[Danielle.W]

I knew in my spirit my pregnancy was over on July 3rd, the 5th I started spotting. On the 6th I had a u/s and there was no baby in my uterus but a growth in my ovary so I have to have an u/s tomorrow to check if its the baby.

I think it's all starting to set in. I haven't cried until today. Mostly I am concerned that it is tubal, that I'll have to kill my perfectly healthy baby that just implanted in the wrong spot. I'm scared I won't be able to get pregnant again, scared to get pregnant again, scared that this will happen everytime because of my short luteal phase.

I keep thinking things like "I want to eat that b/c I'm pregnant" Or "I should buy that for the baby" but then i remember that I'm no longer pregnant We were trying for so long, nine months. And now it's just over. And I have to start all over. And it could take nine more months. And then my children will be too far apart and hate eachother I could accept it if there was something wrong with my baby. But its looking more and more like theres something wrong with ME. what if it can't be fixed? When will this bleeding stop? It doesn't help that yesterday I bled out something that looks like a sac and is hardish and when googled says its the baby. Except that there was no baby in my uterus.

Thanks for listening. I just needed someone to talk to. I know I'm being irrational. But knowing that doesn't stop the feelings.

[Kary♥RN]

Dainelle... HUGS.. I am so sorry you have to go through this. I understand you fears, I also think what if thier is something wring with me? I had plans when I was going to get pregnant.. I was supposed to have a baby by now... not two losses. As for your children hating eachother.... They wont! Thier was 7 years between me and my brother... Did I like him all the time? No.. But we are thicker than theives now...

[sallyk61]

Its horrible but normal. the bottom line is its not fair and should tof happen but it did. If you are that worried about their being something actually wrong with you maybe you can get that checked or atleast air those concerns with your Dr?
I keep thinking 'if this just happnes, if I just see this i'll be ok' but it doesnt work like that. Its a long slow process and I hope you are ok.
I couldnt of done it by myself and if you need someone to talk to dont be affraid to seek the help you need. im still seeing someone even being pregnant, the fear doesnt stop.
Good Luck
xxoo

[.:Shortcake:.]

I'm so sorry for your loss and that your having to go through this. I agree with Sally. I would talk to your doctor and express your concerns. Push them to do testing if that is what you want and don't take no for an answer. If they say no then go to another one until you get some answers.

[Del4]

From what I know, your m/w is very good. When you go for the u/s tomorrow, talk to her, explain what happened and tell her about your other losses. Maybe she'll be willing to send you for testing, if for nothing more than your peace of mind.

I'm so sorry you're going through this, Danielle. You know I'm here if you need anything. And Valley is not going to hate her little sister or brother. She will be such a good big sister!!!! My sister and I are almost 5 years apart and while we fought during childhood, we always had eachother's backs. And now, we're pretty good friends. Chin up, sweetie. I'm praying for you.

[Trish36]

Just wanted to send you some HUGS!!!

[momof6lopez]

just wanted to say your not alone. I can relate to everything you typed, and wanted to say that time will make this a little easier. Hugs to you.

[~Lynda~]

it's overwhelming sometimes...

[Loving6]

I'm so sorry(((hugs)))

[photogmama]

Danielle...you aren't being irrational! I think what you are feeling and worrying about is completely normal! Talk to your doctor/midwife when you go back in, express your fears, maybe they can offer some reassurance! I am sorry for your loss!