[charlierays]

my SIL goes in for her 20 week sono today and will find out what she's having. I hope its a boy because she really wants a girl!!! I'm so bitter!

I don't mean to sound like a horrible person...i'm really not...but i should be going in for my 20 week sono next week but i had to lose my baby and that makes me very mad.

<sigh>...happier days are coming...i know they are...

[farasha]

I know how you feel. Hugs hun. I hope those happier days are here sooner than you think!

[Kary♥RN]

OH I SOOOOO KNOW YOUR PAIN!!!!!! I am in the same boat as you.... My SIL is two -three weeks ahead of were I should be.... It hurts so bad to think were I should be. And no one seems to understand the hurt/feelings that are going on.... I feel that I am a good person.. Better than her. I don't lie, steal, or cheat....... (her, her, and her) But yet I loose my baby? I can understand your bitterness. You are not a bad peson, you are person hurting, not understanding why it was your baby that had to die, why you sit here with an empty stomach. Why you will not be finding out what you are having with your "BIG" u/s. It is not fair. Why? I HATE THAT WORD>>> WHY...

[~~~Sara~~~]

Oh I"m so sorry sweetie, I am strangely tolerant of pregnant people, but yes I get irate at the ones that want a certain gender and won't shut up about it. I mean they just don't *get* how lucky they are to be carrying a healthy baby to term, UGH!

Yes, I'd be 20 weeks next week too, I just realized that earlier today and it made me

[charlierays]

Thanks for the validation. My SIL and I are so different too...the situation that this baby is being brought into is, well, lets just say far from ideal. Here I am with my heart and arms wide open and with a loving and secure home...and i am suffering. I keep saying that God got this one wrong...and I know that is a terrible thing to say/think and I don't like myself for that...but it is what i feel.

These feelings are so hard to sort out...

[~~~Sara~~~]

Oh I'm so sorry sweetie, I am strangely tolerant of pregnant people, but yes I get irate at the ones that want a certain gender and won't shut up about it. I mean they just don't *get* how lucky they are to be carrying a healthy baby to term, UGH!

Yes, I'd be 20 weeks next week too, I just realized that earlier today and it made me

[Trish36]

I'm sorry hun!!!

[hannah79]

Our baby was very prematurely and lived for only 13 hours. The hardest part was that my sister-in-law was pregnant at the same time. Her baby was born one day before I was due. It took me several weeks to even be able to look at pictures of my niece. I finally forced myself to go and see the baby. She is amazingly precious. I thought it would be so much more difficult than it actually was. As awful as you feel, please know that it does get better.

[.:Shortcake:.]

Huge hugs hun... I'm fastly approaching my EDD and its wearing on me more and more. There are so many people around me that were due at the same time and already have their little ones. I pray there are happier times ahead for both of us.