[Oreobaby]

This is my first cycle back TTC after loss...and after being so antsy about trying again...I'm nervous. I am nervous that it will take another 14 months. I'm nervous that I may have another loss. I'm nervous that all these things will just make me down in the dumps...

Anyone else nervous their first month back to TTC after loss?

[Kary♥RN]

I wasn't nervous as much as anxious.... I wanted to be pregnant so bad... I was crushed when that cycle was over and I wasn't... I don't think this cycle will be as bad at the first... since I have already been through this twice before. And now I am more apprehensive of what will be, and it is out of my hands. It has finally hit me I am at the mercy of the Universe, God, The Higher beings that may be...

[farasha]

I was definitely nervous. I think I always will be... but like Kary, I'm beginning to accept that I have no control over the situation...even if it drives me NUTS that I don't. So maybe crazy is the better word to describe me.

[mlyster]

I am still nervous. I think for me the reality of actually having a child is what made me nervous at the beginning and now I think it is the what if I am pregnant that makes me nervous - the fear of the unknown is what makes me nervous. Honestly the first time DH and I didn't protect I was nervous... that part has warn off and now I am only nervous around testing time and not so much the actual BD time.

[JessP]

I was so excited to finally be TTC and now that we are past O date and could be I am starting to worry. All the what if it happens again... you know. But then I think about the baby i will get to hold and I just try to relax. Sometimes it works sometimes it doesn't LOL.

[..Penelope..]

I hope you get a quick, sticky BFP, hon.

[KDD]

I'm like Kary, more anxious than nervous. I'm sure that the nerves will come back when I finally get pg again.

[momof6lopez]

I was not nervous or anxious, more excited to feel like a woman again. (two weeks of no bd'ing made my loss even harder). When the first cycle passed, we were NTNP, I was kinda relieved that nothing had happened. I feared getting a BFP too quick before my body had time to heal. Since then, I have had some months of sadness and some months of "Im ok". I have just left everything up to fate.

[Oreobaby]

I'm glad that I am not the only one...and it definately is between nervous and anxious!! Thanks girls...it helps to know I'm not alone (even though I know I'm not alone, sometimes it's nice to get some reassurance)

[Celena]

It was exciting at first, kinda perked me up.... but in the same breath scared, axious, nervous for so many reasons!

You're definitly not alone

[Trish36]

I've gone through a whole range of emotions, from scared to anxious to excited to angry to disappointed. Now I'm just thinking...hurry up already! how much more can I do??

[sharilyn]

i'm anxious too...and disappointed so far, i wanna be pregnant so bad! af is to start sat. and i don't wanna take a test b/c i want not to be disappointed before i have to be...isn't that dumb?!?