Mrsissa...
I expierenced the same thing... of course all the jealousy, anger and deep sadness even tho I didn't mean to. Well my aunt had sent me a comment "when are you due pg woman. My DD is pg and is Xwks along "

I was so so sad, she didn't know what happened so I told her.
Not even 2-2.5 weeks later she sends me a very long letter saying my cousin lost her baby

I lost it, I still lose it. I admit I was jealous, I didn't want to hear about her and then I felt absolutly AWEFUL when I had gotten that letter.
My cousin and I have been talking allot, she's doing pretty well the more we've talked and the more she's talked with others n her doc.

I'm very sorry about your SIL and how it made the flood gates of devastation open up on you all over. Just when we think we're doing a little better, healing and then BAM! we're knocked down again.
I'm very sorry and I hope that you both can help each other thru this... it can sorta be healing for yourself to help her thru it

KUP and I hope you feel better SOON!!