[AJnBrady]

Hi ladies, my name is Torri and I'm brand spankin' new to JustMommies. My story in a nutshell is that my first son, AJ was born on 9/11/03. On his 4th birthday, we decided it would be a good time to start TTC #2. In April of 08 we got our BFP. Everything was going along normally, until our big u/s when we found out our second son, Brady, had Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. We wrestled with our decision for a week, but after talking with the Maternal Fetal Medicine Specialist and the Pediatric Cardiologist who told us that his defect was too severe to support life and that his death would be painful we made the hardest decision of our lives to let him pass peacefully in my stomach using a procedure in which the amniotic fluid was removed and replaced with saline. The electrolyte imbalance stopped his heart immediately, quickly, and painlessly...though it didn't make it any easier for us. I was then moved from outpatient surgery to a private room to deliver his tiny body. Labor was slow, and painful. We finally delivered him at 8:00 a.m. on August 14, 2008, after nearly 50 hours of labor. We spent 2 hours holding him, kissing him, and telling him how very much we loved and would miss him. After he was taken away, I was given another 2 hours to deliver the placenta on my own. When that didn't happen, I had to have surgery. It was supposed to take half an hour, but they encountered "problems" and I was under for nearly 4 hours. They released me later that day to live my life as a whole new person--a mother of an angel.

We have been trying since my first AF after losing Brady, which was October. We are on cycle 10, I'm 10dpo, and not betting the farm on this cycle.

Thank you for letting me introduce myself. I wish you all the best of luck, and am truly sorry for each and every one of your losses.

[farasha]

Torri -
My name is Kristin. I'm so very sorry to welcome you here. Big warm hugs to you, hun. Thanks for telling your story. I am so very sorry for the loss of your second son. I can't imagine having to make that decision. I actually have a friend who is in a similar situation right now. I am very very sorry. I know you will be able to find some extra support on this board. I truly hope your ttc journey ends with a BFP very soon! But in the meantime, please join in with us. I look forward to getting to know you.

[JessP]

I am so sorry for your loss. I am Jessi. I hope you get a bfp very soon. The ladies here are great and also over in the pregnancy loss board. I believe there is a stillborn loss forum as well. There is so much support here at JM it is wonderful. Lots of hugs and baby dust for you.

[aaclzamora]

I am so sorry for your loss, Torri. *BIG HUGS* This is a great bunch of ladies to talk to.

[KDD]

Welcome Torri. I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope that you too will find a lot of support in our forum.

[MrsB1227]

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I'm Mrs. B and I had my loss at 6 weeks of pregnancy back in March, that would have been my first child. I've been trying to conceive since. You will find much support here and I hope your bfp comes very very soon and you are blessed with a healthy baby in the end!

[AJnBrady]

Thank you ladies. I look forward to getting to know you all, it seems like a wonderful place to get some support on this wonderfully stressful journey.

[Magicaledelishus]

Im sorry to hear that.. *hugs* Sad to have to welcome you, but hello.

[Kary♥RN]

Tori, I am so sorry for your loss.. I hate welcoming new people to our elite group.. since we all know the requirements to get in... HUGS.. I'm Kary.. We have just hit our year mark this month.. along with what would have been my first EDD this month (my first loss was in Nov). My second loss came the end of Jan at 7 1/2 weeks. I hope your stay here is a short one and you get your BFP quickly!

[Boble]

hi there and welcome to our humble little group. Im so sorry to hear your story of loss Torri. I hope that your bfp is just around the corner. *hugs*

[~InHisHands~]

Wow, I couldn't even imagine! I'm so sorry!

[Mel1979]

I am so sorry for your loss and the heartbreaking decison you had to make. I can't even imagine, my heart goes out to you and I wish you the best on your TTC journey

[starrsgirl]

I'm very sorry to hear of your loss. I'm glad to hear that you guys are TTC again...it's such a hard place to get back to after you experience loss. Welcome to the board...this board has kept me sane on all the days I thought I would lose my mind. This is a great group of girls!
Liz

[Trish36]

Oh Tori..I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. That was a really tough decision you had to make. HUGS!!!! I hope that you can get some extra support from us here and I wish you good luck ttc again and lots of baby dust. May you be surprised by a BFP soon!!!!!

[BigGrin]

It iterally took my breath away to read your post. The agony and hertbreak is more than I can imagine. I am so sorry you had to go through that, and I am so sorry your son could not stay on this earth longer. My hope is that you will be holding your next child in your arms by this time next year. Sending you tons of cyber hugs and baby dust.

[charm]

Hello Torri I am Charmaine I am very sorry for your loss I have tears after reading your story I really hope you get your bfp very very soon!!!

[.:Shortcake:.]

Welcome hun! I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope your get your BFP soon.

[krystal g]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm new here too - just lost my first at almost 12 weeks - and I can't imagine the heartbreak you have suffered. You are in my thoughts and wishing you the best of luck with TTC.

[megal40]

Welcome. You have found a very supportive place in JM. Thank you for sharing your story. You have been through something only a small group of women can understand. Hope your stay here is short and you get your BFP soon. (However, as you can tell even us who are pg seem to stick around!) Good luck!

[ldovey83]

Wow I can't even imagine.... Welcome to the group.. WE are all here for you to talk to and listen.... I am sorry you had to go through that.. Best of luck to you..