[EmilyRenee]

Hi ladies. My name is Emily. This is the first board I joined when I first came to JM. I found it searching online for m/c support. I had a m/c in August of 07 after 4 months of ttc. Then three months later I was pregnant again and had our beautiful daughter lacey almost one year ago.

We became pregnant after only two months of trying this time but I lost the baby very early. At about 5 weeks. I almost knew it was coming and im sorry if that sounds very pessimistic but the lines were so faint on the tests I took and then I got a neg. two days later on two FRER. I had hcg drawn this past week to confirm.

I hesitated at coming back to this board as we apparently conceive pretty quickly and I don't want to just come and go but as you all know miscarraige is not something you understand or can sympathise (sp) unless you have been through it.

I have been going through all of the phases of grief. The anger, jealousy, and numbness. Some days I feel ok or rather fake it and some days I just want to lay in bed all day, like yesterday.

Anyway sorry this turned out to be so long. Thanks for listening.

[farasha]

I'm sorry to have to welcome you back. Hugs hun... of course we understand your feelings. I look forward to getting to know you though, and celebrating your next BFP and healthy birth! Good luck to you!

[szczepanski]

Aww Emily don't worry about being here such a short time...sometimes it isn't easy to leave.

I am so sorry for your losses. I got PG after my first cycle of trying - but I still am here. If it weren't for these girls, I would not have had the strength or courage to even try again so soon. These girls are all so amazing and can help you through anything. I'm here to cheer them all onto their BFP's!!!

[Trish36]

Hi Emily. I'm sorry that you had to go through another loss. Hope that you find the support you need here. HUGS!!! good luck ttc again.

[.:Shortcake:.]

So sorry to have to welcome you back. I hope your TTC journey is short and ends in a BFP!

[momof6lopez]

Sorry to welcome you back, but I cant wait to send you off again with your BFP and healthy pregnancy!

[photogmama]

I am sorry have to join us! There is no need to apologize for coming here for support! I hope your TTCAL journey is a short one!

[Augie]

Emily, welcome back. As someone who has had multiple losses as well, I'd like to invite you over to the Recurrent Miscarriage and Pregnancy Loss board.

[MrsB1227]

I'm so sorry for your loss

[KDD]

Welcome Emily. I'm sorry that you have to join us again.

[pmwjones]

I am sorry you are feeling like you aren't sure if you should be here. Of course you are ALWAYS welcome here. I am new but I know that these ladies are all so kind and we are here for each other, no matter what. Never feel bad for your situation. Because I guarantee someone else has gone through the exact same thing.

GL on getting a healthy BFP SOON!!