[missy123]

From a post I made in the loss board:

I thought I was holding up darn good for the past week since the chemical pregnancy. Boy I got hit hard tonight... I guess it should be easier for me as this is #3 in 9 months and old news and it was a chemical, I only knew for 2 days... I felt ok for the past week and tonight is making up for it. I am feeling sad, anger, jealousy, wretching loss and pain...

I think I am done trying. I want a baby with my BF, I want to make him a dad but not sure I can go through this again. It just hurts too much. I have spent more of the past year in emotional pain than not.

To all of you:

Ladies, you are all so wonderful and I honestly hope you all get pregnant super fast and have the easiest pregnancies and labors ever! I am so happy for the BFP's in the past week and hope the trend continues. I hope if I decide to TTC again that I don't know anyone here and have to start all over again and make new friends because you are all in DDC and PAL. I have no jealousy for any of you as you have truly understood me and been here for me.

Many hugs to all, I will miss you terribly but need time to heal.

[Celena]

Hi Missy...

I know I haven't gotten to know you yet as I just started here a little more than a day ago... I'm so sorry you feel this way, but perhaps it's just the thing you might need sometimes things happen when you least expect it and aren't looking for it to. Take time for you, you do you!!! It's beautiful that you can recognize when you've had enough and just want to relax.

Take care Missy and hope you pop in from time to time

[Boble]

I'm so sorry you are going through all of this. I hope the pain eases for you soon. *hugs*

[sportsmom2]

Missy-

I have only known you a very short time, but I can truly say you are a great person and I wish you didn't have to go through such a loss as this for the 3rd time. I know that we will never know why... but trust in God to help you find peace as you heal from all of your pain. It isn't fair and I know it isn't easy... I will remember you in my thoughts and prayers.

Thanks for being a friend to me and giving me kind words in my journey as well...

[AngelBabies]

Missy...... completly understand hun.... I have taken a break on a few occasions..... I stop... get my head together.... try and work out what I want to do and whether to just 'accept it' all those sorts of things..... I always tend to end up here again.... but it is time that we need to sort ourselves out. I often find myself thinking...maybe its time to just wait for grandkids.... then i shiver... and think.. wow... that would mean I m old....LOL

Take all the time you need hun but dont forget to stop in and say hello whenever your up to it.

[momof6lopez]

Missy, Im going to send you an email sweet heart, but I too understand this. The pp, said what I fear most. Maybe its time for me to stop trying and wait to be a grandma too. You know Im only 38, but my oldest is 17, and maybe in the next 10yrs, I will have a new journey, a journey ment more than this one.

I wish things were so very different for you. You have given me strength when no one else could, you have understood when even I did not. I pray that over the next few months, your mind and body get the so deserved break it needs to start to try again. I pray this for me too.

[mum74]

[.:Shortcake:.]

Hugs hun. Sometimes the best thing for us to do is take a break step away from all the TTC madness and just find ourselves and figure out if the risks of another loss out weight our want for a child. And for me I come to the same choice every time. I'm going to be a mother some way some how. And I will search high and low to find a doctor who is willing to help me. Please take all the time you need to heal. Drop in if you want to and say high and know that we are here for you no matter what. Even if your not going to try for awhile or ever again your a good friend and a wonderful person!

[Oreobaby]

I am so sorry that you have had to go threw three losses in such a short time. I am sure that this is all of our's worry when it come to TTC again! I am definately going to keep you in my thoughts and prayers, and I pray that you will continue to stay in touch, when you feel better. I'm just curious...is there anything that your dr. can do. I have just had my first loss, so I'm not sure if there is anything that a dr. can do to help, it was just a thought. I am sorry that I didn't get the chance to know you better, but I have to thank you for your kind words when I was first going through my loss.

[ldovey83]

Missy hun I am so sorry that you had to go through this all over again.. I couldn't even begin to imagine going through it as many times as you have.. I do appreciate your kind words you said to me and I see that I share in your pain as well as the other women here..... I hate to see you go but I do know you have to do what is better for you emotionally and physically.. Could you keep in touch with my by PM? I would love to keep in touch with you or by email.. Keep us posted on how you are doing hun.. HUGs and I will keep you in my prayers... Remember God is in control and He never gives us to much that we can't handle.. Just give it all to HIM...

[..Penelope..]

Oh, Missy. I'm crying for you. Please don't think that this loss should be easier for you because it was # whatever, or because it was different then the others. You still lost all of your hopes and dreams that began the moment you got that positive pregnancy test.

Please give yourself time to feel whatever you need to feel. We are here for you, and we always will be. You don't have to be sorry for taking a break. We understand. We love you, and we wouldn't want you to stay here if it caused you more pain.

Thank you so much for being here for me. It has meant more then you will ever know.

Please PM me your email address if you want to keep in touch! I really enjoyed chatting with you.

I'll be thinking of you, honey. Huge *HUGS*

[JessP]

Oh missy I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. I wish so much you weren't. I totally understand needing a break and I know I will still be around JM if you wanna chat . I am a chatty kinda gal LOL. Take care of yourself and lots of hugs coming your way.

[Kary♥RN]

Missy, HUGS... I am so sorry you have to go through this... No one should ever have to go through one loss let alone more... I hope you heal soon, we will be here for you when the time is right. HUGS.... Please let us know how you are doing.. HUGS