[SkyBaby]

I signed into an old email account I never really used and saw a pregnancy ticker thingie. I signed up for email developmental updates on the baby. I would be 13 weeks or so right now. I didn't open it, I didn't delete it. I just went and go the email I was looking for on that account then signed off. The pain all came flooding back like it happened yesterday. All the what-ifs, was it something i did?, why me? All those questions. I really was getting to be as ok as I could be about it. It just isn't pleasant. (understatement of the century right) Earlier this morning, I was laughing and visiting with my sis in law here in california visiting from texas. I really think what would help is a BFP. I'm in my two week wait. If my hubby and I are correct, I should have ovulated over the weekend. I guess we shall see.

[sodagirl]

((((Hugs))))) sweetie! My first m/c EDD is in 2 days - so i keep thinking about it too - and it's been 6 months! - it's hard.
remember - you didn't do anything wrong! Why you - why me? we can't answer that. i like the idea that heaven needs more angels I also know if my mil hadn't had a mc- i wouldn't have my husband. hugs love and baby dust!!!! (and say hi to california for me )

[~InHisHands~]

[starrsgirl]

I'm so sorry this upset you! Big Hugs. Also...watch out if you signed up for any baby registeries. I did and they sent me a bunch of coupons like a month after my EDD for stuff to buy "now that I had the baby". aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

[ablake06]

i understand as well - i still have stuff that comes in the mail! i see it as - i will use this some day - it was hard at first! trust me - when i got home from my surgery i had stuff in the mail saying Congrats on your upcoming pregnancy! it was hard! but realize everything happens for a reason!!!! i also keep getting emails - i don't read them and i don't delete them i put them in a pregnancy folder and will read them when i am!! they are mainly emails about exercisng and eating during preganncy! i did discontinue the newsletters but will rejoin when i do get pregannt again!

just remember you did nothing wrong!!! it will happen for you!!!! i have faith it will!!!

[farasha]

HUGS hun. I hate that! You think you're doing ok today and then WHAM! Ugh. Maybe DH can delete those things for you and unsubscribe you from those emails.

I hope you get a BFP soon too hun.

[SkyBaby]

Thank you so much girls! It's great to know I'm not alone. Getting stuff in the mail/email doesn't help. I think I'll ask my wonderful DH to unsubscribe for me.

[Celena]

I can totally relate, I keep getting emails that I didn't even sign up for that say "congratulations you're in week 13" which is the one I got this week. I delete them and then forget to go to their unsubscribe before the deleting!!

It's so frustrating to have those little reminders.... it gets easier, but we never forget. Hang in there honey we all can feel your pain!!!

[..Penelope..]

[Kary♥RN]

HUGS... I understand.. I have had 3 losses in 11 months.. In the last month I have gotten 3 diapers, a whole container of furmula, and coupons for baby's first picture, for free! Oh boy do I get a baby for free too?? .... I can't stand it! I hate getting the mail. I wish they knew the hurt when you get this stuff. I hope your BFP comes in the comming weeks! HUGS

I remember having the same thing happen. What I really hated was all the facebook people telling everyone they were pregnant or showing new baby photos. It seems like everytime I logged on I was hit by all of them. I told the computer to F..... off on day because I was just done with it.

[BigGrin]

I don't even open mail that comes that is baby related. I avoid my friend's FB if I know they are pregnant. I even go as far as to stay away from this board sometimes to avoid seeing pregnancy tickers. It's hard and sometimes I wish I could go to an island with no one on it until the pain passes. Big hugs hun, this too shall pass.

[JessP]

I had that happen when I got a new computer. I linked my gmail account to the computer email and in came all the emails I sent to the ddc I was in. It was an email yahoo group. I found the emails saying how great the hb was at 13 weeks and how we thought we are finally doing good. I started crying and went to bed. DH didn't know what to do. It was rough. I hope you are able to have DH delete those for you.

[SkyBaby]

It just hits me. Out of the blue sometimes. I managed to recover myself after sobbing on my sis in law's shoulder. My husband, his dad, and his uncle were all off on this man's day out, so DH wasn't around for that. I did lose it in the car on the way to my in-law's house.

Thank you so much for all your encouragement! It's helping so much..

Big HUGS to all of you wonderful ladies.

[sodagirl]

Hugs and more hugs!!!! and remember it is totally ok to cry!! we need too.