The same old bag (mc mentioned) - UPDATE

farasha · #1 September 3rd, 2009, 05:19 AM

Well, my Dr. had told me yesterday when I called about the heavy bleeding and crampign that I should take ibuprofen and an HPT and see if it gets better. I told her there was no way I was pregnant, because I had just had my period for 7 days and it was a normal period.

So boy was I shocked when the HPT was positive. I don't even understand what happened.

I went to the ER, because I just wanted to get this all over with. I wanted to make sure it wasn't etopic. It wasn't. They took a beta, and it was only 80. I don't know how far along I was, but I never passed any tissue so it couldn't have been past 5 weeks. I had such a long crazy 60 day cycle before, that I really just don't know. I had two possible ovulation dates 1 week apart (according to my bbt). I thought the second one was the real one, but it must have been implantation. My best guess is that I was 5 weeks.

I don't understand why I'm bleeding SO MUCH for a pregnancy so early. If you put my fake period together with this week, then it's been 10 days (approx 7 heavy).

I'm just so numb. Since I didn't know I was pregnant, I didn't even mourn anything. I was almost relieved that I didn't have to have a D&C, and that I could just go back to work today. I almost wish I didn't even know.

My pregnancies just keep getting shorter. I'm so tired. I'm so heartbroken.
What's the use of getting pregnant easily if I just kill everything?

I have so much work today, I'm just going to try and keep myself busy. I just wanted to update everyone. Thanks for all your T&Ps. You girls mean a lot to me.

mlyster · #2 September 3rd, 2009, 05:56 AM

Kristin I can not believe you have to go through this after everything you have already been through. It sucks! What a shock to see a positive pg test when you think you are in the midst of a strange period and strange cycle. I am glad you are looking at the few positives (no D&C, etc). We are all here for you!!

Trish36 · #3 September 3rd, 2009, 08:37 AM

Oh Kristin, I'm so sorry that you are going through this again!! HUGS!!!!! Are they going to repeat the beta? Is there any chance that you are not m/c and are just very early and there is another reason for the bleeding???? I really hope that a miracle happens and everything turns out good for you!!!!!

.:Shortcake:. · #4 September 3rd, 2009, 08:46 AM

OH hunnie I am so sorry. That just sucks. There is nothing I can say that is going to take your pain away but I'm here if you need to vent, cry, talk I'm here hun. And its just not fair.

amandakay29 · #5 September 3rd, 2009, 10:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Trish36

Oh Kristin, I'm so sorry that you are going through this again!! HUGS!!!!! Are they going to repeat the beta? Is there any chance that you are not m/c and are just very early and there is another reason for the bleeding???? I really hope that a miracle happens and everything turns out good for you!!!!!

I was wondering the same thing Trish.

Kristen.

L-SBB · #6 September 3rd, 2009, 10:11 AM

Kristin i'm so sorry....that just sucks

I hope your Dr can give you some insight on what's happening and a potential cause for these losses. Were you taking anything for the potential blood clotting issue or no? We're all here for you sweetie - i don't blame you for being numb right now...this is too much to keep going through so rapidly. HUGS

farasha · #7 September 3rd, 2009, 10:22 AM

Thanks ladies. I don't think it's possible that this pregnancy is viable - I've been bleeding heavy for so many days. The numbers were so low, it would have indicated implantation just happened last week (if it were a healthy pregnancy), and I just don't see how. But they are checking the betas tomorrow... at least I'll know if they're going down or not.

For the record (good point Lara!), I was taking baby aspirin for my blood clotting this time. If that was the problem, then it obviously didn't help. Still, it makes me more convinced I should be more aggressive with some real blood thinners... I have an appt with an RE in two weeks. We'll see what else they can do since I'm officially RPL now. Blah. Blah Blah Blah. I feel so blah.

Celena · #8 September 3rd, 2009, 11:20 AM

I'm speechless

I don't want to throw false hope out there, but a really good friend of mine bleed bright red and heavy for her first 19-20 weeks of pregnancy and then it turned to brown spotting. They told her she was miscarrying TWICE and all sorts of things in the ER, but here she is only a month away from her due date! Healthy baby and all. So who knows!

I hope that all that can be done is done to help you any way possible!!!! I have a whole lotta prayers being said for you and please KUP, I'm gonna say we're all going to be worried for you now!!!

I'm so incrediably sorry!!!!

Kary♥RN · #9 September 3rd, 2009, 12:42 PM

Oh Kristin, I am so sorry..... This is just so unfair. I hope they can get an idea of what is going on. But I do agree with Trish... Hoping for a miracle! HUGS

JessP · #10 September 3rd, 2009, 01:27 PM

I am so sorry you are going through this. I hope you get that miracle. Hugs!

momof6lopez · #11 September 3rd, 2009, 02:42 PM

Im so sorry for this to happen to you AGAIN. Its not fair. I pray for a quick answer on your betas, either way up (ya!) or way down. I know you feel the need to move on and get this over with, I would feel the same way. Thinking of you......

Elijah'sMommy · #12 September 3rd, 2009, 04:23 PM

Aw Kristin, I can't believe you are going through this again. It is so unfair. I am hoping for a miracle for you. Big hugs.

Oreobaby · #13 September 3rd, 2009, 05:32 PM

I am so horribly sorry...

I don't even know what to say...

~InHisHands~ · #14 September 3rd, 2009, 06:21 PM

Oh no... that is just heartbreaking!

charm · #15 September 4th, 2009, 04:37 AM

Kristin I am so sorry *HUGS* I don't know what to say sorry.

AliciaF · #16 September 4th, 2009, 08:59 AM

I'm sorry.

If you're FVL, I would definitely push for Lovenox and to start the Lovenox at 3dpo. I have APS and MTHFR, 2 different blood clotting problems but similar in complications to FVL. Baby aspirin alone was not enough for me. I had 2 miscarriages when on baby aspirin alone and the 1st cycle that I started Lovenox (along with baby aspirin) I conceived and am now 29w2d.

I firmly believe that the Lovenox made the difference for me.

krystal g · #17 September 4th, 2009, 11:25 AM

I don't know what to say other than this sucks and I'm sorry. I hope that at least now you can get some more aggressive treatment. KUP on the beta levels. <<hugs>>

sodagirl · #18 September 4th, 2009, 04:53 PM

Hugs and Love! and you don't kill anything!!!! You grow beautiful little lives even if they are short. I guess heaven just needs a good supply of angels! really - be good to yourself - good luck and much love!

Sue46 · #19 September 4th, 2009, 05:45 PM

Kristen, I haven't been around much but I want you to know that I am thinking of you and I am so sorry this happened again. I'm right there with you and there are no words to make it better. My pregnancies got shorter and shorter too. I hope you get some answers. When is your appt? I have one for next Wed, the 16th.

farasha · #20 September 4th, 2009, 05:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Sue46

Kristen, I haven't been around much but I want you to know that I am thinking of you and I am so sorry this happened again. I'm right there with you and there are no words to make it better. My pregnancies got shorter and shorter too. I hope you get some answers. When is your appt? I have one for next Wed, the 16th.

Sue - I have an appt with an RE for RPL on the 15th. I truly hope we get some much needed help and support....Update me?