[missy123]

I think I am having a chemical pregnancy Got 2 BFP's, felt pregnant then this morning I woke up and felt so different. My bb's aren't as sore, and I am not feeling the ms like I was. Tested bfn. AF was due yesterday and there is no sign of her. I dont doubt for a second that I am/was pregnant.

It was so easy to have my 3 boys, it was nothing like what I have gone through the past year. Maybe my age is getting the best of me and I should just give up trying. The heartache is so unbearable (as you all understand) but with 2 possibly 3 losses in a year it is like when do I stop putting myself through this.... I wanted to have 1 or 2 more and my bf doesnt have any children but when is enough enough? I wish I was 25 again.

Darn it, you just fall in love when you see those 2 lines. Thanks for listening.

[mlyster]

Were all three tests with the same brand of test? I am sorry you are going through this. It sucks. Please don't give up. 3 in one year is rough but have you gotten any idea from doctors why they are happening? It could just be a cruel coincidence. You have 3 healthy, happy children so your body knows what to do... perhaps it has just needed a reminder.

HUGS!! KUP.

[.:Shortcake:.]

Super hugs hun. Have you called the doctor for BT? I am so sorry your going through this again.

[raeleyfan]

My thoughts and prayers are with you...so many losses in such a short time is sure to make you want to give...but don't. We are here for you, and understand what you are going through...I'd call the dr. see if they maybe run some tests? KUP please.

[sportsmom2]

Praying for you... I know it's a nightmare and all of our worst fears. Hopefully it's not chemical, but a false negative on the test. Don't give up hope yet.

[farasha]

I'm sorry hun. I totally understand what you mean. I want to give up most days too. But we can't do that. I truly hope you'll get another BFP with a different test. Regardless, we're all here for you. You can do this. Have you been able to talk to a Dr. yet about all this?

[missy123]

I have not called a doctor, not much they can do for me anyway. I am just reading your posts and trying to gain strength through JM. All the tests were the same FRER's. This just (insert multiple curse words) sucks...

[Sue46]

I am so sorry Missy. I have just been lurking and not posting but I'm thinking about you. I have felt the exact same way as you. Don't give up.

[~InHisHands~]

[momof6lopez]

Missy, I dont have a strong signal where Im at, but please email me. You are so early, just under 4wks still. Hpt tests at this point are a hit and miss. If you had two BFP's already, then there is still some hope. Just wait until tonight and re-test. Sometimes evening urine is better. No bleeding is a good sign. Im here for you, no matter the out come. We will get through this sweetie.

[AliciaF]

I had 4 losses in 7 months time. I had a loss at 20 weeks on July 10th, 2008 and then had 3 chemical pregnancies between September and February. It really, really sucks.

I would urge you to see a doctor though, it could be something they can help with.

After my 2nd chemical I was tested and diagnosed with 2 blood clotting disorders that require daily injections of blood thinners. Once I started the medication at 3dpo I got pregnant and stayed pregnant! I am now 23w1d and have had no complications whatsoever.

[AngelBabies]

Hun I can so understand the age thing and wanting to be able to give your partner a child. I m in the same boat hun and that clock just ticks louder and louder with each arrival of AF. I look at my own grown boys and think.... maybe I m just asking for to much... maybe its time I waited for Grandchildren, but then I look at my husband and just wish so much that I was able to be part of him knowing what it is like to have a child. A couple of times I have given up....... it all got the better of me....... but at the end of the day all we have is HOPE hun, and it doesnt matter how old you are...... you are still entitled to hope and you can still have hope.

[ldovey83]

Aww hun I am so sorry you are going through this, but you are still really early... I would just wait it out.. Maybe have your blood work done to see if the numbers are rising.. I will be praying for you.. Hang in there..

[missy123]

wow, you are all making me cry right now. You are such amazing women and even after all this time on JM I am still amazed at your strength and encouragement.

I love you all so much and so lucky to have you here for me.

Lori - I will send you updates via email. I hope you are at the country house getting some R&R

no bleeding so there is still hope for me. I am trying to stay focused with work today and reading all of your stories are so helpful. Thanks again everyone.

[mrsissa]

You're in my prayers too. You're strong and you'll get through this. Hope you get some good news soon.

[Kary♥RN]

I am so sorry that you have to go through this.. HUGS, I wish you didn't have to go through this. When you said you wish you were 25 again... I can so relate.. I am 34.. with two losses. Will I ever be able to have another child? I was 14 when I got pregnant, 15 when I had my son.. he will be 19 in Nov.. No Pregnancies inbetween him and my first loss... I guess I waited to long.

[MrsB1227]

I am so incredibly sorry for what you're going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[JessP]

Oh I hope the stupid test was just faulty and things are ok. Lots of hugs and support. If it is what you want don't give up. We are all here to support you and push you along .

[mum74]

[starrsgirl]

Big Hugs! I'm sorry to hear this...whatever it is...is stressing you out. We completely understand how much it hurts, no matter how early you are. Hang in there...we'll get you through this.