

Having it happen so close to home must make it so much more difficult. I'm right there with you.

Stay strong, honey. You have a precious angel watching over you, and there's a baby out there who can't wait to call you mommy. I hope it happens soon.

[..Jessica..]

I'm so sorry Jen!!!!

[Kary♥RN]

Jen I am so sorry.... HUGS... That story makes me sick. Why is it that we all sit here with the world to give to a baby... and yet it has yet to come to us? HUGS Sorry you have to feel this way.

[photogmama]

Your story makes me sad and so angry. At the risk of sounding like a bratty child "it just isn't fair". The poor little 10 month old, I just don't know how you could do that do a child. Sending BFP vibes your way!

[amandakay29]

I'm so sorry Jen. Wyatt is almost 9 months old, somebody would have to pry him from my dead cold arms before they would be able to take him. I can't imagine a mom not taking care of their baby. I would die for my little guy. I do have to agree it isn't fair. I think people that don't want children or can't take care of their children should be forced to give up the ones they have to deserving loving parents and be forced to get sterilized. Sorry if that sounds harsh!

[Trish36]

Hugs!!!!

[klt]

I get upset with people who take parenting for granted, and abuse the miracles that they have been given! But, what you need to know is that you will be a mom and you will be a fantastic mom! I'm sorry you're having to face all of this during a difficult time. Hopefully things will get better really soon! thinking of you

[Boble]

oh wow that would be hard to deal with,... having people like that in your face when all you want is to have another bub. *hugs*

[taralyn]

Sometimes it really doesn't seem like things are fair...