trying not to be scared...(pg mentioned)

Oreobaby · #1 October 8th, 2009, 07:26 PM

So...tomorrow is the day...the day I started spotting with my first pregnancy, and I'm trying so hard to be positive, and I was doing well, I really was...till I went to the washroom just now, and I am sure there was the tiniest spot of pink on the TP, not only that...there was a lot of creamy stuff (which I am sure is the progesterone pills) which means, I guess I didn't put them up far enough, but it seemed like my cervix was about medium, not high, like I could reach it with the tip of my fingers, and I don't know where my cervix was the last time I MC cause I was always told not to put anything up there once you were PG...and I'm trying really hard not to be nervous...but it's so hard.

I'm sorry, I just needed to get it out!! Please pray...I want this baby bean so bad.

KDD · #2 October 8th, 2009, 08:03 PM

Marci - I replied in TTC#1 already. Reading your post again, I'm wondering if the colour that you saw on the TP is also from the pills. Please try not to stress out. I know that you will make it through tomorrow.

mlyster · #3 October 8th, 2009, 08:03 PM

Marci - take a deep breath! I had the same kind of feelings on Wednesday when I passed my EDD for my second loss. Like at any moment you are going to see what you don't want to see. But you have to relax. There is no reason to believe it will happen again. And i had those moments where i was sure i saw the smallest amount of something on the TP - never anything! Always just the light or dark urine or something else explainable. Tomorrow will be tough but you will get through it. Try and avoid the bathroom tomorrow unless you absolutely need to - will help with the TP obsession (this is a lesson I am telling you becuase I learned it the hard way on Wednesday).

Also i am having the creamy CM too and I am not on progesterone so its a good sign I think.

Celena · #4 October 8th, 2009, 08:05 PM

Marci please don't be scared or worry, I'm thinking of you and praying everything is alright!!!! Can you get squeezed into your OB's office? Perhaps it's all from the progesterone and it's irritating things on the inside? Maybe a yeast infection? Have any wild romping? Try to take it easy, kick your feet up and drink plenty of water to stay hydrated

please KUP

JessP · #5 October 8th, 2009, 08:31 PM

I am so sorry you are stressed. You will do great tomorrow I am sure. And also with putting things inside or checking you could be irritating your cervix like Celena said. Try to relax (easier said than done) and tomorrow will be over before you know it.

Magicaledelishus · #6 October 8th, 2009, 10:56 PM

So sorry to hear that you are stressing out.. I totally get it. As you know, the best thing you can do is to relax. So take a deep breath, and relax that just because something happened to you once, doesn't mean it'll happen again. *hugs*

~InHisHands~ · #7 October 9th, 2009, 04:11 AM

Marci, I'm adding you to my prayer list now!

.:Shortcake:. · #8 October 9th, 2009, 04:36 AM

Hugs hun! Praying for you and your little bean!

TeresaSuperMama · #9 October 9th, 2009, 04:39 AM

(((Hugs))) I will keep you and your baby in my prayers.

Oreobaby · #10 October 9th, 2009, 04:49 AM

Thanks girls...I took another test this morning, and I'm feeling better...as long as the spotting will not be back, then my first milestone will be complete...the one after that is getting past the actual MC date which was at 11 wks (although, the baby hadn't grown past about 9. So if I can get past the next 4 weeks...I think I will be feeling better...thanks for your continued thoughts and prayers, and sorry for my freak out...I think that I am going to as my GP to do beta's....see if he will.

*MomofO&Nat* · #11 October 9th, 2009, 05:26 AM

Good luck, hun! We are all thinking of you!

Trish36 · #12 October 9th, 2009, 05:48 AM

Marci..everything will be fine, you'll see!!! As hard as it is please try to relax and enjoy the pregnancy and keep on baking that baby for the next 8 months!

..Penelope.. · #13 October 9th, 2009, 11:59 AM

Don't be sorry! We all have freak outs! My loss date (9 wks), the day I started spotting (11 wks), and the day we found out (12 wks) were really hard for me, as well, because even though I knew there was a very slim chance of losing the baby again under similar circumstances, I couldn't shake the fear.

You and baby are in my T&P. Huge

Celena · #14 October 9th, 2009, 12:20 PM

I'm glasd to hear you're feeling a little better Marci... one day at a time and *ENJOY THE NOW* and try not to wrap your head around all the "what if's" focus on being pregnant now instead of what has happened... remember every pregnancy is different

I totally understand your feelings and they're valid... I just want to blow some positive winds your way and hope that it helps! (I'd probably be freaking out and stressed like you too)