[Celena]

Ok I had posted something else here, but recieved a call from the Dr.

Monday bloodwork to check beta's again and he talked about methotextrate...

He thinks there's something wrong and this is an abnormal pg'y, that I've been pg this whole time. (then why would I O?)Anyways, he isn't 100% tho, but we're going to do the bloodwork and go from there.

So I'm not hanging onto a thread of hope that everything is ok at this point... I don't want to kill a life inside me if the alternate possibility is going on, but we'll know more monday.



Still no spotting, I had a little creamy brown discharge... and all these stupid pregnancy symptoms keep getting stronger ugh!

[Kary♥RN]

Oh Celena what an emotional roller coaster for you. The not know is so hard. I know monday can not come quick enough... if only for answers. We are here for you to talk.. to post... to scream.. to cry.... what ever you may need. HUGS to you. Know that I am thinking about you, and nothing I can say can make what you are feeling better. Hope is all any of have. PM me if every want to talk... HUGS HUGS

[JessP]

I am so sorry you are having to go through all of this. Lots of hugs and support hun. Vent all you need to.

[Loving6]

I'm sorry your in limbo.I hope that you can finds answers.

The waiting game just sucks. I'm thinking about you lots. Keep us updated and we are here anytime.

[MrsB1227]

So sorry that you have to endure all of this, hoping for a miracle for you.

[momof6lopez]

Celena, Im so sorry your up and down so many times in the matter of 2 days. But I had a feeling it was the same pregnancy causing you all these problems. Alot of women get the symptoms of O'ing and just dont, even in the best of circumstances. Your body is very confused right now due to the pregnancy hormone still fluctuating. Its horrible when our bodys dont want to let go of our lo's even after they have left us. I pray this all gets cleared up for you and your able to move on and get your little baby growing inside you again real soon. Lots of prayers for you tonight.

[Mel1979]

[Celena]

Thanks ladies... I just wish to finish this day and quickly get thru tomorrow so that monday comes with the finallity to the whole situation.

I did *ok* at work after I had to update people that didn't know what has been going on... I don't like being asked how I'm doing and then the comment about "oh is it the pregnancy making you feel.... such n such or whatever.." Yes I'm pg still or again or something, I can't tell you because I DON'T EVEN KNOW.

I want nothing more than the best out of this situation whatever that may be... I just hope my doc thoroughly checks me out before just jumping to a conclusion. I don't want to take a chemotherapy drug, it's scarey to think of! I want to trust the professional, but I also trust that he would investigate it more and he hadn't to begin with...(maybe I'm expecting too much?) altho' my body seemed to take care of things as much blood, clots and fleshy stuff I lost. It seemed to be going as good as it could be according to him. Geeze!

My fibro is flarring really bad right now, my back, neck and right hip is SCREAMING in pain and I'm not really taking my meds the way I should... I just don't want to exacerbate any problems, but I guess it's a problem if I'm not taking care of myself huh?

Thanks for EVERYTHING.... You ALL have been so awesome and wonderful to me in such a short time and I thank you again and again. Thankful to be welcomed and supported to kindly

[JessP]

I hope Monday comes fast for you. Sounds like work is stressful too. I would push the doctor to make all the checks that will make you feel better about the situation. It is your body and you are in charge . Good luck let us know what you find out.

[Magicaledelishus]

Oh man I'm sorry. KUP of course..
I can't imagine how stressful that must be... *hugs*

[missy123]

I am so sorry you are going through this. Loss is hard enough without the rollercoaster you are going through. ((Hugs))

[mrsissa]

I'm sorry you're in so much pain right now and I hope today goes by really quickly. I'm here thinking about you too.

[Amanda C]

I'm sorry you're going through this. (( HUGS)) I hope you get some positive answers tomorrow.

[mum74]

[charm]

Celena I am sorry you are going through this but shouldn't he alteast do a U/S before giving you such a strong drug? KUP and goodluck.

[Mel1979]

Sorry you are going through this but I would make sure that the Dr is positive before taking any drugs.

[sportsmom2]

Prayers and Hugs your way.... I hope you get some clear answers today at your appointment. I wish none of us ever had to go through all of these ups and downs. Good Luck!